Free Falling

[sarnia234]

Life can be so strange sometime. The older I get the less I understand it. I still feel like running away, but I have more hope for the future than in the past few days. I’m sitting here with Tom Petty’s “Free Falling” pouring through the headphones. That’s exactly my mood right now. Half of my friends think I dropped off the face of the planet, the other half think I’m blowing them off…I’m not doing either. At this point in time I’m free falling. I’m going to stop living my life for everybody else so much. I try to make everybody happy all the time, and that’s never practical, and just a quick way to make me miserable. I do miss my friends…and I spent so much time trying to salvage things with Sean that I haven’t reached out to my friends. It’s no fault of Sean’s. He was the first to tell me “go, hang out with your friends” or “you haven’t called your friends back”. I was concerned about getting what I needed from us. I miss James, Tara & Dawn, Dave, Carol, Amanda, Brittany, Andy, Alex, Jon, Evelyn and a bunch of others that are too many too name. Tony thinks I dropped off the planet. I will make a decided effort to reconnect with all of the people that have been missing from my life. It’s hard though because all of those are individual friends, and there are only so many days in a week. I just need to figure it out. I broke up with Sean so I should have more time on my hands.

In other news I’m happy. Really happy. It feels good. hehe...more to come.

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