interesting weekend
so i went home this weekend, right after my thursday class. it was interesting.
first i hung out with christine as soon as i got into town. we went on a couple of errands and ended up making our men oreo pies at my mom's house.
friday i just kinda lay low during the majority of the day. i visited my grandmother that morning but then returned to the appartment. krysti and i were supposed to hang out at some point but when i called her she wasn't feeling well so we gave it some more time. we both ended up passing out for a bit and she called me later to come over. we watched the movie "cold mountain" and made horrible jokes about it. i swear we can't watch ANY movies together w/o cracking ourselves up! especially "lord of the rings" - ANY one of them! ("frodo..." "sam...." "frodo.... kiss me you fool!") always a blast.
saturday beth and i were SUPPOSED to hang out but apparently she forgot about her brother's cookout/birthday thing. (how can you forget a family member's birthday?) oh well, somehow i could sense the night i told her i was coming down that something would get in the way. so i did some errands (food for tom) and visited eliot who bought me dinner and "threatened the homeless with narrative violence" as a friend put it. i'm starting to conclude that the man just can't be trusted.
and today i went to see mark at the flower shop. we talked and enjoyed the breeze. it was good to see and talk to him again, just us. then i went to hang out with patrick to get a bite to eat somewhere NOT associated with THAT neighborhood. while we were there we talked about personal stories and clove cigarettes. somehow i managed to attract 2 people who were inquiring about them. and we had a nice talk with some stranger named frank who enjoyed hearing me blabber on about art therapy and photography. he was a funny man. and talking with patrick made me feel better.
i went to say goodbye to my grandmother to let her know i would be leaving town. my cousin jim and his family were there. my grandma teased me about the nose piercing but in a humorous way. jim said something smart and i told him i owed him for all the crap he did to me growing up. he immediately said, "no you don't - we're cool now. everything now is NEW." i challenged him, but he held to it that he had no beef with me or desire to unleash his famous sarcastic/hurtful comments. i told him "good, b/c i've only wanted that (being treated as an EQUAL) for several years now but noooo, i had to wait until myra (his wife) got in the picture to be my backup." i'm hoping things will truly change now. he was mean to me when i was a kid and dang it, it's hard being the youngest grandchild with all these cousins an average of 15 years older than you. (my mom was born quite later than the rest of her siblings so since she was way behind age-wise, so am i.) and jim gave me a hard time for whatever reason. even at christmas a few years ago he made some sort of hurtful comment to me in front of the rest of the family. all i wanted was to feel like i belonged, treated equally by the rest of the cousins. i'm not denying that they have massive life experience over me and that i may be ignorant/naive about some things due to the fact that i didn't grow up when they did or experience the same things too but at the same time, they don't know what it was like for ME. it's just too bad that we couldn't be a real family and be supportive and loving towards each other. it would have been nice to have had a real relationship with them to learn from them, especially since i didn't have any siblings. well, no one can change the past but it would be so meaningful to me if there were alliances in the future.
i got on the road around 6:45. on my way up to columbus i stopped at a dairy queen to get some food; it was about 7:45 and i figured i should eat. i got in line for the drive thru (which took a REALLY long time) and kept trying to avoid getting stared at by this complete STRANGER in front of me who was keeping an eye on me in his side view mirror. i smiled to be nice. then when it was my turn to pick up food at the window the kid working told me that the guy in front of me had already paid for it. sweet jesus. but hey, it was a nice gesture and the guy didn't follow me or anything so that's cool. it was a sweet thing to do and me not having to break that $20 yet makes me happy!
first i hung out with christine as soon as i got into town. we went on a couple of errands and ended up making our men oreo pies at my mom's house.
friday i just kinda lay low during the majority of the day. i visited my grandmother that morning but then returned to the appartment. krysti and i were supposed to hang out at some point but when i called her she wasn't feeling well so we gave it some more time. we both ended up passing out for a bit and she called me later to come over. we watched the movie "cold mountain" and made horrible jokes about it. i swear we can't watch ANY movies together w/o cracking ourselves up! especially "lord of the rings" - ANY one of them! ("frodo..." "sam...." "frodo.... kiss me you fool!") always a blast.
saturday beth and i were SUPPOSED to hang out but apparently she forgot about her brother's cookout/birthday thing. (how can you forget a family member's birthday?) oh well, somehow i could sense the night i told her i was coming down that something would get in the way. so i did some errands (food for tom) and visited eliot who bought me dinner and "threatened the homeless with narrative violence" as a friend put it. i'm starting to conclude that the man just can't be trusted.
and today i went to see mark at the flower shop. we talked and enjoyed the breeze. it was good to see and talk to him again, just us. then i went to hang out with patrick to get a bite to eat somewhere NOT associated with THAT neighborhood. while we were there we talked about personal stories and clove cigarettes. somehow i managed to attract 2 people who were inquiring about them. and we had a nice talk with some stranger named frank who enjoyed hearing me blabber on about art therapy and photography. he was a funny man. and talking with patrick made me feel better.
i went to say goodbye to my grandmother to let her know i would be leaving town. my cousin jim and his family were there. my grandma teased me about the nose piercing but in a humorous way. jim said something smart and i told him i owed him for all the crap he did to me growing up. he immediately said, "no you don't - we're cool now. everything now is NEW." i challenged him, but he held to it that he had no beef with me or desire to unleash his famous sarcastic/hurtful comments. i told him "good, b/c i've only wanted that (being treated as an EQUAL) for several years now but noooo, i had to wait until myra (his wife) got in the picture to be my backup." i'm hoping things will truly change now. he was mean to me when i was a kid and dang it, it's hard being the youngest grandchild with all these cousins an average of 15 years older than you. (my mom was born quite later than the rest of her siblings so since she was way behind age-wise, so am i.) and jim gave me a hard time for whatever reason. even at christmas a few years ago he made some sort of hurtful comment to me in front of the rest of the family. all i wanted was to feel like i belonged, treated equally by the rest of the cousins. i'm not denying that they have massive life experience over me and that i may be ignorant/naive about some things due to the fact that i didn't grow up when they did or experience the same things too but at the same time, they don't know what it was like for ME. it's just too bad that we couldn't be a real family and be supportive and loving towards each other. it would have been nice to have had a real relationship with them to learn from them, especially since i didn't have any siblings. well, no one can change the past but it would be so meaningful to me if there were alliances in the future.
i got on the road around 6:45. on my way up to columbus i stopped at a dairy queen to get some food; it was about 7:45 and i figured i should eat. i got in line for the drive thru (which took a REALLY long time) and kept trying to avoid getting stared at by this complete STRANGER in front of me who was keeping an eye on me in his side view mirror. i smiled to be nice. then when it was my turn to pick up food at the window the kid working told me that the guy in front of me had already paid for it. sweet jesus. but hey, it was a nice gesture and the guy didn't follow me or anything so that's cool. it was a sweet thing to do and me not having to break that $20 yet makes me happy!