So just say how to make it right and I swear I'll do my best to comply..
This is officially the 3rd time that i've tried to write this entry. My computer keeps shutting down just as I finish. It never does that, hm.
Anyways, I guess that I feel like a terrible person. Greg tries so damn hard to make everything perfect for me, and he always does such a great job. Valentine's Day was really nice.
But he can see right through me. He knows that everything isn't okay. He told me I was a bad liar. I guess he's right.
I've been feeling so different lately and I don't understand it. For almost 2 years now i've been infatuated with him. We've planned to go to college together, our proms, what our house and family would be like when we were older. And I had all intentions of fulfilling everything.
But lately i've been so confused and it isn't fair to Greg because he thinks I want to break up and I don't want to hurt him. And the truth is that I don't know what the hell that I want and i'm scared fucking shitless.
I thought Florida would be such a good time to figure things out, but now I realize that we will both be miserable. Because Greg will be a nervous wreck and i'll be in a bad mood the whole time.
I love him and I don't think i've ever been this scared in my life. It's making me fucking sick. I just want this to stop!
I fucking ruined his Valentine's Day. I'm the worst person in the world.
Anyways, I guess that I feel like a terrible person. Greg tries so damn hard to make everything perfect for me, and he always does such a great job. Valentine's Day was really nice.
But he can see right through me. He knows that everything isn't okay. He told me I was a bad liar. I guess he's right.
I've been feeling so different lately and I don't understand it. For almost 2 years now i've been infatuated with him. We've planned to go to college together, our proms, what our house and family would be like when we were older. And I had all intentions of fulfilling everything.
But lately i've been so confused and it isn't fair to Greg because he thinks I want to break up and I don't want to hurt him. And the truth is that I don't know what the hell that I want and i'm scared fucking shitless.
I thought Florida would be such a good time to figure things out, but now I realize that we will both be miserable. Because Greg will be a nervous wreck and i'll be in a bad mood the whole time.
I love him and I don't think i've ever been this scared in my life. It's making me fucking sick. I just want this to stop!
I fucking ruined his Valentine's Day. I'm the worst person in the world.