I just broke up with my boyfriend.
We'd been together just short of a year and three months.
I'm not nearly as upset as I should be, considering. I kept thinking to myself that I really ought to break up with him. I wasn't happy. I think I'm emotionally built for something different than "A" meets "B" and lives happily ever after, for one thing, but for another - he's at least as emotionally screwed up as I am, if not more simply because his parents are so absolutely insane.
He's been really controlling lately. He doesn't see it, but it's definitely there, and that is mostly what dealt the final blow. The more he clings and tries to possess me, the more I try to set everything on fire.
It's his immediate fault that I broke up with him. Although several people threatened to make angry faces and spontaneously combust if I lost my reserve, I had told him that we would deal with this when he got back from Senior Trip because I needed a few days to think about it rationally. I had tentatively decided to break up with him and told an inquisitive mind on facebook that I had made my decision but being the person he is, he saw that and essentially demanded to know. Over the next few days, I might have figured out a way to fix everything, or at least start to fix it (though I doubt it) but he demanded to know, so I told him what I'd decided. He's like that - he pushes, he wants to know, he won't give me time to think about it.
If anything, this has only inspired me to be better. I'm going to spend the day researching diets and I WILL find a way to go to college in the fall and major, eventually, in Theater Arts. I want to be famous. I want people who once scorned me to look at me and say, "damn, I could be friends with that beautiful, rich, famous woman, but I was such a judgmental idiot that I lost my chance."
Even if I can't feel emotions, I can certainly fake them well enough for the camera.
Incidentally, Google Chrome's spell check tells me I've spelled "combust" wrong. However, a large assortment of words such as "combusted," "combustive," and "noncombustible" are supplied as alternatives... I'm confused.
I'm not nearly as upset as I should be, considering. I kept thinking to myself that I really ought to break up with him. I wasn't happy. I think I'm emotionally built for something different than "A" meets "B" and lives happily ever after, for one thing, but for another - he's at least as emotionally screwed up as I am, if not more simply because his parents are so absolutely insane.
He's been really controlling lately. He doesn't see it, but it's definitely there, and that is mostly what dealt the final blow. The more he clings and tries to possess me, the more I try to set everything on fire.
It's his immediate fault that I broke up with him. Although several people threatened to make angry faces and spontaneously combust if I lost my reserve, I had told him that we would deal with this when he got back from Senior Trip because I needed a few days to think about it rationally. I had tentatively decided to break up with him and told an inquisitive mind on facebook that I had made my decision but being the person he is, he saw that and essentially demanded to know. Over the next few days, I might have figured out a way to fix everything, or at least start to fix it (though I doubt it) but he demanded to know, so I told him what I'd decided. He's like that - he pushes, he wants to know, he won't give me time to think about it.
If anything, this has only inspired me to be better. I'm going to spend the day researching diets and I WILL find a way to go to college in the fall and major, eventually, in Theater Arts. I want to be famous. I want people who once scorned me to look at me and say, "damn, I could be friends with that beautiful, rich, famous woman, but I was such a judgmental idiot that I lost my chance."
Even if I can't feel emotions, I can certainly fake them well enough for the camera.
Incidentally, Google Chrome's spell check tells me I've spelled "combust" wrong. However, a large assortment of words such as "combusted," "combustive," and "noncombustible" are supplied as alternatives... I'm confused.