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It's been a while since I honestly wished that I could just close my eyes and that I would just fade away. When loneliness starts to do this shit to me I know it's time to try and find something to get involved in even if that means I do it alone. I seriously need to find something to do, some kind of activity where I can get out, maybe do something physical, meet possible some new friends and live life.
This feeling alone shit is for the birds and I'm tired of feeling depressed about it. I know right now my work schedule is crazy with two jobs and I don't begrudge my friends and family having their own lives...but I'm so sick of hearing what people have been doing and how happy they are and blah blah blah because they go out and LIVE life.
I want to LIVE my life...now I just need find something I can get involved in and be passionate about so I can start having fun again and feel alive. I don't just want to work to survive and I want to flourish.
This feeling alone shit is for the birds and I'm tired of feeling depressed about it. I know right now my work schedule is crazy with two jobs and I don't begrudge my friends and family having their own lives...but I'm so sick of hearing what people have been doing and how happy they are and blah blah blah because they go out and LIVE life.
I want to LIVE my life...now I just need find something I can get involved in and be passionate about so I can start having fun again and feel alive. I don't just want to work to survive and I want to flourish.