Apr 19, 2006 18:36
so... you're 18? for one thing, you don't have to feel weird about turning 19 soon haha. you've got two more years of teen-ness ahead of you. you can do crazier things in canada. rowr, if there are crazier things to do there. hahaha :D
so what do you say to someone who's just turned 18? most people give advice, with you entering into ACTUAL adulthood and all. you've got a future ahead of you to plan into making it your own. but i don't have good advice. i'm still living out my 18-ness, and sometimes i still act 10. sometimes i still feel like i'm 15. hell, do i have the breasts of an 18 year old? anyway, back to business. no advice.
only love. it's cheesy, it's overused, it's annoyingly cliche. you've heard it a million times before as we ym and i email you my problems.
i love you. no matter how far you are. no matter how long we haven't seen each other. i love you even if we haven't had a real conversation over coffee. i love you even more as i think of you. most people would think i would be crazy to love someone so much even if she's so goddamn far. but how can i not love someone who i was even closer to when she was far far away. i mean c'mon, our friendship (yes friendship, di to lesbian relationship as some people confuse it to be :P) has reached a level even higher than it had been when you were within the country.
the best thing about you is the fact i've found the most REAL friendship in what we have between us. you're someone i can go to no matter what, that even if i went into a black hole and disappeared... you'd be there for me if i reappeared (RIGHT?? RIGHT? *GLARING EYES* hahaha). i've learned that i can be brutally honest with myself with you, and you will embrace me with unchanging trust and love.
you maybe far too emotional and frail. but i think you're far stronger than you think yourself to be. despite the emotional holes you put yourself in, you manage to find a way back out. you've NEVER completely given up. sure you can be an idiot with prince philips but such stupidity is only temporary. what you've got in you for the long run is far greater. genuine goodness, honesty and subtle strength.
you never allow yourself to be completely cynical. yes, everytime i watch greys i do see my icacho in meredith. only you've got nemo eyes not sexy eyes hahahaha. but trust me honey, you've got her knack for rising above crap. you just don't give yourself enough credit. :P and yes, i'm sure you'll find that mcdreamy. yes YOURS. :)
ica, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. you deserve a great one. and one day we'll celebrate it together.
here's to more years of a friendship that has withstood seas and continents. hee. thank god for the internet.
thank god for you :)