phobophobia
"..that he had been badly, sickeningly frightened all the time. in this way he lost everything."
-ernest hemingway "the soldiers home"
fear is a rather crippling thing. the tricky thing about fear is it doesn't always manifest itself in that panicy irrational manor. it's not always the hebejebees. it's not always a spider on the wall, or death looming around the corner. sometimes fear is just when you no longer feel like moving, and that's what scares me the most