Bittersweet Peony x Jade FST (LYRICS)
I have noticed a great lack of PeonyxJade around on LJ and everywhere! So here I am completely pimping out an entire FST to them!
I put a lot of work into this one and LOVE how it came out~ Although as I was compressing it I found another track that was perfect, that's how it works, is't it XD;;
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Once again, the things that really stood out to me are italicized. This if course doesn't limit it, I usually pick a song for the whole song or hte message it gives. And here I posted the FULL lyrics to all the songs so you don't have to look them up and all.
Okay and we begin~~~~
Track .1. Blood On My Hands by The Used
You felt the coldness in my eyes,
It's something I'm not revealing.
Though you got used to my disguise,
You can't shake this awful feeling.
It's the me that I let you know,
Cause' I'll never show,
I have my reasons.
I hate to say that I told you so,
But I told you so.
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you.
Some things can't be treated so,
Don't make me,
Don't make me be myself around you.
Straight from your eyes it's barely me.
Beautifully so disfigured.
This other side that you can't see,
Just praying you won't remember.
Feel the pain that I never show,
I hope you know,
It's never healing.
I hate to say that I told you so, but I told you so.
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you.
Some things can't be treated so,
Don't make me,
Don't make me be myself around you.
Straight from your eyes it's barely me
Beautifully so disfigured.
This other side that you can't see,
Just praying you won't remember.
There's blood.
There's blood.
There's blood, blood, blood.
There's blood on my hands like the blood in you.
Some things can't be treated so,
Don't make me,
Don't make me be myself around you.
There's blood!
This is purely a Jade song if I ever heard one. Our fst here is going to begin dark and a bit angry, mentioning the blood Jade has spilt (namely Nebilim's). The beginning talks about lies and such and you'll see that most of these songs will have mention to lies, masks, and things that are fake so expect it, I mean come on, it's Jade. XD Anyway, we're opening with a song that solely shows how Jade feels about himself.
Track .2. Fake It by Seether
Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah
Good god you're coming up with reasons
Good god you're dragging it out
Good god it's the changing of the seasons
I feel so raped
So follow me down
And just fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like affection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite
And you should know that the lies won't hide your flaws
No sense in hiding all of yours
You gave up on your dreams along the way
Yeah
Whoah
Whoah
I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake with the best of em all
I can fake with the best of anyone
I can fake it all
Who's to know if your soul will fade at all
The one you sold to fool the world
You lost your self-esteem along the way
Yeah
Fake it if you're out of direction
Fake it if you don't belong here
Fake it if you feel like infection
Woah you're such a fucking hypocrite
Peony is sick of Jade's lies and fake emotions. A very pointing-finger-at-you song. It's pretty self-explanatory.
Track .3. Haunted by Disturbed
Your broken so am I,
I’m better off alone!
No one to turn to and,
Nothing to call my own
Outspoken, so am I!
Explosive words that,
Your world wouldn’t understand,
Turn away again
You're beaten, so am I!
I’ve got a heart of stone!
No medication can cure what has taken hold
You're hurting, so will I,
When I awake and remember,
Why I've been running from your
World, dishonored by your world
Your world, I’m haunted by your world
My blood is cold as ice,
Or so I have been told,
Show no emotion,
And it can destroy your soul
Another sacrifice, to a tormentor,
Your world wouldn't understand,
Turn away again!
You're angered, so am I!
A thousand fires burn!
A land of darkness from which I cannot return!
You're aching, so will I
When I awake and discover that,
I’ve been damaged by your
World, dishonored by your world
Your world, I’m haunted by your world
Never will I be welcome,
Amongst the heartless monsters,
You surround yourself with
Feeding off the pain and misfortune of others,
A maniacal breed of sub-human parasites,
Thrown into a feeding frenzy,
With the smell of fresh blood
Open your eyes and see the creatures for what they are,
A swirling mass of hatred and envy
And do not be naïve enough to think you are unaffected,
The conversion has already begun.
You're frightened, so am I!
A world of demons wait,
Watching our movements and,
Filling my heart with hate,
You're burning, so will I
When I awake and discover,
How I’ve been ravaged by your,
World, dishonored by your world
Your world, I’m haunted by your world!
