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Well... I wish I had more time for this rant... I likely'll save it halfway through, and just continue it later... But... *sighs* Oh gawd... So complicated... Goddess and God give me strength... Cause I'll need it.
Father's been working me like his bitch slave, while trying to make me get a job. He gives me 300 chores to do all day, then expects me to find time to go out and apply for a job somewhere, when all I wanna do after that is sit around for a bit... I've been working from 7:00am to anywhere from 6:00pm to 8:00pm. It's quite frustrating... But oh well. It's life, it'll get harder than that during College/University/SIAST/Tech School/whatever. So I'll just live with it and deal. The main part that pissed me off was that he'd take away the internet because I was still awake because I COULDN'T SLEEP. Or he'd take it away because I woke up in the middle of the night. But NOOOO, if it's not something that falls into what he believes to be right, then it's NOT TRUE. Nothing outside of his world understanding or perspective can EVER be true. He's a narrow minded ass at times...
I'm so confused right now! Gah, my emotions and everything are growing more powerful... Breaking out from their shell more as of late... I'm gaining so many new awesome friends... I'm also growing stronger in my spiritual path, and now have people to go down the path with. But the arrival of these new friends upset a balance... My girlfriend thinks I have the hots for each and every one of my new friends. Well, the ones she's met anyways... She never met Nessa (Jenessa is her full name). But yea... She says I've got a thing for Brad and Kellie, and that they BOTH have things for me! >.< And the Tarot readings just made EVERYTHING worse... I mean, Brad makes it OBVIOUS he has a thing for me... But I don't know about Kellie. I'll have to find out about that one... But apparently, Brad has made an assumption about someone... That they are 'unattainable'. But that's apparently wrong, the person IS 'attainable', if he can get under the person's skin right, and work at it properly. Chantal thinks I'm that guy! Gah! >.< Oh, and Kellie's supposed to get into her first serious relationship with a guy who's dating another girl. So she'll live a double life for a while, but in the end, the guy will stick with her. Well.... Apparently I'M THAT GUY! >.< Hell! >.< *sighs* Another scary thing about the readings. When she was doing them, I knew everything she was going to say before she said it almost... The only readings I screwed up on were Brad's, because I knew him, and my knowledge made me think the wrong things. But for Kellie's, I knew it all... And I got a VERY strong feeling that it was going to be me in the center of it all... For both. Which sucks... Maybe it was just Chantal's thoughts thrown into me... But I dunno... We'll soon see... I had one of my other friends do a distance reading of me... Here's the conversation.
(02:21:01) Sarl0ck: Heya *wave*
(02:21:08) AphroditeAura24: nyao!
(02:21:10) AphroditeAura24: ^_^
(02:21:12) Sarl0ck: ^_^
(02:21:12) AphroditeAura24: what's up? ::huggles::
(02:21:20) Sarl0ck: *huggles back* Life's confuzzling as hell.
(02:21:45) AphroditeAura24: aw...
(02:21:46) AphroditeAura24: talk to me
(02:22:08) AphroditeAura24: I'm all ears = D
(02:22:18) Sarl0ck: ^_^ Thanks :)
(02:22:21) AphroditeAura24: ::poof!:: A pair of walking ears appears before you.
(02:22:25) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:22:39) Sarl0ck: You on RO? I'll talk to you on RO so I can level the guild a bit too :P
(02:23:05) AphroditeAura24: server went boom = \
(02:23:14) Sarl0ck: Ah... *shakes head* Again <.<
(02:23:31) AphroditeAura24: lol it kept going up and down for like half an hour before that - two minutes at a time = D
(02:23:34) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:23:46) Sarl0ck: Gawd, that's crazy.
(02:23:57) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I don't know what was going on -_-;;
(02:24:13) Sarl0ck: Xage's not having fun with this I'm guessing XD
(02:24:23) AphroditeAura24: lol I bet... I hope he's asleep, geez ><
(02:24:38) AphroditeAura24: oh, I'm posting up the loading screens I already sent in in the thread
(02:24:45) Sarl0ck: Cool
(02:24:51) AphroditeAura24: so you can see them in their horrible quality in a second if you like to = D
(02:24:53) AphroditeAura24: now, talk. lol
(02:24:57) Sarl0ck: XD
(02:27:09) Sarl0ck: Well... I just met a bunch of awesome people, I was looking for people of my own spiritual faith to practice with, that were around my age, and I found some online in my area. E-Mailed them, met them, and they're great to hang around with... My girlfriend met them too, and likes them, but she did tarot readings of them... And the girl (her name's Kellie), is apparently going to date some guy who already has a girlfriend... So she'll live a double life for a while, but that guy will choose her over his first girlfriend, and so she'll get the guy. Apparently I'M the guy that's going to do that >.< I don't believe it, cause I haven't seen any signs of Kellie hitting on me... But apparently she hits on me a lot...
