Heh...mortality!
So in April I had Pneumonia. I don't think I've ever felt that sick and on the verge of death. Seriously, there were a few times I'd fall asleep and catch myself not breathing...sometimes felt closing my eyes would mean my last breath.
Needless to say, I survived. My energy level, however, has been crap! My Doc stated it could be months...possibly 6 before I feel myself. No kidding! It seems that every menial thing I'd do at work on a day-to-day basis is kicking my ass. I can't help but feel it, but I also feel I have no place to complain. My friend lost his mother during all of this and I couldn't be there for him...it really made me feel like a douche. Then I'm working with my boss and a gal from our HQ who is just trucking along while I'm sweating bullets and feeling like an old man thanks to this energy deficiency...oh, did I mention this gal has only been back to work for a little over a month after some not-so-minor Brain Surgery?
Yeah. So you see where I'm going with this. I'm feeling like an old man with old man symptoms and I can't really say a damn thing about it. It worries my Mom, Amanda...I know you're going to read this so I'll just come out and say it...I'm fucking tired ALL of the time and I feel like shit at least that much. I try, for the sake of everything in this family, to do what I can...but it royally kicks my ass sometimes.
I hope this passes...soon. I just need some light at the end of my tunnel so I can relax because I can, not because I need to. Disneyland is fast approaching and I feel like I'll be ill-prepared if I'm still feeling like this come our departure.
:( Sorry kiddos...Daddy is an old man!
Needless to say, I survived. My energy level, however, has been crap! My Doc stated it could be months...possibly 6 before I feel myself. No kidding! It seems that every menial thing I'd do at work on a day-to-day basis is kicking my ass. I can't help but feel it, but I also feel I have no place to complain. My friend lost his mother during all of this and I couldn't be there for him...it really made me feel like a douche. Then I'm working with my boss and a gal from our HQ who is just trucking along while I'm sweating bullets and feeling like an old man thanks to this energy deficiency...oh, did I mention this gal has only been back to work for a little over a month after some not-so-minor Brain Surgery?
Yeah. So you see where I'm going with this. I'm feeling like an old man with old man symptoms and I can't really say a damn thing about it. It worries my Mom, Amanda...I know you're going to read this so I'll just come out and say it...I'm fucking tired ALL of the time and I feel like shit at least that much. I try, for the sake of everything in this family, to do what I can...but it royally kicks my ass sometimes.
I hope this passes...soon. I just need some light at the end of my tunnel so I can relax because I can, not because I need to. Disneyland is fast approaching and I feel like I'll be ill-prepared if I'm still feeling like this come our departure.
:( Sorry kiddos...Daddy is an old man!