What Hurts The Most...
Ok so I had the best weekend in D.C with Tyler.
I've honestly never spent like every waking moment with anyone(with the exception of Sarah) and it was really nice.
He and I ate together, talked all the time...he was honestly the sweetest guy ever to me.
We went to his mom's(who loves me still!) and I spent time with the family.
It was just a really good thing.(Not to mention I got some...though I'm sure noone wanted to know that)
Anyways, after he dropped me off as far as he could go in National, he sent me a text telling me he loved me and he missed me.
He's been tellin me he loves me since we first dated forever ago.
I totally believe it.
He's said it to my face, via text, and in phone convos, so I know he means it.
So can someone tell me why I'm currently sitting here with a half bottle of wine completely bummed out about him???
I didn't wanna go down this road again, I really honestly didn't.
I can't need someone this much.
I guess I'm right when I really say I'm not as strong as people say I am.
Tyler has me under this spell where I feel like I need him to call me, to tell me he loves me...TO REMEMBER ME!!!
Do you know how much that hurts to be forgotten by someone who is supposed to love you????
I really do love him which is why this sucks so much.
He's based in MD, I'm in KS.
Why can't the people I love be around me??
Sara, Sarah, Tyler...
I just don't understand.
And all of a sudden he's too busy to talk to me when this time last week he was texting, calling me everyday.
I don't wanna cry about it, but it just isn't what I wanted.
It's not what I want...
So maybe I'll finish off this bottle of wine
This just sucks.
I miss everyone...
I hate being alone...
I need to be alone
P.S. we were watching scenes from Breakfast at Tiffany's in my film music class and I literally had to hold back tears during Moon River because I almost cried...
HATE MY LIFE!!!
I've honestly never spent like every waking moment with anyone(with the exception of Sarah) and it was really nice.
He and I ate together, talked all the time...he was honestly the sweetest guy ever to me.
We went to his mom's(who loves me still!) and I spent time with the family.
It was just a really good thing.(Not to mention I got some...though I'm sure noone wanted to know that)
Anyways, after he dropped me off as far as he could go in National, he sent me a text telling me he loved me and he missed me.
He's been tellin me he loves me since we first dated forever ago.
I totally believe it.
He's said it to my face, via text, and in phone convos, so I know he means it.
So can someone tell me why I'm currently sitting here with a half bottle of wine completely bummed out about him???
I didn't wanna go down this road again, I really honestly didn't.
I can't need someone this much.
I guess I'm right when I really say I'm not as strong as people say I am.
Tyler has me under this spell where I feel like I need him to call me, to tell me he loves me...TO REMEMBER ME!!!
Do you know how much that hurts to be forgotten by someone who is supposed to love you????
I really do love him which is why this sucks so much.
He's based in MD, I'm in KS.
Why can't the people I love be around me??
Sara, Sarah, Tyler...
I just don't understand.
And all of a sudden he's too busy to talk to me when this time last week he was texting, calling me everyday.
I don't wanna cry about it, but it just isn't what I wanted.
It's not what I want...
So maybe I'll finish off this bottle of wine
This just sucks.
I miss everyone...
I hate being alone...
I need to be alone
P.S. we were watching scenes from Breakfast at Tiffany's in my film music class and I literally had to hold back tears during Moon River because I almost cried...
HATE MY LIFE!!!