We are heading up to the cottage tonight. I have been looking forward to it... kind of. Every time I feel happy about going to the cottage, I think of Maddie, and how we would not be going if she were still alive. I would much rather be with my Moodle.
This will be the first time we've been to the cottage without her since she first came to stay with us. I know I will be hurting badly whenever I look at her favourite couch and she's not on it :(
We will be taking our rose plant that
purplemer3 &
drowninginwords left for us on our porch when we returned home from her final vet appointment, and planting it in her honour.
Here she is enjoying the dock, just last year:
I really miss her and keep randomly crying. Huge hole in our hearts and our home.