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i've been really happy the last couple of days...i mean really seriously i don't deserve this kind of happy...it's because of tim...he makes me feel that way...he says all the right things and does all the right things and is so sweet and so wonderful and is everything i've ever wanted in a person...and i can't believe i am this lucky...but yesterday it all turned to shit...craig started calling again...well actually first he text me...LIKE 14 TIMES!..."i miss you" "thinking about you" "where are you"...it just kept going...i ignored and ignored because i still haven't figured out how to tell him...and i was feeling really guilty because i know it will hurt him and as much pain as he's put me through i still can't hurt him...but last night he called me twice at 3:45 in the morning...i didn't answer and his message was "you haven't responded in days...i'm worried...let me know you're ok"...now i feel REALLY guilty....we need to have a talk!...i need to stop letting him hurt me and stop letting him take the happiness away...i need to walk away from him...it's going to be really really hard....but i need to do it.