(02:27:34) AphroditeAura24: o_O
(02:27:59) AphroditeAura24: tell me when I can talk o.o;;
(02:28:02) Sarl0ck: And there's a guy, his name's Brad, he's gay, and he's really into me, and makes it obvious... The reading of him was he was going to need to go for a local guy (he has an online guy), and he's under the false impression that someone is unattainable, but the person really is... SHe thinks that this is ME too! >.<
(02:28:14) AphroditeAura24: ...
(02:29:15) Sarl0ck: And like... I dunno -_-; I'm really stressed out because I can't get a job. I'm poor, and my dad's been working me psychotically, then the rest of my time that isn't spent with either Chantal or my new friends, is spent either working, trying to find a job, or stressing out over life while trying to relax... Playing RO helps, when the server's actually up...
(02:30:26) AphroditeAura24: ...::hugs::
02:30
(02:30:58) Sarl0ck: *hugs back* There's about 300 other things that I'm typing into my LJ currently. XD
(02:31:03) Sarl0ck: If I can think of them all.
(02:31:04) AphroditeAura24: lol fun
(02:31:46) AphroditeAura24: you know, I don't know why your gf's doing a tarot reading and then freaking out... do you guys have an unstable relationship or something? o_O
(02:32:49) Sarl0ck: We're quite stable... But I think that this new bunch of people shook her up (especially since I hung out with Brad until 3:30 without realizing it last night.) I think she's a little insecure... She's not freaking out...
(02:33:23) AphroditeAura24: I'm sorry, but getting a bunch of drama in a reading and then assuming you're in the center of the storm seems a bit much to me = \
(02:33:53) Sarl0ck: In all honesty, she's VERY accurate... Like, EXTREMELY accurate...
(02:34:02) AphroditeAura24: don't worry, I know how that is - I'm a reader too = )
(02:34:09) Sarl0ck: And when she was doing the readings. I got the same feeling that I was the center of it too.
(02:34:18) Sarl0ck: It was a very strong feeling... So I know why she thinks that.
(02:34:22) AphroditeAura24: hm... maybe I'm just being biased in my human way ^_^;;
(02:34:26) AphroditeAura24: sorry 'bout that
(02:34:31) Sarl0ck: Naw, it's all good...
(02:34:35) Sarl0ck: I dunno. I always stir things up.
(02:34:47) Sarl0ck: Everywhere I go, things get...
(02:34:56) Sarl0ck: Stirred up, everything changes... Drama... Etc.
(02:35:12) AphroditeAura24: ah... see, as I said, I'm biased, I don't wanna think you do those sorts of things o.o;;
(02:35:21) Sarl0ck: Yea, it's all good...
(02:35:33) Sarl0ck: But hearing that reading. I know I've already changed parts of it...
(02:35:41) Sarl0ck: If I do end up going for the other girl...
(02:35:57) Sarl0ck: I'm going to break it off with my girlfriend before anything starts.
(02:36:10) AphroditeAura24: ::nods:: understandable... a good idea, if painful either way
(02:36:18) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:36:32) Sarl0ck: I hate it when things get this confuzzling ;-;
(02:36:38) AphroditeAura24: ::hugs:: yeah, me too
(02:36:47) AphroditeAura24: hell, my deck is starting to call me...
(02:36:50) AphroditeAura24: doesn't do this very often
(02:37:03) Sarl0ck: Hmmm... Maybe you should do your own reading of the events to happen in my life...
(02:37:12) Sarl0ck: My girlfriend didn't do MY reading. XD
(02:37:37) AphroditeAura24: luckily, I can't find it... but I really think I should
(02:37:44) AphroditeAura24: oh, there it is!
(02:37:44) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:37:58) AphroditeAura24: it might be messed up though, my energy is low
(02:38:01) AphroditeAura24: but lemme try...
(02:38:07) AphroditeAura24: it feels like a five card, don't know why...
(02:38:08) Sarl0ck: *pats your back gently*
(02:38:16) Sarl0ck: Do a five card then...
(02:38:23) Sarl0ck: Do you want me to try and send some energy?
(02:38:25) Sarl0ck: I've got plenty
(02:38:25) AphroditeAura24: heh, you don't need to tell me lol
(02:38:34) AphroditeAura24: sure, if you think it'll help rather than hurt = )
(02:38:41) AphroditeAura24: despite how open I am with worldly things...
(02:38:45) AphroditeAura24: I can be kinda... well, shut in
(02:38:54) Sarl0ck: It shouldn't hurt, it'll probably make the cards more accurate, feeling my energy.
(02:39:09) AphroditeAura24: alright, I'm not good at taking in energy... but I'll do my best
(02:39:23) Sarl0ck: Just relax, and let it filter, but let it in.
