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Grayson is beside me semi freaking out, so this will be quick. Sorry for spelling mistakes and all grammatical errors that will occur.
I feel as if I am stuck between a rock and a hard place atm. Right before Rob went to bed this afternoon he said I should call the local bakery and see if they are still hireing. This took me by surprise. Right from the start we have said "Who ever gets paid more will work, the other will stay home with Grayson"
The local bakery Little Vienna, was hireing right as I went on mat leave back in July. So I didn't think twice about it. When Rob used to work in town he would go to the bakery often, and him knowing how much I would love to bake cookies, cakes and pasteries besides bread started talking to the owners. Now it has been 5 1/2 months since they were looking for a baker, but Rob said to call just to see whats happening. We had a full conversation about it, and all I remember is "Have you thought about going back to work?" "I don't want to work for Chad anymore, and this way you can get out of the house more"
Does that sound douchey to anyone else?
Now instead of I don't want to go back to work yet, I just said Okay I'll get right on it. Then after I talked to the current owner, I went to tell Rob what happened and started to cry a bit. Then I told him how I really felt "Well its a part of life, you would have had to go back anyway" Which is true, but I thought I could atleast take more time. What ever happened to me going to school through coorespondance?
Now if I get the job it is doable. Depending on the hours I will still be able to spend 7 hours a day with Grayson. I will be working a 5 minute drive 15-20 minute walk away. I will be making $2 more then Rob, which isn't alot. Rob has benefits for the family, with me working we would lose our benefits. My parental leave from the government would also get docked, or completly stop arriving. Which means Rob would have to find a way to make $904 a month to cover what I bring in on EI.
I am... Not miffed, I have no idea how I feel...displaced? Can a person feel that way? I like to plan for things, and I feel as if I have been thrown into the prospect of going back to work. I also feel like I have made a commitment, because Susan is waiting for my resume. She was telling me that the baker they just hired has excellent skills, but she is still not sure if he can handle the night shift.
I have no idea what to do. I REALLY don't want to go back to work yet, but if I can bring in more money then Rob currently is then why not? I just get so sad when I think of leaving Grayson.
FMl! I had a whole thing wrote out and it didn't autosave. *sigh*
One more try...Sorry if I repeat myself from my earlier entry.
One thing I remembered when I was putting Grayby down for a nap, was Rob had mentioned maybe being able to work the 5 hour shift. Which means I could work 8 hours, get atleast 8 hours of sleep and still be able to spend atleast 6 hours with Grayson. If I remember correctly Little Vienna bakers start at 4am. So I wake up at 3, work from 4 until 12. I would get home around 12:30, sooner if Rob picks me up. Spend the rest of my day with Grayson while Rob is at work from 1 until 6. When Rob gets home I go to bed!
What would be amazing is if the rest of my Parental Leave weeks could go to Rob. When I was signing up for Maternity and Parental Leave I was asked if anyone else would be taking time off too. At that time Rob was making almost $25 an hour so it was a no brainer that he would take no time off. Now with Maternity and Parental Leave a person can take 50 weeks off of work. 15 weeks for Maternity and the rest is Parental. The thing with Parental is you and your spouse split those remaining weeks. Now if I get this job my payments might just dissapear all together. If I call EI and layout my story, I wonder if they would give Rob the remainder of my weeks! Depending on when he would get his ROE, and if the government would want to take Rob through the proccessing process all over again. We might end up looking at 2 or more weeks before we would get another EI payment. At this point, we can't afford to miss any type of payment.
