ignore this porfa haha
i knew liam would realize i´m not good enough for him. he doesnt want me back... ok so i´m writing about this w/o telling the story of what happened but i dont feel like going into all the gory details of how my heart got broken and i am still the pathetic girl wanting him back and spending all her days crying and crying. sounds horrible huh?? well it is and i feel all alone and miserable and i want to go home. :(
but i´ll make it through these last few months in spain. when i dont feel quite so depressed i´ll update on spain, cause it really is wonderful. actually its so wonderful, and madrid is so amazing, that that is the reason liam and i broke up. how oddly ironic...*sigh*
thanks to all my friends who have been there for me during all this SHIT. i seriously have needed to cry on everyone´s shoulder, thats how many tears i have had. good thing i have friends all over the world...
kim´s been my supportive online baby. check it out:
The world has to suck, otherwise we'd all fall off dice:
Cassie your a awesome person don't ever say your pathetic
The world has to suck, otherwise we'd all fall off dice:
your sweet, and sexy, and loving, caring, your a wonderful friend... and Liam is lucky to have someone who cares so much about him she's willing to fight for him
awww sweetness huh? she has seriously given me some good advice, even though she doesnt think so. :) and so has josh. that boy never ever fails to cheer me up. he helped me realize that dying is bad and staying in one piece is good. :) i hope i can be there for him some day as much as he has been there for me. did that make sense? ha, i dont know...anyways josh is just the sweetest guy i know and i love him to pieces and i am going to hug him and hug him when i come home. and theres also matt who can totally sympathize cause he knows what its like...i´m cheering for him and his new crush. ;-) and then jen just arrived on the scene and i´m supposed to ´be tough´ so she says. and baby, i´m trying to be...
and wacarra, and cindi, and even annie who called to check up on me, have been my Spain support system...on the very 1st awful night wac came over and let me bitch to her and she brought the crumbliest, flakiest chocolate in spain. (hahaha) and cindi sent over starbursts. then last night they came over and ate chips and chocolate and watched Friends with me and we drank rum and coke. i love those girls. its nice knowing i´m not completely totally alone here...even though i feel alone w/o liam, even though for the past 4 months he has never really been WITH me.
and then there´s Manda and Randi, who i havent actually talked to yet, but who have emailed me nice encouraging, self-esteem boosting emails. i will get to talk to both of them tomorrow though. :) i bought a phone card so i am gonna make a few calls. randi´s emails actually make me cry haha. but they have been sweet. and i hear megan´s rooting for me too, through kim hehe.
and lisa CALLED ME!! by far the best thing ever hehe. my very 1st phone call in spain that wasnt liam...haha. i couldnt understand a word she said but it was still so amazing. i had no idea who she was for like the 1st 5 mins and then she laughed and i was like ahhhhh!!! haha it was awesome.
ok i dont think i forgot anyone who i looooove. but i do randomly forget friends so it could be very possible. :-P tonight i´m gonna go get sloshed with wacarra and cindi and we are gonna watch some more Friends. should be fun. and then i am gonna go and cry myself to sleep some more...cheery huh? well, lots of love for everyone...
but i´ll make it through these last few months in spain. when i dont feel quite so depressed i´ll update on spain, cause it really is wonderful. actually its so wonderful, and madrid is so amazing, that that is the reason liam and i broke up. how oddly ironic...*sigh*
thanks to all my friends who have been there for me during all this SHIT. i seriously have needed to cry on everyone´s shoulder, thats how many tears i have had. good thing i have friends all over the world...
kim´s been my supportive online baby. check it out:
The world has to suck, otherwise we'd all fall off dice:
Cassie your a awesome person don't ever say your pathetic
The world has to suck, otherwise we'd all fall off dice:
your sweet, and sexy, and loving, caring, your a wonderful friend... and Liam is lucky to have someone who cares so much about him she's willing to fight for him
awww sweetness huh? she has seriously given me some good advice, even though she doesnt think so. :) and so has josh. that boy never ever fails to cheer me up. he helped me realize that dying is bad and staying in one piece is good. :) i hope i can be there for him some day as much as he has been there for me. did that make sense? ha, i dont know...anyways josh is just the sweetest guy i know and i love him to pieces and i am going to hug him and hug him when i come home. and theres also matt who can totally sympathize cause he knows what its like...i´m cheering for him and his new crush. ;-) and then jen just arrived on the scene and i´m supposed to ´be tough´ so she says. and baby, i´m trying to be...
and wacarra, and cindi, and even annie who called to check up on me, have been my Spain support system...on the very 1st awful night wac came over and let me bitch to her and she brought the crumbliest, flakiest chocolate in spain. (hahaha) and cindi sent over starbursts. then last night they came over and ate chips and chocolate and watched Friends with me and we drank rum and coke. i love those girls. its nice knowing i´m not completely totally alone here...even though i feel alone w/o liam, even though for the past 4 months he has never really been WITH me.
and then there´s Manda and Randi, who i havent actually talked to yet, but who have emailed me nice encouraging, self-esteem boosting emails. i will get to talk to both of them tomorrow though. :) i bought a phone card so i am gonna make a few calls. randi´s emails actually make me cry haha. but they have been sweet. and i hear megan´s rooting for me too, through kim hehe.
and lisa CALLED ME!! by far the best thing ever hehe. my very 1st phone call in spain that wasnt liam...haha. i couldnt understand a word she said but it was still so amazing. i had no idea who she was for like the 1st 5 mins and then she laughed and i was like ahhhhh!!! haha it was awesome.
ok i dont think i forgot anyone who i looooove. but i do randomly forget friends so it could be very possible. :-P tonight i´m gonna go get sloshed with wacarra and cindi and we are gonna watch some more Friends. should be fun. and then i am gonna go and cry myself to sleep some more...cheery huh? well, lots of love for everyone...