this title is beyond me
I realized that I do not have mental capacity to sum up the last few days in a matter that would not end up as long as my thesis, or pick and choose the important moments so that you could at least read in some interesting manner about them.
The thing is I am home as of yesterday. Moved out from Brno completely. I am home for an undefined period of time, and it is scaring the hell out of me. For the past 6 years, when home, I had had that blissful knowledge of only-this-many-days/weeks-and-I´ll-go-back-to-being-able-to-function-on-my-own-terms to fall back on, and now it is gone. It does miracles, it´s easier to bite your tongue, hold back and just nod dumbly . . . Now I have nothing.
In general, one psychologist once analyzed my handwriting and said it shows how I always look ahead of myself, how I live more for the future than for anything else. No matter how accurate she was or wasn’t, my future right now is a black hole. It is only a little maddening. Ok that is a lie, I have finals - state exams as they are called here to look forward on one day of the week of September 5th but that´s not really much.
The practical side of me moving back is that my room is a battlefield, my closet is over its capacity, and I need to do some major organizing and letting go of old clothes. DNW. I hate spending days in my closet.
Currently I have a weekend of laundry doing ahead of me, mine and my sister’s and my family’s, but mostly mine, and it is ugly. As of tomorrow afternoon everyone is gone, so it’s only me doing loads and loads and loads of it. I have also come home to some ugly law related (at least in my parent’s mind) task. I hate the way they put it. “Let the young ~lawyer~ deal with it.” Believe me the young lawyer phrase was said with so much irony, condescend and expectation at the same time I never thought it was possible. The worst part is, from what I´ve seen, while it is totally not fair and outraging and idiotic and just worth of several ugly letters, phone calls and being very mean, legally the other side had done everything in their power to secure their position and had done it too well. Not that my parents can go elsewhere. Having a national monopoly is a great thing.
I have also wanted to go on a holiday with my parents next week. I am surprised I willingly said yes, but I blame my brain that could only thing water, salt, sea, water anytime I want, swim, swim, swim . . . Due to my current “legal task,” the family holiday was called off ;__; So I tried to find at least something for me and my brother because this way he has nothing to do in the next 2 weeks and that is very very very troublesome. And I still want water, swimming and salt and water and swimming and salt. I have nothing mainly because it´s really ultra last minute and also because all those places that kind of have at least the minimal requirements we have set come out super expensive - only because, since there is just the two of us wanting to go, my 8 years old brother has to pay the full prize . . .
What else. I have some things I am to blog about. Underwear was it? And I have 5 questions so I should get on with that. I also sadly did not forget about promising people an Ohkura picspam ;__;
And I should finally talk DOA. As my partner said in the title of her post: “There is so much I could say, but . . .”
It sums it up quite well so I will bite my tongue and do not say what I could. Mostly. There are still things left I want to say.
Rin is amazing and this is where I thank her so so so much for taking me aboard, coping with me, with my fails and fuzziness, with my constant getting off track and my never ending emails. She has read every single word of what we wrote one too many times but she was awesome about it and yet again I have learned so much.
I have also almost recorded myself purring and laughed my head off so many times in the process that I am a little surprised I still have one on my shoulders. My ass is huge enough for me to be save enough LMAO for the rest of my life (and for the first time I am thankful for that I guess). I have also gained some knowledge on Rin’s ass come to think of it . . . Ok I should stop. DOA writing process was one big adventure, and I hope you guys all can say that too, that you feel as good about doing this as I do because modding it too was yet another fun thing to do. Wondering if you won´t send me to hell with the poor attempts at buttons was an interesting feel as well.
Oh and Rin doing bad fic requests too is a very nice side effect.
This is kind of here because I could not help it, technically for Rin with loads of ♥ although probably much more for me
(I went all aaww at that part of that one email, ugh vague much?)
Now I should really repost the DOA. We almost went on and made quite an alternative version of this, having quite a few things that could have gone a bit differently. We more or less abandoned the idea, but the version I´m posting still has different subtitles and one dialogue change at the end. It’s a little creepy I want more of that verse.
Ok this still is an essay, though not as long as my thesis. I am drained and feel like I could sleep for a week. I hope no matter what I´ll get over it soon because I should be writing those exchanges I have of course signed up for.
