Musing about the not-so-distant-future
After reading rasinah's post, I felt compelled to write something here. After all, LJ is a way to keep in touch, yes?
Today is my day off but I was still busy! It's my bestfriend's graduation day and I wasn't very prepared so I was rushing here and there to buy her gifts and flowers.
The ceremony is very boring, only to be expected, naturally. But it got me thinking... after all those years of studying, is this really what I wanna become? I mean, I know that my job is a good job. Many people will say that it's _more_ than just a good job and that I'm very lucky to have it. (But it's not like I didn't work hard for it though because I do take pride in everything that I do)
But sometimes I ask myself, "Is this all?"
It's human nature to be always dissatisfied, yeah? Sometimes I feel like I can do so much more. But sometimes I feel like I don't have the energy to do anything more than this. I am so conflicted *sighs* (or maybe just lazy?)
To be better, to be better than better. That's what this is all about. Well, of course I'll try my best to keep up, to satisfy my self to the point that I can be a little bit content with myself. Sometimes I worry that I'd be another disappointment. I don't want to be wasted, that's all.
Today is my day off but I was still busy! It's my bestfriend's graduation day and I wasn't very prepared so I was rushing here and there to buy her gifts and flowers.
The ceremony is very boring, only to be expected, naturally. But it got me thinking... after all those years of studying, is this really what I wanna become? I mean, I know that my job is a good job. Many people will say that it's _more_ than just a good job and that I'm very lucky to have it. (But it's not like I didn't work hard for it though because I do take pride in everything that I do)
But sometimes I ask myself, "Is this all?"
It's human nature to be always dissatisfied, yeah? Sometimes I feel like I can do so much more. But sometimes I feel like I don't have the energy to do anything more than this. I am so conflicted *sighs* (or maybe just lazy?)
To be better, to be better than better. That's what this is all about. Well, of course I'll try my best to keep up, to satisfy my self to the point that I can be a little bit content with myself. Sometimes I worry that I'd be another disappointment. I don't want to be wasted, that's all.