what a year

[sarpo]

Just about a year ago we closed on our house, and I found out I was pregnant with Matthew. It finished off a very emotional Dec. I was still reeling from the second miscarriage and the death of Molly. My family came for Christmas amid our half-packed up condo. Then came our move, a healthy ultrasound, a missed miscarriage and scary ER trip, and finally settling in to believing this pregnancy would work. A new cat. A 3rd birthday party for James, a re-made back yard, an almost trip to China, a vacation in Hawaii, an extremely hot and uncomfortable summer, growing delicious tomatoes in my first ever real veggie garden, my wonderful boss quitting and my job going from awesome to okay, a third trimester scare, and then a pre-term baby. So tiny, so sweet, so heartwarming. Now, a 4th and 1st Christmas, visits from both families. A still small, but no longer tiny baby who rolls, laughs and smiles. Feeling blessed. Feeling so far from where I was last year. Feeling I now have a complete family, a wonderful home, and an okay grasp on my life.

My New Years resolutions are about letting go -
1. letting go of the unimportant worries and things I cannot change
2. letting go of my extra weight - exercising more and eating better
3. letting go of extra stuff - purging the house of unneeded things
4. letting go of extra stuff (part 2) - crafting with the materials I already have, giving handmade gifts
5. letting go of expectations - being more patient (especially with James)
6. letting go of obsessing about "next" - being present in "now"