As angry and spiteful as this song is, I think it really fits Jade and how he feels towards Peony, because he is forced to stay by his side, however we all know he does it more by choice. The reason I'm letting Peony be viewed so negatively is because he was so tormented, himself, by the loss of Nephry and his pining for her. So they really are both broken, Jade just in a different sense. XDDD
Track .4. Poison by Groove Coverage
(I wanna love you but I,but I better not)
Poison
(I wanna love you but I,but I better not)
Poison
Your cruel device
your blood, like ice
One look, could kill
My pain, your thrill...
I wanna love you but I better not touch
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you but I want it too much
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
Your poison running through my veins
Your poison
I don't wanna play these games
(I wanna love you but I,but I better not)
Poison
Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
Black lace, on sweat
I hear you calling and it's needles and pins
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you but you're under my skin
I wanna taste you but your lips are venomous poison
Your poison running through my veins
Your poison
I don't wanna break these chains
Peony knows the risk of getting involved with Jade before it even begins. He's guarded and on the defensive for a while now. It's also gotta hurt a bit falling for you ex-love interest's brother....;;;;;
Track .5. Dizzy by the Goo Goo Dolls
You're cynical and beautiful
You always make a scene
You're monochrome delirious
You're nothing that you seem
I'm drowning in your vanity
Your laugh is a disease
You know you're everything I need
Chorus:
Everything you are
Falls from the sky like a star
Everything you are
Whatever ever you want
I wanna kick at the machine
That made you piss away your dreams
And tear at your defenses
Till there's nothing left but me
You're angry when you're beautiful
Your love is such a tease
I'm drowning in your dizzy noise
I wanna feel you scream
Still Peony to Jade. He's trying to figure out what he wants. Jade is a contradiction, this is just reiterating what the previous song said~ (Sorry, I needed more Peony songs;;) However after reading this a couple times I suppose it can be played in the other direction as well and be a Jade song, talking about Peony. He's so reserved I don't think he'd comeout and say it as easily as Peony, but I have a couple songs here about what's possibly going on in his head anyway;;;
Track .6. Bleeding Love by Jesse McCartney <---Yes, it's the original, don't hate me!
Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you’re frozen (Frozen...)
Oh, but something happened for the very first time with you
My heart was melted to the ground found something true
And everyone’s looking round thinking I’m going crazy, baby
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling (Ohh...)
Oh, but nothing’s greater than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I’m going crazy (Crazy) maybe (Maybe)
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
'Cause I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
Oh, you cut me open and I
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
And Peony is in love. It didn't take much. I chose this song to show that he was lonely and hurting initially from the loss of Nephry as the song implies in the beginning. And as with all the Emperor's love affairs, regardless of what people say he is willing to give up everything for his ideals and values.
Track .7. Never is A Promise by Fiona Apple
Youll never see the courage I know
Its colors richness wont appear within your view
Ill never glow - the way that you glow
Your presence dominates the judgements made on you
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch; I see from greater heights
I understand what I am still too proud to mention - to you
Youll say you understand, but you dont understand
Youll say youd never give up seeing eye to eye
But never is a promise, and you cant afford to lie
Youll never touch - these things that I hold
The skin of my emotions lies beneath my own
Youll never feel the heat of this soul
My fever burns me deeper than Ive ever shown - to you
Youll say, dont fear your dreams, its easier than it seems
Youll say youd never let me fall from hopes so high
But never is a promise and you cant afford to lie
Youll never live the life that I live
Ill never live the life that wakes me in the night
Youll never hear the message I give
Youll say it looks as though I might give up this fight
But as the scenery grows, I see in different lights
The shades and shadows undulate in my perception
My feelings swell and stretch, I see from greater heights
I realize what I am now too smart to mention - to you
Youll say you understand, youll never understand
Ill say Ill never wake up knowing how or why
I dont know what to believe in, you dont know who I am
Youll say I need appeasing when I start to cry
But never is a promise and Ill never need a lie
Okaaaaay, now for Jade's side of the story. He's obviously not going to give in so easily. Here's a self-guilt song, that reflects Jade just pushing away, pushing away. He's very reserved as always.
Track .8. Bittersweet by Miz
Another day, another lie
No matter how I try
So many enemies to kill
but I just love the thrill
Thoughts are running though my head
Oh, can I be you instead
This is not supposed to be
Don't walk away from me
All this time I've been beside you
Oh, all this time I've been around
I'm cryin', I'm dyin' for you
It's violent yet tasteful
So hard but it's true
Over and over is the promise we make
My bittersweet mistake
Let me know what's deep inside
and it will be alright
Leave your worries for today
and it will be ok
All this time I've been beside you
Oh, all this time I've been around
I'm cryin', I'm dyin' for you
It's violent yet tasteful
So hard but it's true
Over and over is the promise we make
My bittersweet
My bittersweet mistake, mistake, mistake...