(02:40:12) Sarl0ck: Get any of it? <.<
(02:40:26) AphroditeAura24: I think so... it's not easy to keep, no offense meant = \
(02:40:40) Sarl0ck: Lol, too much, or just... Not an energy you're used to?
(02:40:52) AphroditeAura24: aw crap... lol
(02:40:54) Sarl0ck: ?
02:40
(02:40:57) AphroditeAura24: the journey isn't gonna be easy...
(02:41:09) AphroditeAura24: my deck's a bit... unique, not classic style, but I'll tell you the cards
(02:41:10) AphroditeAura24: alright?
(02:41:14) Sarl0ck: Alrighty
(02:41:24) AphroditeAura24: I'll tell you the little subtitles I get too
(02:41:41) AphroditeAura24: inversed father of swords (subtitle:leadership)
(02:41:49) AphroditeAura24: inversed hanged man (subtitle:uniqueness)
(02:41:52) AphroditeAura24: devil
(02:41:58) AphroditeAura24: inversed ten of swords (subtitle: ruin)
(02:41:59) AphroditeAura24: lovers
(02:42:07) Sarl0ck: Whoo boy.
(02:42:11) AphroditeAura24: lol yeah...
(02:42:15) AphroditeAura24: it's a bumpy ride.
(02:42:20) Sarl0ck: Yea...
(02:42:30) Sarl0ck: What're the readings you get through the cards?
(02:42:33) AphroditeAura24: looks like you're gonna be pretty happy after it all though
(02:42:34) AphroditeAura24: but
(02:42:40) AphroditeAura24: it's not gonna be anything like any of us expected
(02:42:50) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:43:09) AphroditeAura24: but whoo boy, you're in for the ride of your life... lol
(02:43:17) AphroditeAura24: looks like you're gonna be dragged around in a whirlwind
(02:43:24) Sarl0ck: Already started XD
(02:43:29) AphroditeAura24: and then... well, I can't put in details, but...
(02:43:38) AphroditeAura24: I've never actually really drank, so bear with my analogy
(02:44:04) AphroditeAura24: it's like when you've been drinking, and you've already been drunk for a while... just when you can't take anymore, you throw up and then feel better
(02:44:46) Sarl0ck: So, I'll be going through this whirlwind so much, that it's going to make me feel awful about everything, and just when I'm about to give up on everything, I'm going to hit the bottem then feel great shortly after? XD
(02:44:55) Sarl0ck: bottom*
(02:45:01) AphroditeAura24: not exactly, but close
(02:45:17) AphroditeAura24: more like... you're gonna be dragged along through this barely knowing what's going on
(02:45:37) AphroditeAura24: and then once you've stopped and gathered your bearings, you'll stay there, kinda liking it for all its... badness, really (I know it's not a word, you know what I mean)
(02:45:47) AphroditeAura24: and then you'll get sick of it and come back from the bottom, yeah
(02:45:52) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:46:06) Sarl0ck: Gawd... I've been through something like this once already...
(02:46:07) AphroditeAura24: of course, I could be completely wrong, but that's as much as I can tell you
(02:46:13) AphroditeAura24: yeah, see, that's the problem
(02:46:18) AphroditeAura24: the pattern feels familiar
(02:46:23) AphroditeAura24: as if it's just going to start all over again
(02:46:31) Sarl0ck: Hoo boy.
(02:46:33) AphroditeAura24: something in here has to go.
(02:46:47) AphroditeAura24: you gotta figure out what makes you do this, or you'll keep doing it.
(02:47:02) Sarl0ck: *nods a little*
(02:47:16) AphroditeAura24: it's the temptation part that makes you run into trouble
(02:47:24) AphroditeAura24: it reeks of dissatisfaction without understanding.
(02:47:40) AphroditeAura24: mind you, it's the common human way, don't be too ashamed
(02:47:45) Sarl0ck: I've noticed that.
(02:47:49) AphroditeAura24: putting a bandaid on a gunshot wound is a common human response
(02:47:57) AphroditeAura24: hell, I had the usual one before, with the weight/"looks" thing
(02:48:22) Sarl0ck: *nods a lil* I really need time away from EVERYTHING to think...
(02:48:43) AphroditeAura24: but I'd gotten over it enough that... that Richard made this comment and... he didn't know that it'd affect me because I'd gotten over it so well, for the most part...
(02:48:55) AphroditeAura24: and yeah, that's a very, very good idea
(02:49:02) Sarl0ck: Sadly
(02:49:05) Sarl0ck: No such thing will happen.
(02:49:14) AphroditeAura24: ::little sad smile:: I know.
(02:49:24) AphroditeAura24: you have a window of opportunity though
(02:49:34) AphroditeAura24: it comes... right after the vomiting, as funny as that may sound
(02:49:39) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:49:43) Sarl0ck: I think I know the timeframe now.
