I'm much obliged to up and go...
If I were a more eloquent person and didn't suffer from l'esprit d'escalier I would have told you tonight, after all was said and done (mostly done), that I've finally had it. I'm tired of being the constant giver when we hook up. It's always about what I can give to you and you making up some bullshit excuse if I dare expect anything in return. This isn't healthy and my half ass attempt at trying to explain this to you tonight went right over your head. I'm starting to despise you and honestly feel so digusted with myself that I can't stand it. Agreeing to do this again was a mistake. It will never be like it was during school. I'm done. Goddamn you. Go choke on it.