Jade
This is very hard for me to write.
One year ago today, my BFF and soul sister,
jade_okelani, passed away.
I honestly cannot believe it's been a year since it happened. I know we always say "time flies," but I can't wrap my head around it. Sometimes it still feels like we only just lost her. How can a year have already gone by? That's just crazy.
This post is really long overdue, but I needed time. I told myself that the one-year anniversary of her passing would be my deadline, because otherwise I'd probably never do it. I just never imagined that this day would come so quickly. At one point I had even told myself to post about on Jade's birthday, which was last month, but I just wasn't prepared, and ultimately it didn't feel right to talk about this on that day.
Jade was loved by everyone who knew her, and it wasn't hard to see why. She could put anyone at ease in any situation, and she was funny, witty, and kind. She was only 37 years old when she was diagnosed with cancer (we think liver, but even at the end, they weren't sure what the primary was) and had only just turned 38 years old when she left this world, which is just far too early and so, so unfair. Every day since she died I've felt robbed, but it wasn't just me who was robbed, but all of us, because this place was much better with her in it.
I feel so incredibly lucky for having had her in my life, even though it was for a too-short amount of time. She was honestly the best friend a person could have. She had endless amounts of patience, understanding, and generosity, especially for the people she was close to. I was blessed to be one of them. It's not always easy to be friends with me, especially if you spend as much time as we did together through the years. What made our friendship magical was that we were opposites in the things that mattered, and we were also alike in the things that mattered. I can't even imagine what my life would have been like if she hadn't come into it.
Our friendship was the best thing that ever happened to me, and I don't hesitate to say that in many ways she was a much better friend to me than I was to her.
I think of her constantly.
And I miss her every day. This post was originally made at Dreamwidth. To reply at Dreamwidth, click here. To view the entry's
comments, click here.
One year ago today, my BFF and soul sister,
jade_okelani, passed away.
I honestly cannot believe it's been a year since it happened. I know we always say "time flies," but I can't wrap my head around it. Sometimes it still feels like we only just lost her. How can a year have already gone by? That's just crazy.
This post is really long overdue, but I needed time. I told myself that the one-year anniversary of her passing would be my deadline, because otherwise I'd probably never do it. I just never imagined that this day would come so quickly. At one point I had even told myself to post about on Jade's birthday, which was last month, but I just wasn't prepared, and ultimately it didn't feel right to talk about this on that day.
Jade was loved by everyone who knew her, and it wasn't hard to see why. She could put anyone at ease in any situation, and she was funny, witty, and kind. She was only 37 years old when she was diagnosed with cancer (we think liver, but even at the end, they weren't sure what the primary was) and had only just turned 38 years old when she left this world, which is just far too early and so, so unfair. Every day since she died I've felt robbed, but it wasn't just me who was robbed, but all of us, because this place was much better with her in it.
I feel so incredibly lucky for having had her in my life, even though it was for a too-short amount of time. She was honestly the best friend a person could have. She had endless amounts of patience, understanding, and generosity, especially for the people she was close to. I was blessed to be one of them. It's not always easy to be friends with me, especially if you spend as much time as we did together through the years. What made our friendship magical was that we were opposites in the things that mattered, and we were also alike in the things that mattered. I can't even imagine what my life would have been like if she hadn't come into it.
Our friendship was the best thing that ever happened to me, and I don't hesitate to say that in many ways she was a much better friend to me than I was to her.
I think of her constantly.
And I miss her every day. This post was originally made at Dreamwidth. To reply at Dreamwidth, click here. To view the entry's
comments, click here.