(02:49:46) AphroditeAura24: that can be put off if not completely changed
(02:49:56) AphroditeAura24: take that time and stretch it to infinity, if need be
(02:50:02) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:50:10) AphroditeAura24: the physical placement of the cards is telling, even
(02:50:27) AphroditeAura24: the first three are very squished together, hence why you won't have time to do more but be dragged along
(02:50:40) AphroditeAura24: then there's a small bit... and then a large pause... such a gap that it almost seems to not connect
(02:50:49) Sarl0ck: *nods*
02:50
(02:51:07) Sarl0ck: The the window of opportunity will likely be sometime around late december.
(02:51:13) AphroditeAura24: makes sense
(02:51:21) AphroditeAura24: it's a type of pattern, not one I can read absolutely
(02:51:33) Sarl0ck: Because... If everything happens accordingly... I'll be going to Ontario to meet friends.
(02:52:29) AphroditeAura24: heh, the big city... XD
(02:52:34) Sarl0ck: Naw
(02:52:43) Sarl0ck: Small city in the province :P
(02:52:55) Sarl0ck: I know like, half the people around there.
(02:52:59) AphroditeAura24: lol
(02:53:04) AphroditeAura24: I'm thinking of somewhere else then, I guess
(02:53:20) Sarl0ck: Parry Sound Ontario. (Ontario is a province. Toronto is the big capital city there.)
(02:53:30) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I'm probably thinking Toronto XD
(02:53:38) AphroditeAura24: I live in the states, don't expect too much of me = P
(02:54:01) Sarl0ck: Lmao, you rule anyways.
(02:54:08) AphroditeAura24: XD
(02:54:14) AphroditeAura24: lol I'm so reminded of my ex now...
(02:54:19) Sarl0ck: Why so?
(02:54:35) AphroditeAura24: she was all, I'm glad that you're Russian, I can at least be proud of that... and did a little joke monologue with friends
(02:54:51) AphroditeAura24: no, she's not a yank, she's... uh... from BC! yeah, that's why she sounds like that, she's just from BC, hehe...
(02:55:01) Sarl0ck: XD
(02:55:02) AphroditeAura24: it cracked me up at the time = D
(02:55:06) Sarl0ck: Aww
(02:55:37) Sarl0ck: I think I know the 'loop' you're talking about though...
(02:55:47) Sarl0ck: Y'know how I told you about my worst mistake ever?
(02:56:08) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I remember it, though vaguely
(02:56:24) Sarl0ck: Cheated on my girlfriend (the one I'm with right now), and fucked another girl.
(02:56:32) Sarl0ck: Apparently the cards were saying I was gonna cheat on her again...
(02:56:39) Sarl0ck: I'm thinking, that's the loop
(02:56:48) AphroditeAura24: I'd say you're gettin' the hang of it
(02:56:54) AphroditeAura24: now you gotta solve that dissatisfaction
(02:57:21) Sarl0ck: First, find out what the dissatisfaction is about before I can solve or help it.
(02:57:37) AphroditeAura24: bah, you know what I mean, I'm braindead <<
(02:57:43) Sarl0ck: I know ^_^
(02:57:48) Sarl0ck: *hugs* You're very helpful..
(02:58:01) AphroditeAura24: ::hugs back:: I'm not that helpful, but thanks for complimenting me anyway XD
(02:58:10) Sarl0ck: You've helped me A LOT!
(02:58:42) AphroditeAura24: fine then, I'm a genius who's turned people's lives around = )
(02:58:52) Sarl0ck: True ^_^
(02:58:54) AphroditeAura24: lol it was so weird, the time when I'd done a reading for someone...
(02:59:00) AphroditeAura24: and they came up to me the next week and were all
(02:59:06) AphroditeAura24: your reading changed my life!
(02:59:15) Sarl0ck: Hehe, it happens :)
(02:59:24) AphroditeAura24: lol apparently it does, yeah
So yea... Take that as you will... But it definitely says that hey, some sort of crap WILL happen! Whee! And I'm not going to have a fucking CLUE what is going on! Ugh... Why do I bother waking up in the mornings sometimes? The whirlwind's already started, and I'm already losing it. I think I'm going to be lost until Kain comes back... Or until I can get on the phone with Jackie, that's a better idea! (Probably ALL DAY Saturday, lmao, I miss teh Jackie ;-; )
I couldn't finish this due to my father waking up. Had to disappear on Chantal and my friend Kahlan/Kewpie from Sword of Truth Guild on XeRO <.< *points at AphroditeAura24* That's her! ^_^ Anyways... I'm awake at 10:00am, so less than six hours of sleep. Whee x_x;
I should have more to rant about, I know I should. Chantal and I fought so much over so many things... I've had so much crap happen x_x; So many stupid things are going on... I can't even sort anything out. I knew I should have written an entry a while ago... But I can't think of most of the things that have happened... Nor can I sort out my mind right now... I'm coated over with insanity, and have NO clue what to do.
