are you feeling like youre on he brink, of spilling some red in the sink. it wasnt the easiest year.
so i absolutely LOVE it how people can make assumtions and judge me and my life without knowing anything at all about either one. i mean thats always dope. i mean hey if i wanna be a cult ill be in a freakin cult man. (lol....BIG inside joke)
in other news i had a really freakin weird night last night. dan called me,we conversated not too sure if it was good or bad, still confused on that one, but whats new. had an interesting little meeting with hotrod. to sum it all up in a hot second boys are silly.
i had a good conversation with christine the other day about letting my guard down a little, which i decided i should, but cant do that just yet. i have my reasons. but speaking of my dear little girlie shes moving home on the 18th, and yes i cried, yes sarah burgin cried tears of joy over cull coming home for good, bc i CLEARLY missed my bestest bud in the whole world.
i went to the chesterfield show on wensday night with nicky and tonya, drove nickys car around detroit for a couple hours, missed kill the beast play, and cheech was being emo, but not about that, about other badness that happend to him that night involving a certain drummer who was wearing a certain fat suit on halloween which a certain drunk girl was obsessed with. lol. anyways, they played really good and i was all proud of them, and i really believe that theyre gonna make it in that whole music industry thing. day after had some dumbass drama, that was seriously the gayest thing ive ever heard in my entire life, but anyays back to real life.
also being the cold hearted bitch that ive come to the conclusion that i am, ive decided to drop someone who only brings me down, and yeah we've had some good times in the past, fuck man, weve had some GREAT fuckin times, but thats in the past. and now the only thing he does is bring me down, andi dont fuckin need that shit at all. ive dropped him once before and i can do it again. besided i had everyone telling me that since im always happy and excited over things it makes them excited and happy too and brings them into my good mood, so i dont need someone in my life who is unhappy, crabby, and just an all around bitch who i couldnt cheer up if i pulled a fucking full blown party out of my ass.
and i know this has been a long ass entry but i also have to add that i hung out with cara tonight and had a really kick ass time smoking, driving around, and speaking of each others DRaMa. we laughed a lot, and i missed her.
wow its really amazing how i can absolutely run myself into the point of extreme exhustion where im so tired i just feel shit faced drunk.
okay im done i swear
i love you all so much
xoxoxoxoxoxo
sarebear
these days are never ending