OMG, i never thought somebody would read this, hehe...! Thank you so much for commenting... It feels great to know that someone actually cares about you, hehe...
This post, actually i made this quite long ago, but i still feel the same as i felt back then sometimes... I'm having this BFF at college that i'm so close with. I trust her with all my heart and share all of my secrets to her. She's like my soulmate, my own twin sister and we rarely got separated.
Tbh, i tend to be posessive over people that i love the most, so i became overly-posessive over her, i even got jealous if she's too close with somebody else (like she should be my BFF only and her attention should be directed to me only). And one day she graduated and i still have quite some time to graduate myself so i got worried (some times before her graduation), i was scared that she'd forget about me and find some other friends, and i was terribly scared thinking about all the time i'd spend without her until my own graduation day come... Sometimes i would even wish silently that she won't graduate soon...
But then i realized that i'm being a selfish and overly-possessive bitch that i couldn't even let her go and be happy for her. I should've trusted her that she wouldn't leave me by myself and forget about me. She's my bestest friend afterall...
That's why in the end i could only cry and try to change myself because it does hurt when you're being overly-possessive over something coz it's really hard to let go when it's time to let go.
I'm getting much better now, she's graduated finally. But we still visit each other sometimes and even though i can't see her everyday, but i just know that she'll be there for me everytime i need her.
And yeah, you're very right! "Sometimes it's hard to change but there's always a room for improvement." And i'm still trying to improve myself more and hopefully in the end i'm really going to be OK! Hehe...
Sorry for the long story, hehe... I'm totally appreciate you for visiting and commenting, it's really motivating, ( ^ o ^ )b
Thank you so much for commenting... It feels great to know that someone actually cares about you, hehe...
This post, actually i made this quite long ago, but i still feel the same as i felt back then sometimes...
I'm having this BFF at college that i'm so close with. I trust her with all my heart and share all of my secrets to her. She's like my soulmate, my own twin sister and we rarely got separated.
Tbh, i tend to be posessive over people that i love the most, so i became overly-posessive over her, i even got jealous if she's too close with somebody else (like she should be my BFF only and her attention should be directed to me only). And one day she graduated and i still have quite some time to graduate myself so i got worried (some times before her graduation), i was scared that she'd forget about me and find some other friends, and i was terribly scared thinking about all the time i'd spend without her until my own graduation day come... Sometimes i would even wish silently that she won't graduate soon...
But then i realized that i'm being a selfish and overly-possessive bitch that i couldn't even let her go and be happy for her. I should've trusted her that she wouldn't leave me by myself and forget about me. She's my bestest friend afterall...
That's why in the end i could only cry and try to change myself because it does hurt when you're being overly-possessive over something coz it's really hard to let go when it's time to let go.
I'm getting much better now, she's graduated finally. But we still visit each other sometimes and even though i can't see her everyday, but i just know that she'll be there for me everytime i need her.
And yeah, you're very right! "Sometimes it's hard to change but there's always a room for improvement." And i'm still trying to improve myself more and hopefully in the end i'm really going to be OK! Hehe...
Sorry for the long story, hehe...
I'm totally appreciate you for visiting and commenting, it's really motivating, ( ^ o ^ )b
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