Over and over is the promise we make
It's violent yet tasteful
So hard but it's true
Over and over is the promise we make
My bittersweet
It's my mistake
Yeah, he can fight but he falls eventually, anyway. XDDD This is a more revealing song than someone might expect of Jade, of course...and it IS rather upbeat however it is writing off love as a mistake so I just couldn't not include it. Mmm, hope its not TOO out of character.
Track .9. Gunning Down Romance by Savage Garden
Love and other moments are just chemical reactions in your brain
In your brain
And feelings of aggression are the absence of the love drug in
Your veins, in your veins
Love come quickly
Because I feel my self-esteem is caving in
It's on the brink
Love come quickly
Because I don't think I can keep this monster in
It's in my skin
Love and other socially acceptable emotions are morphine
They're morphine
Cleverly concealing primal urges often felt but rarely seen
Rarely seen
Love I beg you
Lift me up into that privileged point of view
The world of two
Love don't leave me
Because I console myself that HallmarkT cards are true
I really do
I'm gunning down romance
It never did a thing for me
But heartache and misery
Ain't nothing but a tragedy
Love don't leave me
Take these broken wings
I'm going to take these broken wings
And learn to fly
And learn to fly away
And learn to fly away
I'm gunning down romance
So when someone who doesn't know or believe in love, falls in love what happens? Do they crave it? Who knows, everyone's different. But this song reminded me of Jade a lot. I have the image of Jade asking for love and emotion just so that he can feel it once and experience it. He strikes me as someone who could get addicted to a feeling or emotion easily.
Track .10. Noticed by Mute Math
Careful when you open
It's easy to be broken
In the strangest fashion
You start a chain reaction
When you look my way
Something's pounding away
And I wonder if I ever
felt this before
And all this time, oblivious
to what you make so obvious
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
At least it was never until I noticed
you and your ways
Capture what I've misplaced
In the perfect fashion
Just watch my heart's reaction
This point of view
is nothing that I'm used to, but I
won't close my eyes
'Cause they're on to you
And all this time,
it was staring me blind
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
At least it was never until I noticed
you
The only time I ever noticed my heart
Was when I noticed you, yeah
The only time I ever noticed my heart
Was when I noticed you, yeah
You, yeah, you, yeah!
And you are reaching
Something that is beating
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
Over and again
Racing out of my skin
I can't believe I never noticed my heart before
'Till I noticed you, yeah
I noticed you, yeah
When I noticed you, yeah
You, yeah
When I noticed you, yeah
I noticed you, yeah
That's the only time I ever noticed my heart before
Wait, so you mean he has one?
XD Pretty self-explanatory song. Kinda sappy too...;;; Peony wears his heart on his sleeve with open emotions while Jade remains well, jaded, and concealed with everything.
Track .11. Somewhere in Between by LifeHouse
I cant be losing sleep over this, no I cant
And now I can not stop pacing
Give me a few hours, Ill have all this sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
This is over my head but underneath my feet
Cuz by tomorrow morning Ill have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in
Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again
I dont want to run away from this
I know that I just dont need this
Cause I cannot stand still
I cant be this unsturdy
This cannot be happening
Cuz Im waiting for tonight
Then waiting for tomorrow
And Im somewhere in between
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
What is real, and just a dream
Two songs left, I always have to make them pretty sappy. Well, as always Jade's mind is overly full and he has to stop and think about what the hell they are doing with everything. He's taking a step back and trying to figure out everything.
Track .12. Paralyzed by The Cardigans
This is where your sanity gives in
and love begins
Never lose your grip
don't trip
don't fall
you'll lose it all
The sweetest way to die
It lies deep inside
you can not hide
it's the meanest fire
Oh, it's a strange desire
you can not lie
that's a needless fight
This is where your sanity gives in
and love begins
Never lose your grip
don't trip
don't fall
you'll lose it all
The sweetest way to die
When your blood runs dry
you're paralyzed
it will eat your mind
Did you hold it back
It comes to you in slow attacks
It's the meanest fire
Aaaaand that ends it. Love is delicate, so let's hope they don't mess it up~ <3
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