- Christopher... The silent cry for help rises out.
Father's been working me like his bitch slave, while trying to make me get a job. He gives me 300 chores to do all day, then expects me to find time to go out and apply for a job somewhere, when all I wanna do after that is sit around for a bit... I've been working from 7:00am to anywhere from 6:00pm to 8:00pm. It's quite frustrating... But oh well. It's life, it'll get harder than that during College/University/SIAST/Tech School/whatever. So I'll just live with it and deal. The main part that pissed me off was that he'd take away the internet because I was still awake because I COULDN'T SLEEP. Or he'd take it away because I woke up in the middle of the night. But NOOOO, if it's not something that falls into what he believes to be right, then it's NOT TRUE. Nothing outside of his world understanding or perspective can EVER be true. He's a narrow minded ass at times...
I'm so confused right now! Gah, my emotions and everything are growing more powerful... Breaking out from their shell more as of late... I'm gaining so many new awesome friends... I'm also growing stronger in my spiritual path, and now have people to go down the path with. But the arrival of these new friends upset a balance... My girlfriend thinks I have the hots for each and every one of my new friends. Well, the ones she's met anyways... She never met Nessa (Jenessa is her full name). But yea... She says I've got a thing for Brad and Kellie, and that they BOTH have things for me! >.< And the Tarot readings just made EVERYTHING worse... I mean, Brad makes it OBVIOUS he has a thing for me... But I don't know about Kellie. I'll have to find out about that one... But apparently, Brad has made an assumption about someone... That they are 'unattainable'. But that's apparently wrong, the person IS 'attainable', if he can get under the person's skin right, and work at it properly. Chantal thinks I'm that guy! Gah! >.< Oh, and Kellie's supposed to get into her first serious relationship with a guy who's dating another girl. So she'll live a double life for a while, but in the end, the guy will stick with her. Well.... Apparently I'M THAT GUY! >.< Hell! >.< *sighs* Another scary thing about the readings. When she was doing them, I knew everything she was going to say before she said it almost... The only readings I screwed up on were Brad's, because I knew him, and my knowledge made me think the wrong things. But for Kellie's, I knew it all... And I got a VERY strong feeling that it was going to be me in the center of it all... For both. Which sucks... Maybe it was just Chantal's thoughts thrown into me... But I dunno... We'll soon see... I had one of my other friends do a distance reading of me... Here's the conversation.
(02:21:01) Sarl0ck: Heya *wave*
(02:21:08) AphroditeAura24: nyao!
(02:21:10) AphroditeAura24: ^_^
(02:21:12) Sarl0ck: ^_^
(02:21:12) AphroditeAura24: what's up? ::huggles::
(02:21:20) Sarl0ck: *huggles back* Life's confuzzling as hell.
(02:21:45) AphroditeAura24: aw...
(02:21:46) AphroditeAura24: talk to me
(02:22:08) AphroditeAura24: I'm all ears = D
(02:22:18) Sarl0ck: ^_^ Thanks :)
(02:22:21) AphroditeAura24: ::poof!:: A pair of walking ears appears before you.
(02:22:25) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:22:39) Sarl0ck: You on RO? I'll talk to you on RO so I can level the guild a bit too :P
(02:23:05) AphroditeAura24: server went boom = \
(02:23:14) Sarl0ck: Ah... *shakes head* Again <.<
(02:23:31) AphroditeAura24: lol it kept going up and down for like half an hour before that - two minutes at a time = D
(02:23:34) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:23:46) Sarl0ck: Gawd, that's crazy.
(02:23:57) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I don't know what was going on -_-;;
(02:24:13) Sarl0ck: Xage's not having fun with this I'm guessing XD
(02:24:23) AphroditeAura24: lol I bet... I hope he's asleep, geez ><
(02:24:38) AphroditeAura24: oh, I'm posting up the loading screens I already sent in in the thread
(02:24:45) Sarl0ck: Cool
(02:24:51) AphroditeAura24: so you can see them in their horrible quality in a second if you like to = D
(02:24:53) AphroditeAura24: now, talk. lol
(02:24:57) Sarl0ck: XD
(02:27:09) Sarl0ck: Well... I just met a bunch of awesome people, I was looking for people of my own spiritual faith to practice with, that were around my age, and I found some online in my area. E-Mailed them, met them, and they're great to hang around with... My girlfriend met them too, and likes them, but she did tarot readings of them... And the girl (her name's Kellie), is apparently going to date some guy who already has a girlfriend... So she'll live a double life for a while, but that guy will choose her over his first girlfriend, and so she'll get the guy. Apparently I'M the guy that's going to do that >.< I don't believe it, cause I haven't seen any signs of Kellie hitting on me... But apparently she hits on me a lot...
