i don't remember if
Over time quaint, our paths have parted
Limit our life to utmost fancy
Unspoken diversions, our eyes darted
Our lives taken without discrepancy
Games we played, touch and go, daring; chancy
At one time we were together as one
When we talk, in your eyes only vacancy
We thought a world premature done
The light and joy faded to shallow dun
No more talks, no lies, or regretful sighs
Moved on alone, behind by setting sun
Afterwards, perhaps, left all the more wise
But so long as our eyes will meet in pass
Our fainted friendship will at distance last.
pellucid - transparent as in meaning
knout - leather strap used for flogging
kent - mind
when you have time. when i have time. we'll delve into my damage. as self-possessed as you think i may not be.
get out of your skin. climb out of your box of bones.
I had a dream you resented me. it was awkward at best. we sat and chatted- I think In a coffee shop. it was simply to pass the time. afore you’d go back to your motel room, and I to mine. so we sat, and I sipped my cocoa, and you your orange juice. for neither of us ever drank coffee. we talked in simple voices of how silly we used to be. I feigned to check the time. I asked if you got my letter. you said quietly you had. I hate talking to one who’s pain you can see in their eyes. but still, they refuse to smile. awkward silence. I buy a book-to save some time. and say that I must leave. ‘he’ll be upset’ I lie.
I miss you. in a hollow way.
no. 16 is just not enough.
for simplicity to take hold of soul
this town is fucking sane, and I can’t take it.
skim through damp decades; swallow your tongue whole. contemplating languid sorrow-
wise
the grace of every thread every ligament; vein
strand shadow grey
still fastened closer to hate than love
past playgrounds past chases
nearer to insanity than thought
to where the helper laughed
but past that
driven by the sound of rain evaporating
those gone before me just across the way
through the broken fence
past those who never loved before
security passes but only in negligence does he turn in head
cholera dress anew - a suckling
with but little time romance
raining as pomegranate seeds
tickling hell’s only angel
you are rock not to be broken
but the fissures are showing
how can you hide behind a wall
how? when the little you don’t know you refuse to learn.
refuse to let it throw you; to let it come near
for then you may know. and the knowledge
might hurt
it may be more than you bargained for. just the same;
the buses frequent often, my friend. I remind you.
don’t stay out too late.
dance for me, childe, do a little dance
just a kiss, only a kiss
a touch only a touch.
just a little further
you may think yourself stranger. for fleeing?
no, dear, that looks worse than losing self preservation. (not forward)
and berries grow on bushes and cherries in trees
stealthily.
Close your eyes so can’t see what’s coming your direction
here. I got this for you:
a blank stare from sullen eyes.
well. there you have it.