Mar 13, 2003 15:38
i decided i don;t like this LJ thing, but i will give it another try. right now i have so much work i can't believe i'm wasting my time on this but maybe in the end it wont be a waste. i am hoping to convice mom to let me stay home tomorrow cause i really do have a lot of work and i am going to be freaking out about my EMT test early saturday morning. actually if i think about it right now i start crying not even kidding. actually someone cried in theirs once but they still passed i hope they do the same thing for people who throw up cause i think i might.
i am sick of all this snow just like everyone else, yet thinking about summer gives me some hope. i can;t wait until this ugly and scary (EMT Tests) month is over. Right now it feels like everything is so old, and boring , and tiresome. I hate how we have all gotten older and dont seem to have as much fun, i wish i had the energy i had as a freshman or even a sophmore. I know for me personally i have nearly given up on praying and all that stuff, maybe thats why i am not having that much fun anymore, but then again that always seemed like so much work also. i don;t think i am the only one that has given up, that is if actions speak louder than words, i need lakeside, but then i don;t want to depend on camp anymore, i should be able to have a relationship with God on my own but yea.
see caitlin i just wrote an entry.