Change is coming pt2....
A few weeks ago I spoke of change, of something happening, something in the air..
Since then I've been doing a lot of thinking.. a lot of about my interactions with people (friends, co-workers, so-called friends, etc etc).. is it me that needs changing? are my expectations too high? do I let people get away with too much? are people just taking advantage of me? do people not appreciate me?
I still don't know if I have the answer to that, but I've come to a few realisations, I don't want to sound bitter or angry, because I'm not.. it's just the way things are, and I'm okay with that.. I just want to move forward, and just be happier with myself and enjoy life..
So from now, people who don't treat me well, or make me feel bad about myself will be told they are doing so, and if they keep doing it or don't make any effort to change, will be cut off...
I'm getting too old.. I don't want to be miserable and unhappy.. this is my life and I want it to be a good one.. I want to have fun.. I want to enjoy it.. I don't have to justify my career choices, my habits, who I see, what I do in my free time to anyone..
As long as I'm happy, you should be happy for me, and if you can't be well I don't know why we are friends..
It's going to be hard to stick to this, and I know there might be some culling of friendships, but I hope that maybe a few of them can grow and become better..
Since then I've been doing a lot of thinking.. a lot of about my interactions with people (friends, co-workers, so-called friends, etc etc).. is it me that needs changing? are my expectations too high? do I let people get away with too much? are people just taking advantage of me? do people not appreciate me?
I still don't know if I have the answer to that, but I've come to a few realisations, I don't want to sound bitter or angry, because I'm not.. it's just the way things are, and I'm okay with that.. I just want to move forward, and just be happier with myself and enjoy life..
So from now, people who don't treat me well, or make me feel bad about myself will be told they are doing so, and if they keep doing it or don't make any effort to change, will be cut off...
I'm getting too old.. I don't want to be miserable and unhappy.. this is my life and I want it to be a good one.. I want to have fun.. I want to enjoy it.. I don't have to justify my career choices, my habits, who I see, what I do in my free time to anyone..
As long as I'm happy, you should be happy for me, and if you can't be well I don't know why we are friends..
It's going to be hard to stick to this, and I know there might be some culling of friendships, but I hope that maybe a few of them can grow and become better..