WARNING RANTFUL POST
So yesterday was work, and i don't remmember it really... just that I worked until 4:30. Then me and robert bought a shit ton of grocheries. Which leads me to stress #1: Money. It's difficult when you need it, but you hate making it. Which leads me to stress #2: Work. I hate my job.
Robert made dinner and we watched The Butterfly Effect. Which, I thought was a good movie actually. Well, it's towards the climax of the movie and Angry #1: Rob's DVD player. It got stuck right at a good part (the part where he's drowning himself in the bathtub) and it froze. Well, on my DVD player I can just fast forward over that part, but rob's thing is weird so the same button that fast forwards also scene skips. So we kept trying to fast forward through the freeze but it kept skipping us way ahead. I have PMS. Soooo I was getting pissed because I have always hated his DVD player and I just wanted to watch the movie. So we finally finished it in our room on MY dvd player. It worked fine.
So then I wanted to clean the kitchen because it was a disaster, which leads me to angry #2: robert preffered to watch tv. Normally I wouldn't have cared but I was PMSy which causes over reacting of everything. So I got pissed and was storming around banging dishes and I stubbed my toe HARD. So I started crying like a baby because it hurt and I was alone washing dishes.
Then Robert came and helped me clean up but I couldn't stop crying because I felt rediculous. He got me some ice for my toe and we watched crossing jordan. Then i was crying because Robert was being nice and i felt bad for being a bitch. then i cried over sex and the city. and then i cried because robert told me a story from his childhood. then i cried when he went to sleep on the couch. and i was happy when he came back.
so last night was cryful emotions, and today was just pure rage. all day.
Work sucked. I hate my job. The machine was broken and we were busy and i was alone. I was a total bitch to every guest. Then I started crying again because I couldn't fix the paper. Then, the phone rang. It was some dude asking about pictures, and then, a twist of fate: he asked me if i happened to know anyone looking for a job because his company was expanding into the area. I was like, uh, me! how weird is that? yes I am aware it could be totally bogus and i could go to an interview and get raped. but if it is legit, how awesome is that? twist of fate, twist of fate. it was hot, and the heat is making the guests cranky, and i didn't feel like taking it today. i got in fights with everyone today. it felt GREAT.
I came home only to go to school. which was nice, we did pen drawings today and i'm pleased with mine. now i'm home.
all robert and rob do is play baseball and get drunk. i just want to have a nice place and hang my curtains. they told me i should move out. i don't want to, i enjoy living here. i also enjoy waking up to a clean apartment.
DISCLAIMER: I'M NOT ALWAYS A BITCH. I USUALLY DON'T HATE LIFE THIS MUCH. I HAVE MY PERIOD AND MY TOE HURTS. AND ROBERT IS DRUNK AND READING THIS OVER MY SHOULDER.
Robert made dinner and we watched The Butterfly Effect. Which, I thought was a good movie actually. Well, it's towards the climax of the movie and Angry #1: Rob's DVD player. It got stuck right at a good part (the part where he's drowning himself in the bathtub) and it froze. Well, on my DVD player I can just fast forward over that part, but rob's thing is weird so the same button that fast forwards also scene skips. So we kept trying to fast forward through the freeze but it kept skipping us way ahead. I have PMS. Soooo I was getting pissed because I have always hated his DVD player and I just wanted to watch the movie. So we finally finished it in our room on MY dvd player. It worked fine.
So then I wanted to clean the kitchen because it was a disaster, which leads me to angry #2: robert preffered to watch tv. Normally I wouldn't have cared but I was PMSy which causes over reacting of everything. So I got pissed and was storming around banging dishes and I stubbed my toe HARD. So I started crying like a baby because it hurt and I was alone washing dishes.
Then Robert came and helped me clean up but I couldn't stop crying because I felt rediculous. He got me some ice for my toe and we watched crossing jordan. Then i was crying because Robert was being nice and i felt bad for being a bitch. then i cried over sex and the city. and then i cried because robert told me a story from his childhood. then i cried when he went to sleep on the couch. and i was happy when he came back.
so last night was cryful emotions, and today was just pure rage. all day.
Work sucked. I hate my job. The machine was broken and we were busy and i was alone. I was a total bitch to every guest. Then I started crying again because I couldn't fix the paper. Then, the phone rang. It was some dude asking about pictures, and then, a twist of fate: he asked me if i happened to know anyone looking for a job because his company was expanding into the area. I was like, uh, me! how weird is that? yes I am aware it could be totally bogus and i could go to an interview and get raped. but if it is legit, how awesome is that? twist of fate, twist of fate. it was hot, and the heat is making the guests cranky, and i didn't feel like taking it today. i got in fights with everyone today. it felt GREAT.
I came home only to go to school. which was nice, we did pen drawings today and i'm pleased with mine. now i'm home.
all robert and rob do is play baseball and get drunk. i just want to have a nice place and hang my curtains. they told me i should move out. i don't want to, i enjoy living here. i also enjoy waking up to a clean apartment.
DISCLAIMER: I'M NOT ALWAYS A BITCH. I USUALLY DON'T HATE LIFE THIS MUCH. I HAVE MY PERIOD AND MY TOE HURTS. AND ROBERT IS DRUNK AND READING THIS OVER MY SHOULDER.