Dreary, rainy Friday
It's been a super productive but super long week at work, and I have reached the breaking point. There are things I could be doing right now, but they are all tedious and annoying and it's 4 p.m. on Friday so I stopping work for the moment. So. How are you doing flist? You're looking just lovely these days.
This week has felt weird. Strained. I don't know if it is the weird weather or if I am getting sick. Or if it's the fact that work was relatively physically demanding and that on top of training has my body worn out. (It would be really sad if that were the case. I know I am not like, an athlete or anything but I can't be THAT out of shape. Maybe it's all of the above.) Anyway, it's been kinda crappy and rainy and humid so the air pressure is all screwed up I am sure. Anyway... It's also felt weird because (TMI alert) This is the first time in about a year I have had my period without being on BCP. I have become very anti-BCP (for me and my body, not for people in general) over the past few months and it feels good to not be taking it but also my body has been a little "WTF did you do to me, Sarah!?" It's also felt weird because - and this again is probably a combination of things - but I sort of feel like, what the hell am I doing? With MY LIFE? I dunno. Work is actually busy but it's like, do I want to be doing this work? A part of me does, a part of me feels like I should be higher in my career right now. (And I don't even know what that means, really, but I feel it.) I like where I live, but it would be nice to afford to live by myself. I would like to have a boyfriend. The online dating thing hasn't turned out too well. I am in debt, and am feeling overwhelmed with it. It's just been one of those What's The Point weeks. You know? (Please say you do and I am not the only one who feels that way sometimes.)
So I guess I need a change but am not sure what that entails. The finances thing has gotten a little bit better - after over a year I canceled my personal training contract this week. Luckily, I have 2 months to make up sessions so it's not ending right away. But that will be a BIG help - my credit card is hurting and the dues are added monthly so I can never pay it off and it keeps adding up. VERY stressful. Of course now I am worrying that the dude didn't actually cancel my contract. I am paranoid that way.
This weekend is my best friend's daughter's first birthday party. There is going to be ping pong. I am irrationally excited about this.
Also this weekend, my sister and I are supposed to make arrangements for me to visit her and my nephew the first weekend in November. I am irrationally excited about THIS as well.
I dunno - I need a change, guys. Life is not exciting right now. I need something new. Any suggestions?
This week has felt weird. Strained. I don't know if it is the weird weather or if I am getting sick. Or if it's the fact that work was relatively physically demanding and that on top of training has my body worn out. (It would be really sad if that were the case. I know I am not like, an athlete or anything but I can't be THAT out of shape. Maybe it's all of the above.) Anyway, it's been kinda crappy and rainy and humid so the air pressure is all screwed up I am sure. Anyway... It's also felt weird because (TMI alert) This is the first time in about a year I have had my period without being on BCP. I have become very anti-BCP (for me and my body, not for people in general) over the past few months and it feels good to not be taking it but also my body has been a little "WTF did you do to me, Sarah!?" It's also felt weird because - and this again is probably a combination of things - but I sort of feel like, what the hell am I doing? With MY LIFE? I dunno. Work is actually busy but it's like, do I want to be doing this work? A part of me does, a part of me feels like I should be higher in my career right now. (And I don't even know what that means, really, but I feel it.) I like where I live, but it would be nice to afford to live by myself. I would like to have a boyfriend. The online dating thing hasn't turned out too well. I am in debt, and am feeling overwhelmed with it. It's just been one of those What's The Point weeks. You know? (Please say you do and I am not the only one who feels that way sometimes.)
So I guess I need a change but am not sure what that entails. The finances thing has gotten a little bit better - after over a year I canceled my personal training contract this week. Luckily, I have 2 months to make up sessions so it's not ending right away. But that will be a BIG help - my credit card is hurting and the dues are added monthly so I can never pay it off and it keeps adding up. VERY stressful. Of course now I am worrying that the dude didn't actually cancel my contract. I am paranoid that way.
This weekend is my best friend's daughter's first birthday party. There is going to be ping pong. I am irrationally excited about this.
Also this weekend, my sister and I are supposed to make arrangements for me to visit her and my nephew the first weekend in November. I am irrationally excited about THIS as well.
I dunno - I need a change, guys. Life is not exciting right now. I need something new. Any suggestions?