(02:27:34) AphroditeAura24: o_O
(02:27:59) AphroditeAura24: tell me when I can talk o.o;;
(02:28:02) Sarl0ck: And there's a guy, his name's Brad, he's gay, and he's really into me, and makes it obvious... The reading of him was he was going to need to go for a local guy (he has an online guy), and he's under the false impression that someone is unattainable, but the person really is... SHe thinks that this is ME too! >.<
(02:28:14) AphroditeAura24: ...
(02:29:15) Sarl0ck: And like... I dunno -_-; I'm really stressed out because I can't get a job. I'm poor, and my dad's been working me psychotically, then the rest of my time that isn't spent with either Chantal or my new friends, is spent either working, trying to find a job, or stressing out over life while trying to relax... Playing RO helps, when the server's actually up...
(02:30:26) AphroditeAura24: ...::hugs::
02:30
(02:30:58) Sarl0ck: *hugs back* There's about 300 other things that I'm typing into my LJ currently. XD
(02:31:03) Sarl0ck: If I can think of them all.
(02:31:04) AphroditeAura24: lol fun
(02:31:46) AphroditeAura24: you know, I don't know why your gf's doing a tarot reading and then freaking out... do you guys have an unstable relationship or something? o_O
(02:32:49) Sarl0ck: We're quite stable... But I think that this new bunch of people shook her up (especially since I hung out with Brad until 3:30 without realizing it last night.) I think she's a little insecure... She's not freaking out...
(02:33:23) AphroditeAura24: I'm sorry, but getting a bunch of drama in a reading and then assuming you're in the center of the storm seems a bit much to me = \
(02:33:53) Sarl0ck: In all honesty, she's VERY accurate... Like, EXTREMELY accurate...
(02:34:02) AphroditeAura24: don't worry, I know how that is - I'm a reader too = )
(02:34:09) Sarl0ck: And when she was doing the readings. I got the same feeling that I was the center of it too.
(02:34:18) Sarl0ck: It was a very strong feeling... So I know why she thinks that.
(02:34:22) AphroditeAura24: hm... maybe I'm just being biased in my human way ^_^;;
(02:34:26) AphroditeAura24: sorry 'bout that
(02:34:31) Sarl0ck: Naw, it's all good...
(02:34:35) Sarl0ck: I dunno. I always stir things up.
(02:34:47) Sarl0ck: Everywhere I go, things get...
(02:34:56) Sarl0ck: Stirred up, everything changes... Drama... Etc.
(02:35:12) AphroditeAura24: ah... see, as I said, I'm biased, I don't wanna think you do those sorts of things o.o;;
(02:35:21) Sarl0ck: Yea, it's all good...
(02:35:33) Sarl0ck: But hearing that reading. I know I've already changed parts of it...
(02:35:41) Sarl0ck: If I do end up going for the other girl...
(02:35:57) Sarl0ck: I'm going to break it off with my girlfriend before anything starts.
(02:36:10) AphroditeAura24: ::nods:: understandable... a good idea, if painful either way
(02:36:18) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:36:32) Sarl0ck: I hate it when things get this confuzzling ;-;
(02:36:38) AphroditeAura24: ::hugs:: yeah, me too
(02:36:47) AphroditeAura24: hell, my deck is starting to call me...
(02:36:50) AphroditeAura24: doesn't do this very often
(02:37:03) Sarl0ck: Hmmm... Maybe you should do your own reading of the events to happen in my life...
(02:37:12) Sarl0ck: My girlfriend didn't do MY reading. XD
(02:37:37) AphroditeAura24: luckily, I can't find it... but I really think I should
(02:37:44) AphroditeAura24: oh, there it is!
(02:37:44) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:37:58) AphroditeAura24: it might be messed up though, my energy is low
(02:38:01) AphroditeAura24: but lemme try...
(02:38:07) AphroditeAura24: it feels like a five card, don't know why...
(02:38:08) Sarl0ck: *pats your back gently*
(02:38:16) Sarl0ck: Do a five card then...
(02:38:23) Sarl0ck: Do you want me to try and send some energy?
(02:38:25) Sarl0ck: I've got plenty
(02:38:25) AphroditeAura24: heh, you don't need to tell me lol
(02:38:34) AphroditeAura24: sure, if you think it'll help rather than hurt = )
(02:38:41) AphroditeAura24: despite how open I am with worldly things...
(02:38:45) AphroditeAura24: I can be kinda... well, shut in
(02:38:54) Sarl0ck: It shouldn't hurt, it'll probably make the cards more accurate, feeling my energy.
(02:39:09) AphroditeAura24: alright, I'm not good at taking in energy... but I'll do my best
(02:39:23) Sarl0ck: Just relax, and let it filter, but let it in.
(02:40:12) Sarl0ck: Get any of it? <.<
(02:40:26) AphroditeAura24: I think so... it's not easy to keep, no offense meant = \
(02:40:40) Sarl0ck: Lol, too much, or just... Not an energy you're used to?
