today is a big day...
at 10:30am I hand in my official application to get into the American Dream program and it gets sent to lansing. They only allow about half of the people in the program. I've already signed up for 3 of the courses. and I was justttt thinking about it earlier today, I can already tell them I have $975 of the $2500 I'm supposed to save for in 6 months, b/c that is my deposit that I paid for the house, that Kelly will have to pay me back anyways. so That might help presuade them as well. I'm allowed to write a letter of sorts convincing them that I dererve to be qualified for this program, so I probably will tonight. But if anyone else would like to write a small paragraph saying that I'm very responsible, etc, etc--I won't stop you!=D just send it to my inbox and I'll print it out tonight.
then at 4pm I have the in-person interview at the casino. Pretty much I should find out if I have the job or not tomorrow. I look like a fucking lawyer in the suit I got. I'll be sure to have steve take a picture of it tomorrow. haha.
In case anyone has been under a rock the past few years, this is why I need this job so bad:
-benefits in 90 days. dental, vision and everything. AKA I can be put back on my meds that I have been off of for 4 years, so I will no longer be making trips to the hospital for anxiety or asthma. AND my brain will be put back to normal. No more mood-swing crabby bitch all the time! This alone is probably the number one reason, it would help eliminate my biggest problems.
-a NORMAL fucking job, where I don't have to rely on tips or making $2.65/hr. but don't worry if I DO get this job, I couldn't leave my CB family I would at least pull a Renee and work once a month or something---haha. you guys are too much like family to me.
-a NORMAL paycheck, where I could put money in the bank right away and maybe not have to live hour to hour like I do now. We don't live day to day around here people. hour to hour.
-having some money to put aside for our wedding?! Um yeah, b/c that shit is fastttt approaching.
This is just so beyond important and I've had this job at the barrel for too fucking long. --going on 4 years now-- and before that was fucking Meijers. I know with us having to save an extra $417 a month for this ADDI program to get the house will still have us struggling, but it'll be worth it and once that's over. We will be so fucking comfortable and be able to paint the house and shit and buy new furniture. Right now I am able to get some credit cards to do that, but I'm not going to fuck myself over. I will wait.
all I ask is for some prayers....