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listing to radio montecarlo2's odd ambient euro-groove mix
a strange bossa nova cover of No Doubt's Don't Speak
I can't quite decide if I like it
it has it's good moments...
I feel so full of life today. ready to burst.
I'm writing to relieve the pressure
so in bursting, I don't burst onto someone
with all those inadvertent complications
that such things bring...
the sky is blue
the temperature is perfect
I went for a long walk at lunch today
drinking it all in
feeling like I could rule the world
from where I was standing on a man-hole cover
flecks of mica reflecting light in pavement
like scattered little diamonds
for one day, I'm not mown over by stress
I'm exultant - ready to pounce and taste
a weekend full of wind and boats
and fierce competition
nights of music and moonlight on the water
my pulse is racing over these simple things
I can hardly contain my desire
to clamp life in a fixed kiss and make out till morning
to drive fast through dark hills
listening to the most exquisite music
windows down and the breeze racing by
it's like being in love
with no object of love
it's freedom
and desire
and lack of fear
it's focus
and acceptance
and lust for life
eyes to see beauty where beauty resides
the dying cast aside
for aren't we all
quickly and
some slowly passing
from life
tooth and claw we must grab
to stay in this moment
our passion
and our pain
and ourselves are one
the delicate house of self
we inhabit
we also watch crumble
our aces fluttering like little birds
arcing through the air
in random and gorgeous array
like the transcendent transit
of the spark of sunlight
on the glossy leather of a patent shoe
so this present disaster
the whole of things
is well-heeled - for that's what we make of it.
take this moment of mania and drink it down
how many ripe days do we get?
how many esctatic moments in this hectic passage?
let loose and enjoy
drain the glass
let's get down to the waters edge
for there are marvels and there are marvels
I want to see it all tonight
let me loose
yes
I want to be the stars reflected
I want to see the stars reflected
I want to be
tonight