Life Isn't Just a Bowl of Cherries
WoW! SO many things have went on in my life in the past few months. If you are here reading this then choose to comment, i really dont need any stupid comments calling me a whore, slut, fat anything, or just talking shit. JB and I had a long falling out. So I started dating other people, why wait for something that isnt going to happen? well 2 days ago JB finally came to his sences and realized that I am his soul mate. And it wasnt this imaginary love, it was the love you feel. You feel it in your body, soul, heart, you just feel the passion. It was beautiful.
Yesterday, Ronnie died. He was in a car accident and broke his neck and was killed instantly. It was so sad. In one week it will be the year mark on Nick's death. I had to go and be strong for them (JB and Doug), But in my head I am being really selfish. I hate to say this but I was happy it was Ronnie and not JB. See if i didnt let JB stay at my house 2/5/05 he would have been with Ronnie. Doug was best friends with Nick, and then he loses his brother, I know how bad he feels, I just wish I could take the pain away but I can't. I met JB over at Quentin's. Them boys needed me bad. I have never seen so many grown men actually cry like they did. It made me feel good that they were already dealing with their feelings. Quentin had tapes of Ronnie playing in the VCR and JB told me that on one Q is talking to Ronnie about a year ago and Q asks Ronnie, "If you die tomorrow, what would your obituary say?" and Ronnie replies, "That I would die a very happy man, who had fun in life." I will miss Ronnie rapping about me the most. Everytime I would be upset or bummed he would wither rap or sing to me to make me smile. And the shit is so stupid thats all you can do is laugh.
I LOVE YOU RONNIE !!!! You will be missed! *R*I*P* Ronnie "Mac" McGuire
Yesterday, Ronnie died. He was in a car accident and broke his neck and was killed instantly. It was so sad. In one week it will be the year mark on Nick's death. I had to go and be strong for them (JB and Doug), But in my head I am being really selfish. I hate to say this but I was happy it was Ronnie and not JB. See if i didnt let JB stay at my house 2/5/05 he would have been with Ronnie. Doug was best friends with Nick, and then he loses his brother, I know how bad he feels, I just wish I could take the pain away but I can't. I met JB over at Quentin's. Them boys needed me bad. I have never seen so many grown men actually cry like they did. It made me feel good that they were already dealing with their feelings. Quentin had tapes of Ronnie playing in the VCR and JB told me that on one Q is talking to Ronnie about a year ago and Q asks Ronnie, "If you die tomorrow, what would your obituary say?" and Ronnie replies, "That I would die a very happy man, who had fun in life." I will miss Ronnie rapping about me the most. Everytime I would be upset or bummed he would wither rap or sing to me to make me smile. And the shit is so stupid thats all you can do is laugh.
I LOVE YOU RONNIE !!!! You will be missed! *R*I*P* Ronnie "Mac" McGuire