(02:40:52) AphroditeAura24: aw crap... lol
(02:40:54) Sarl0ck: ?
02:40
(02:40:57) AphroditeAura24: the journey isn't gonna be easy...
(02:41:09) AphroditeAura24: my deck's a bit... unique, not classic style, but I'll tell you the cards
(02:41:10) AphroditeAura24: alright?
(02:41:14) Sarl0ck: Alrighty
(02:41:24) AphroditeAura24: I'll tell you the little subtitles I get too
(02:41:41) AphroditeAura24: inversed father of swords (subtitle:leadership)
(02:41:49) AphroditeAura24: inversed hanged man (subtitle:uniqueness)
(02:41:52) AphroditeAura24: devil
(02:41:58) AphroditeAura24: inversed ten of swords (subtitle: ruin)
(02:41:59) AphroditeAura24: lovers
(02:42:07) Sarl0ck: Whoo boy.
(02:42:11) AphroditeAura24: lol yeah...
(02:42:15) AphroditeAura24: it's a bumpy ride.
(02:42:20) Sarl0ck: Yea...
(02:42:30) Sarl0ck: What're the readings you get through the cards?
(02:42:33) AphroditeAura24: looks like you're gonna be pretty happy after it all though
(02:42:34) AphroditeAura24: but
(02:42:40) AphroditeAura24: it's not gonna be anything like any of us expected
(02:42:50) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:43:09) AphroditeAura24: but whoo boy, you're in for the ride of your life... lol
(02:43:17) AphroditeAura24: looks like you're gonna be dragged around in a whirlwind
(02:43:24) Sarl0ck: Already started XD
(02:43:29) AphroditeAura24: and then... well, I can't put in details, but...
(02:43:38) AphroditeAura24: I've never actually really drank, so bear with my analogy
(02:44:04) AphroditeAura24: it's like when you've been drinking, and you've already been drunk for a while... just when you can't take anymore, you throw up and then feel better
(02:44:46) Sarl0ck: So, I'll be going through this whirlwind so much, that it's going to make me feel awful about everything, and just when I'm about to give up on everything, I'm going to hit the bottem then feel great shortly after? XD
(02:44:55) Sarl0ck: bottom*
(02:45:01) AphroditeAura24: not exactly, but close
(02:45:17) AphroditeAura24: more like... you're gonna be dragged along through this barely knowing what's going on
(02:45:37) AphroditeAura24: and then once you've stopped and gathered your bearings, you'll stay there, kinda liking it for all its... badness, really (I know it's not a word, you know what I mean)
(02:45:47) AphroditeAura24: and then you'll get sick of it and come back from the bottom, yeah
(02:45:52) Sarl0ck: Lol
(02:46:06) Sarl0ck: Gawd... I've been through something like this once already...
(02:46:07) AphroditeAura24: of course, I could be completely wrong, but that's as much as I can tell you
(02:46:13) AphroditeAura24: yeah, see, that's the problem
(02:46:18) AphroditeAura24: the pattern feels familiar
(02:46:23) AphroditeAura24: as if it's just going to start all over again
(02:46:31) Sarl0ck: Hoo boy.
(02:46:33) AphroditeAura24: something in here has to go.
(02:46:47) AphroditeAura24: you gotta figure out what makes you do this, or you'll keep doing it.
(02:47:02) Sarl0ck: *nods a little*
(02:47:16) AphroditeAura24: it's the temptation part that makes you run into trouble
(02:47:24) AphroditeAura24: it reeks of dissatisfaction without understanding.
(02:47:40) AphroditeAura24: mind you, it's the common human way, don't be too ashamed
(02:47:45) Sarl0ck: I've noticed that.
(02:47:49) AphroditeAura24: putting a bandaid on a gunshot wound is a common human response
(02:47:57) AphroditeAura24: hell, I had the usual one before, with the weight/"looks" thing
(02:48:22) Sarl0ck: *nods a lil* I really need time away from EVERYTHING to think...
(02:48:43) AphroditeAura24: but I'd gotten over it enough that... that Richard made this comment and... he didn't know that it'd affect me because I'd gotten over it so well, for the most part...
(02:48:55) AphroditeAura24: and yeah, that's a very, very good idea
(02:49:02) Sarl0ck: Sadly
(02:49:05) Sarl0ck: No such thing will happen.
(02:49:14) AphroditeAura24: ::little sad smile:: I know.
(02:49:24) AphroditeAura24: you have a window of opportunity though
(02:49:34) AphroditeAura24: it comes... right after the vomiting, as funny as that may sound
(02:49:39) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:49:43) Sarl0ck: I think I know the timeframe now.
