Death, and life, or lack there of.
Princess the hamster is dead. :(
I came home from work just fifteen minutes ago and went downstairs to check on the three hamsters, and she was lying all funny on the side of her cage, not breathing.
I'm so miserable. I can't stop crying. I know she was just a hamster, but that's not really the point. It seems like I have no time for anyone or anything anymore. I haven't been tending to them as much as I should. I haven't been tending to ANYTHING as much as I should because I'm so damn busy. I hate it. I never get a day off anymore. I can never lie in bed for an entire day, without showering or putting on clothes. I'm sick of working and I'm sick of school and I just want to stop going to both of them. Work is a complete disaster these days, everyone's always fighting with me and it's just not fun anymore. The majority of my friends there are either quitting really soon or have already quit, and it's starting to feel like I'm just going into a warzone everytime I'm scheduled to work. School is just stressing me out nonstop, I'm sick of my classes and I don't feel like I'm learning a thing. I was so excited for this year to start, but now I'm just wishing for the term to end.
My computer is also fried and I'm probably going to need to buy a new one, which is something I cannot afford. Ironic, isn't it? I'm always working, yet I never have any money. I spilt some water on the keyboard a few months ago and I'm thinking that's what caused the problem, only lately its finally started to catch up on me.
My parents are flying out to St. John's for Nanny's 85th birthday next week, so Stephen and I will have the house to ourselves. Trouble is, I'll never get to BE in the house, because I'll be at school or work. It sucks. I should have booked the days off, but I can't, because there's nobody else to work for me, hense why all my friends quit and now I'm working like a manic. It's not fair. I still haven't gotten a raise in that dump, either. I bust my ass, stress myself out nonstop, all for minimum wage. Super fucking dooper. Or not. Yeah, I'm going to go with the not.
And now tomorrow I have to burry my hamster.... :(
I came home from work just fifteen minutes ago and went downstairs to check on the three hamsters, and she was lying all funny on the side of her cage, not breathing.
I'm so miserable. I can't stop crying. I know she was just a hamster, but that's not really the point. It seems like I have no time for anyone or anything anymore. I haven't been tending to them as much as I should. I haven't been tending to ANYTHING as much as I should because I'm so damn busy. I hate it. I never get a day off anymore. I can never lie in bed for an entire day, without showering or putting on clothes. I'm sick of working and I'm sick of school and I just want to stop going to both of them. Work is a complete disaster these days, everyone's always fighting with me and it's just not fun anymore. The majority of my friends there are either quitting really soon or have already quit, and it's starting to feel like I'm just going into a warzone everytime I'm scheduled to work. School is just stressing me out nonstop, I'm sick of my classes and I don't feel like I'm learning a thing. I was so excited for this year to start, but now I'm just wishing for the term to end.
My computer is also fried and I'm probably going to need to buy a new one, which is something I cannot afford. Ironic, isn't it? I'm always working, yet I never have any money. I spilt some water on the keyboard a few months ago and I'm thinking that's what caused the problem, only lately its finally started to catch up on me.
My parents are flying out to St. John's for Nanny's 85th birthday next week, so Stephen and I will have the house to ourselves. Trouble is, I'll never get to BE in the house, because I'll be at school or work. It sucks. I should have booked the days off, but I can't, because there's nobody else to work for me, hense why all my friends quit and now I'm working like a manic. It's not fair. I still haven't gotten a raise in that dump, either. I bust my ass, stress myself out nonstop, all for minimum wage. Super fucking dooper. Or not. Yeah, I'm going to go with the not.
And now tomorrow I have to burry my hamster.... :(