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Last week I had my last exam and I passed it, so I'll be completely free for the next three months. I was gonna leave next week with my boyfriend but we broke up yesterday night. I'm still leaving 'cause I paid for this holiday and 'cause I really need some rest by the sea..I decided to ask my best friend to come with me and he said yes. I know it's wrong, I know I should feel bad, sad, lonely and in a lot of other depressive moods but I don't. I'm happy it's over. I feel finally free. I love my best friend, I truly do..he's the most important person in my life, more than my mom or my dad.. I'm glad he decided to come with me. I know I'm gonna have fun, I know I'm gonna enjoy it. Of course I cried, I felt alone and a kinda empty without him but it's over, we couldn't go on that way.
Tomorrow night I'm going to a party. There'll be the love of my life. We slept together twice but never had a date or something. I've been thinking about him for months. I know he's the one. The way I feel when he talks to me, the way this voice sounds, his lips move..it's undescribable. Yes, I'm in love and I hate it. I feel weak, but I can't help, this feeling's stronger than me. Everytime we talk and one of us goes away I cry and realize that I'm just a toy for him. He'll never feel the same way for me. He has too many girls..too many beautiful girls, more beautiful, funnier and more special that me. It's how it goes, I'll sleep with him until his heart's content 'cause I need it, I need him, I need his touch.. I feel used.
Anyway..
I'm doing an Addison (Grey's Anatomy's character) video and I'll post it as soon as I come back.
See you on July 15!
Last week I had my last exam and I passed it, so I'll be completely free for the next three months. I was gonna leave next week with my boyfriend but we broke up yesterday night. I'm still leaving 'cause I paid for this holiday and 'cause I really need some rest by the sea..I decided to ask my best friend to come with me and he said yes. I know it's wrong, I know I should feel bad, sad, lonely and in a lot of other depressive moods but I don't. I'm happy it's over. I feel finally free. I love my best friend, I truly do..he's the most important person in my life, more than my mom or my dad.. I'm glad he decided to come with me. I know I'm gonna have fun, I know I'm gonna enjoy it. Of course I cried, I felt alone and a kinda empty without him but it's over, we couldn't go on that way.
Tomorrow night I'm going to a party. There'll be the love of my life. We slept together twice but never had a date or something. I've been thinking about him for months. I know he's the one. The way I feel when he talks to me, the way this voice sounds, his lips move..it's undescribable. Yes, I'm in love and I hate it. I feel weak, but I can't help, this feeling's stronger than me. Everytime we talk and one of us goes away I cry and realize that I'm just a toy for him. He'll never feel the same way for me. He has too many girls..too many beautiful girls, more beautiful, funnier and more special that me. It's how it goes, I'll sleep with him until his heart's content 'cause I need it, I need him, I need his touch.. I feel used.
Anyway..
I'm doing an Addison (Grey's Anatomy's character) video and I'll post it as soon as I come back.
See you on July 15!