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Tonight is Marc's party. I guess it's officially back on. Actually I don't think it ever got officially cancelled, but not many other people know that it happened. I've been down all day. Of course, I woke up in time for work even though it is Saturday...I wish I could sleep better, but that just isn't going to happen for me. I pretty much forced myself to eat breakfast. McDonald's is something that I would normally want, but my appetite has left me again. I watched a movie half heartedly trying to distract myself from thinking, but I can never seem to do that for long. I just kept thinking about Emily and hoping and wishing that we could be together again. I don't know what my chances are of this actually happening, but it's still my hope. I figure I'll go to Marc's house soon and start drinking again...this time it will be more socially acceptable than before. I'm sure I'll do more posting on what happens at the party tonight...hopefully it all goes well and nothing bad happens.
Rewind...Friday night
After I got off work and got my money I couldn't stop thinking. I tried to sleep a little since I was tired, probably from all the vomiting I did that morning...That didn't work too well. I finally got up and made myself dinner and forced myself to eat most of it. By that point I didn't care anymore, so I started in on more whiskey. I didn't drink too much of it when I decided to go to Marc's house and see what's there, so me and my bottle went for a drive. I didn't really drink much at Marc's. I just kind of sat on the couch with Larry and watched him play a game he rented for his 360. A few hours later, a little before 10 pm, Emily came by after work to get the movie she left there the previous night. Apparently her mom was pissed at her for leaving it there. Some random conversation, including her listening to Dane Cook for the first time, and her mom called her. Apparently she is sick and bitched her out for not being home immediately after work. Marc told Emily to tell her mother to mind her own fucking business and that she would be home when she gets home...if only she could actually do that. I think that would be a huge step in her not being controlled by her mother, but it won't happen. She left with movie in hand and I continued to watch Larry play. It was kind of an interesting game, and he finally beat it around 12:30. Even though there were still things happening, I just wasn't in the mood to be there anymore so I left around 1:15 or so.
Rewind...Friday night
After I got off work and got my money I couldn't stop thinking. I tried to sleep a little since I was tired, probably from all the vomiting I did that morning...That didn't work too well. I finally got up and made myself dinner and forced myself to eat most of it. By that point I didn't care anymore, so I started in on more whiskey. I didn't drink too much of it when I decided to go to Marc's house and see what's there, so me and my bottle went for a drive. I didn't really drink much at Marc's. I just kind of sat on the couch with Larry and watched him play a game he rented for his 360. A few hours later, a little before 10 pm, Emily came by after work to get the movie she left there the previous night. Apparently her mom was pissed at her for leaving it there. Some random conversation, including her listening to Dane Cook for the first time, and her mom called her. Apparently she is sick and bitched her out for not being home immediately after work. Marc told Emily to tell her mother to mind her own fucking business and that she would be home when she gets home...if only she could actually do that. I think that would be a huge step in her not being controlled by her mother, but it won't happen. She left with movie in hand and I continued to watch Larry play. It was kind of an interesting game, and he finally beat it around 12:30. Even though there were still things happening, I just wasn't in the mood to be there anymore so I left around 1:15 or so.