In a perfect world Rob's job would be flexible enough, they would allow him to work 1 to 6. Which allows me to work Wednesday to Saturday, I want Tuesday off so Grayson and I can still go to Baby Talk. Why not work Sunday and Monday you ask? The bakery is closed! So in reality I would work Tuesday night to Friday night. That way if my EI dissapears Rob and I (would hopefully) make enough money that it wouldn't matter! .........Rob and I just wouldn't see eachother at all, unless he was able to take Sunday and Monday off. Then we would have those days and Saturday evening! That works right? 2 and a half days, its alot more then I remember my parents seeing eachother. They did what Rob and I are contemplating doing. Please just this once can things work out 100% the way I want them too. *Prays to every available god,diety, spirit and other worldly being able to help* :)
I feel as if I am stuck between a rock and a hard place atm. Right before Rob went to bed this afternoon he said I should call the local bakery and see if they are still hireing. This took me by surprise. Right from the start we have said "Who ever gets paid more will work, the other will stay home with Grayson"
The local bakery Little Vienna, was hireing right as I went on mat leave back in July. So I didn't think twice about it. When Rob used to work in town he would go to the bakery often, and him knowing how much I would love to bake cookies, cakes and pasteries besides bread started talking to the owners. Now it has been 5 1/2 months since they were looking for a baker, but Rob said to call just to see whats happening. We had a full conversation about it, and all I remember is "Have you thought about going back to work?" "I don't want to work for Chad anymore, and this way you can get out of the house more"
Does that sound douchey to anyone else?
Now instead of I don't want to go back to work yet, I just said Okay I'll get right on it. Then after I talked to the current owner, I went to tell Rob what happened and started to cry a bit. Then I told him how I really felt "Well its a part of life, you would have had to go back anyway" Which is true, but I thought I could atleast take more time. What ever happened to me going to school through coorespondance?
Now if I get the job it is doable. Depending on the hours I will still be able to spend 7 hours a day with Grayson. I will be working a 5 minute drive 15-20 minute walk away. I will be making $2 more then Rob, which isn't alot. Rob has benefits for the family, with me working we would lose our benefits. My parental leave from the government would also get docked, or completly stop arriving. Which means Rob would have to find a way to make $904 a month to cover what I bring in on EI.
I am... Not miffed, I have no idea how I feel...displaced? Can a person feel that way? I like to plan for things, and I feel as if I have been thrown into the prospect of going back to work. I also feel like I have made a commitment, because Susan is waiting for my resume. She was telling me that the baker they just hired has excellent skills, but she is still not sure if he can handle the night shift.
I have no idea what to do. I REALLY don't want to go back to work yet, but if I can bring in more money then Rob currently is then why not? I just get so sad when I think of leaving Grayson.
FMl! I had a whole thing wrote out and it didn't autosave. *sigh*
One more try...Sorry if I repeat myself from my earlier entry.
One thing I remembered when I was putting Grayby down for a nap, was Rob had mentioned maybe being able to work the 5 hour shift. Which means I could work 8 hours, get atleast 8 hours of sleep and still be able to spend atleast 6 hours with Grayson. If I remember correctly Little Vienna bakers start at 4am. So I wake up at 3, work from 4 until 12. I would get home around 12:30, sooner if Rob picks me up. Spend the rest of my day with Grayson while Rob is at work from 1 until 6. When Rob gets home I go to bed!
What would be amazing is if the rest of my Parental Leave weeks could go to Rob. When I was signing up for Maternity and Parental Leave I was asked if anyone else would be taking time off too. At that time Rob was making almost $25 an hour so it was a no brainer that he would take no time off. Now with Maternity and Parental Leave a person can take 50 weeks off of work. 15 weeks for Maternity and the rest is Parental. The thing with Parental is you and your spouse split those remaining weeks. Now if I get this job my payments might just dissapear all together. If I call EI and layout my story, I wonder if they would give Rob the remainder of my weeks! Depending on when he would get his ROE, and if the government would want to take Rob through the proccessing process all over again. We might end up looking at 2 or more weeks before we would get another EI payment. At this point, we can't afford to miss any type of payment.
In a perfect world Rob's job would be flexible enough, they would allow him to work 1 to 6. Which allows me to work Wednesday to Saturday, I want Tuesday off so Grayson and I can still go to Baby Talk. Why not work Sunday and Monday you ask? The bakery is closed! So in reality I would work Tuesday night to Friday night. That way if my EI dissapears Rob and I (would hopefully) make enough money that it wouldn't matter! .........Rob and I just wouldn't see eachother at all, unless he was able to take Sunday and Monday off. Then we would have those days and Saturday evening! That works right? 2 and a half days, its alot more then I remember my parents seeing eachother. They did what Rob and I are contemplating doing. Please just this once can things work out 100% the way I want them too. *Prays to every available god,diety, spirit and other worldly being able to help* :)