(02:49:46) AphroditeAura24: that can be put off if not completely changed
(02:49:56) AphroditeAura24: take that time and stretch it to infinity, if need be
(02:50:02) Sarl0ck: *nods*
(02:50:10) AphroditeAura24: the physical placement of the cards is telling, even
(02:50:27) AphroditeAura24: the first three are very squished together, hence why you won't have time to do more but be dragged along
(02:50:40) AphroditeAura24: then there's a small bit... and then a large pause... such a gap that it almost seems to not connect
(02:50:49) Sarl0ck: *nods*
02:50
(02:51:07) Sarl0ck: The the window of opportunity will likely be sometime around late december.
(02:51:13) AphroditeAura24: makes sense
(02:51:21) AphroditeAura24: it's a type of pattern, not one I can read absolutely
(02:51:33) Sarl0ck: Because... If everything happens accordingly... I'll be going to Ontario to meet friends.
(02:52:29) AphroditeAura24: heh, the big city... XD
(02:52:34) Sarl0ck: Naw
(02:52:43) Sarl0ck: Small city in the province :P
(02:52:55) Sarl0ck: I know like, half the people around there.
(02:52:59) AphroditeAura24: lol
(02:53:04) AphroditeAura24: I'm thinking of somewhere else then, I guess
(02:53:20) Sarl0ck: Parry Sound Ontario. (Ontario is a province. Toronto is the big capital city there.)
(02:53:30) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I'm probably thinking Toronto XD
(02:53:38) AphroditeAura24: I live in the states, don't expect too much of me = P
(02:54:01) Sarl0ck: Lmao, you rule anyways.
(02:54:08) AphroditeAura24: XD
(02:54:14) AphroditeAura24: lol I'm so reminded of my ex now...
(02:54:19) Sarl0ck: Why so?
(02:54:35) AphroditeAura24: she was all, I'm glad that you're Russian, I can at least be proud of that... and did a little joke monologue with friends
(02:54:51) AphroditeAura24: no, she's not a yank, she's... uh... from BC! yeah, that's why she sounds like that, she's just from BC, hehe...
(02:55:01) Sarl0ck: XD
(02:55:02) AphroditeAura24: it cracked me up at the time = D
(02:55:06) Sarl0ck: Aww
(02:55:37) Sarl0ck: I think I know the 'loop' you're talking about though...
(02:55:47) Sarl0ck: Y'know how I told you about my worst mistake ever?
(02:56:08) AphroditeAura24: yeah, I remember it, though vaguely
(02:56:24) Sarl0ck: Cheated on my girlfriend (the one I'm with right now), and fucked another girl.
(02:56:32) Sarl0ck: Apparently the cards were saying I was gonna cheat on her again...
(02:56:39) Sarl0ck: I'm thinking, that's the loop
(02:56:48) AphroditeAura24: I'd say you're gettin' the hang of it
(02:56:54) AphroditeAura24: now you gotta solve that dissatisfaction
(02:57:21) Sarl0ck: First, find out what the dissatisfaction is about before I can solve or help it.
(02:57:37) AphroditeAura24: bah, you know what I mean, I'm braindead <<
(02:57:43) Sarl0ck: I know ^_^
(02:57:48) Sarl0ck: *hugs* You're very helpful..
(02:58:01) AphroditeAura24: ::hugs back:: I'm not that helpful, but thanks for complimenting me anyway XD
(02:58:10) Sarl0ck: You've helped me A LOT!
(02:58:42) AphroditeAura24: fine then, I'm a genius who's turned people's lives around = )
(02:58:52) Sarl0ck: True ^_^
(02:58:54) AphroditeAura24: lol it was so weird, the time when I'd done a reading for someone...
(02:59:00) AphroditeAura24: and they came up to me the next week and were all
(02:59:06) AphroditeAura24: your reading changed my life!
(02:59:15) Sarl0ck: Hehe, it happens :)
(02:59:24) AphroditeAura24: lol apparently it does, yeah
So yea... Take that as you will... But it definitely says that hey, some sort of crap WILL happen! Whee! And I'm not going to have a fucking CLUE what is going on! Ugh... Why do I bother waking up in the mornings sometimes? The whirlwind's already started, and I'm already losing it. I think I'm going to be lost until Kain comes back... Or until I can get on the phone with Jackie, that's a better idea! (Probably ALL DAY Saturday, lmao, I miss teh Jackie ;-; )
I couldn't finish this due to my father waking up. Had to disappear on Chantal and my friend Kahlan/Kewpie from Sword of Truth Guild on XeRO <.< *points at AphroditeAura24* That's her! ^_^ Anyways... I'm awake at 10:00am, so less than six hours of sleep. Whee x_x;
I should have more to rant about, I know I should. Chantal and I fought so much over so many things... I've had so much crap happen x_x; So many stupid things are going on... I can't even sort anything out. I knew I should have written an entry a while ago... But I can't think of most of the things that have happened... Nor can I sort out my mind right now... I'm coated over with insanity, and have NO clue what to do.
- Christopher... The silent cry for help rises out.