Have a nice weekend!
The thing is I am home as of yesterday. Moved out from Brno completely. I am home for an undefined period of time, and it is scaring the hell out of me. For the past 6 years, when home, I had had that blissful knowledge of only-this-many-days/weeks-and-I´ll-go-back-to-being-able-to-function-on-my-own-terms to fall back on, and now it is gone. It does miracles, it´s easier to bite your tongue, hold back and just nod dumbly . . . Now I have nothing.
In general, one psychologist once analyzed my handwriting and said it shows how I always look ahead of myself, how I live more for the future than for anything else. No matter how accurate she was or wasn’t, my future right now is a black hole. It is only a little maddening. Ok that is a lie, I have finals - state exams as they are called here to look forward on one day of the week of September 5th but that´s not really much.
The practical side of me moving back is that my room is a battlefield, my closet is over its capacity, and I need to do some major organizing and letting go of old clothes. DNW. I hate spending days in my closet.
Currently I have a weekend of laundry doing ahead of me, mine and my sister’s and my family’s, but mostly mine, and it is ugly. As of tomorrow afternoon everyone is gone, so it’s only me doing loads and loads and loads of it. I have also come home to some ugly law related (at least in my parent’s mind) task. I hate the way they put it. “Let the young ~lawyer~ deal with it.” Believe me the young lawyer phrase was said with so much irony, condescend and expectation at the same time I never thought it was possible. The worst part is, from what I´ve seen, while it is totally not fair and outraging and idiotic and just worth of several ugly letters, phone calls and being very mean, legally the other side had done everything in their power to secure their position and had done it too well. Not that my parents can go elsewhere. Having a national monopoly is a great thing.
I have also wanted to go on a holiday with my parents next week. I am surprised I willingly said yes, but I blame my brain that could only thing water, salt, sea, water anytime I want, swim, swim, swim . . . Due to my current “legal task,” the family holiday was called off ;__; So I tried to find at least something for me and my brother because this way he has nothing to do in the next 2 weeks and that is very very very troublesome. And I still want water, swimming and salt and water and swimming and salt. I have nothing mainly because it´s really ultra last minute and also because all those places that kind of have at least the minimal requirements we have set come out super expensive - only because, since there is just the two of us wanting to go, my 8 years old brother has to pay the full prize . . .
What else. I have some things I am to blog about. Underwear was it? And I have 5 questions so I should get on with that. I also sadly did not forget about promising people an Ohkura picspam ;__;
And I should finally talk DOA. As my partner said in the title of her post: “There is so much I could say, but . . .”
It sums it up quite well so I will bite my tongue and do not say what I could. Mostly. There are still things left I want to say.
Rin is amazing and this is where I thank her so so so much for taking me aboard, coping with me, with my fails and fuzziness, with my constant getting off track and my never ending emails. She has read every single word of what we wrote one too many times but she was awesome about it and yet again I have learned so much.
I have also almost recorded myself purring and laughed my head off so many times in the process that I am a little surprised I still have one on my shoulders. My ass is huge enough for me to be save enough LMAO for the rest of my life (and for the first time I am thankful for that I guess). I have also gained some knowledge on Rin’s ass come to think of it . . . Ok I should stop. DOA writing process was one big adventure, and I hope you guys all can say that too, that you feel as good about doing this as I do because modding it too was yet another fun thing to do. Wondering if you won´t send me to hell with the poor attempts at buttons was an interesting feel as well.
Oh and Rin doing bad fic requests too is a very nice side effect.
This is kind of here because I could not help it, technically for Rin with loads of ♥ although probably much more for me
(I went all aaww at that part of that one email, ugh vague much?)
Now I should really repost the DOA. We almost went on and made quite an alternative version of this, having quite a few things that could have gone a bit differently. We more or less abandoned the idea, but the version I´m posting still has different subtitles and one dialogue change at the end. It’s a little creepy I want more of that verse.
Ok this still is an essay, though not as long as my thesis. I am drained and feel like I could sleep for a week. I hope no matter what I´ll get over it soon because I should be writing those exchanges I have of course signed up for.
Have a nice weekend!