writer's block
as far as all of you know, i am a girl on the internet who may or may not write fanfiction. but the fact here is, i write irl too.
i am supposed to write for my school in a national competition thing-y. i am so nervous because seriously, there is going to be some INSANE talent in the contest. and i haven't written a thing in MONTHS. not even fanfiction or diary entries or any fucking little thing.
I don't really know. I guess i am just afraid of writing. Like, if i have an idea, and i am thinking about it and writing out parts of it in my head, some other rebellious, non-productive part of my brain keeps snickering at me "wow u r so sentimental meenaz" and "cool story bro". Weird.
I've tried to actually write it out, all my stories and ideas, but I can't. The last time I actually did write something was when the judges were shortlisting the candidates for the competition. I dont- I keep feeling that I will leave a bank paper during the ACTUAL COMPETITION and walk out like a fucking robot.
I don't know if this IS writer's block, or lazy person block or scared person block, I just want it to go AWAY.
Help?