Sensual Red Lights- fan fiction- gazette/ alice nine/ d'espairsray-11/12
Title: Sensual Red Lights
author: Me..? Sarcasm_chan
warning: well, ...yaoi and vulgar language sometimes... english is not my mother-tongue..not beta-read
pairings: ShouxHiroto, SagaxShou, UruhaxReita, ReitaxUruha, RukixUruha, AoixUruha (beware of the one-sided ones)
disclaimers: unfortunately, their manager didn't want to sell them to me ;_; the meanie wants them for his own use -_-; so, i don't own them....
rating: - dunno NC17 is a bit overdone I think???
genre: manxman (a lot), drama
Summary:
Uruha is a porn-star in the yaoi scene, his biggest rival is Ruki.
previous: ( 01 )( 02 )( 03 )( 04 )( 05 )( 06 )( 07 )( 08 )( 09 )( 10 )
11
“I don’t think it is possible.”
”Why not?” Aoi says begging. “Why can’t it be possible? Why shouldn’t we be together?”
Uruha looks up at him.
”Because…Because I am a whore.”
”What do you mean? I know you are a whore…But that doesn’t keep me from loving you!”
”You don’t get it at all…” Uruha slowly says.
”But you also don’t explain it to me! Please, explain! I beg you…Why? Tell me why!?” Aoi takes Uruha at his arm, they’re sitting in a car, Uruha in the passenger-seat, Aoi behind the steer.
”…We just can’t.” Uruha says decisive, he wants to open the door of the car, but Aoi stops him by pulling him back at his arm.
Aoi grabs Uruha’s face with his free hand, and brings his own face very close to Uruha’s.
”But I love you.” He says. “And I won’t let you walk away with my love as you walk away with my money.”
”It is your decision to spend your money on me. And also your decision to spend your love on me.” Uruha says, his voice starts sounding angry. “I can’t help that…”
”Stop acting like there’s nothing between us!” Aoi shouts. “Stop acting like I am not special to you! You know that I am! You know that you feel different emotions for me than for other customers.”
Uruha blinks with his eyes. “Tsukasa-san-“
”No shut up! Do you think it is easy for me? Do you think that I don’t suffer for this? I cheated on my wife, with a whore! But you changed me. And I-…I can’t live without you anymore, I-“
But Uruha pushed his lips against Aoi’s mouth; he didn’t let him end his sentence.
Aoi recovers from his surprise, and starts kissing back, he enjoys Uruha’s taste…He enjoys the touch and the scent of the other man.
Uruha moves his hands up and down Aoi’s chest and belly, he pushes Aoi under him, lying over the front seats of the car.
Aoi softly moans as Uruha kisses him in the neck while untying Aoi’s belt and zips down his pants.
Aoi rips off Uruha’s blouse, and kisses his naked chest.
”Tsukasa-san,” Uruha gasps in Aoi’s ear. “Show me how much you love me…Please!”
And Aoi pushes Uruha off him, and now sits on top of him instead. He rubs his upper-body with one hand, while touching his crotch with the other.
Uruha softly moans and bites Aoi in the ear.
Then Aoi turns Uruha around while gasping and moaning in his ear.
”Show me Tsukasa! SHOW ME!” Uruha moans louder, as Aoi enters him.
The car moves up and down in the rhythm, both men moan and gasp.
Aoi feels how the pleasure overwhelms him, how everything starts dazzling and turning, and all he can think about, is giving Uruha the best he can give.
Aoi licks Uruha’s neck, bites in it. Moans in his ear and kisses and touches his upper-body.
And then the orgasm comes…
The explosion takes over Aoi’s body and mind, and he moans like he never did before…
And then it’s over.
”I love you too Tsukasa…”
”CUT!” Kai shouts. “WE’RE DONE! WELL DONE! WELL DONE EVERYONE!”
The last shooting. The last scene.
Kai’s master-piece, is finished.
Uruha’s biggest and most tiring part, has ended. He did it.
He made it till the end of the movie…It was over now.
Uruha doesn’t look up as he walks away from the set, he already put some clothes on.
”Oi!” he hears a voice behind him, and Uruha turns around. He is tired…He is so tired, all he wants now is to take a shower and listen to Karyu’s rant about how fantastic he is, then shake hands with Kai, call Shou and then…
Then he’ll meet Him.
Then Reita will be waiting for him in that café.
But now someone else seems to want to hold a conversation…
Aoi smiles at him. “We’re finished.”
”We are.” Uruha agrees.
”It went fast eh?”
”Yes, yes it did.”
Aoi grins. “It was nice working with you.”
”Thank you.” Uruha softly says.
”I hope we’ll meet another time…Perhaps I can tend you to have a drink with me after this?”
Uruha looks surprised. “Eh…” He stutters. “I eh, I can’t.”
”Aw. Too bad. Maybe some other time then, ne?” Aoi smiles. “But may I ask you, why can’t you?”
”I eh, I have an appointment.” Uruha answers, he feels a bit uncomfortable for some reason.
”Ah! A date?” Aoi says teasing.
”Ye- eh no. No not a date. Just a meeting.”
”Well, bummer.” Aoi shrugs. “But we’ll meet again, I am sure.”
He puts his hand in the air as a sign of farewell, and walks away.
Uruha sighs.
He has no idea why, but Aoi confuses him. He always did.
There’s something about him that…Makes Uruha feel weird.
But he just can’t say what it is.
While thinking about Aoi, Uruha walked to his dresser-room, but when he arrived there, he got surprised by a person waiting in front of the door.
”Shou! I expected you to call me later, not to pay me a visit…” Uruha says surprised.
Shou smiles. “I wanted to congratulate you in person, and I have some, eh, business to handle here.”
Uruha notices Shou seems a bit nervous, but he is quite sure Shou won’t want to talk to him now anyway.
Uruha knows Shou is worried about him, and Shou is the kind of friend that doesn’t want to bother him with his own problems, when he thinks Uruha is more in trouble than he is.
”So,” Shou continues, and his smile grows bigger and now is more convincing. “CONGRATULATIONS!”
Uruha grins. “Thank you…I am happy it’s finally over.”
Shou slowly nods. “You look tired Uru.”
”I am tired.” Uruha sighs. “Very tired.”
”Then I shall tell you: Karyu has some great news for you Uru-kun.” Shou smiles. “I am now spoiling a surprise, but I don’t think you can handle surprises at the moment.”
Uruha smiles. No…It wouldn’t have been a surprise.
He saw it coming.
He knew it would happen.
The way Karyu acted towards him lately, the way Kai grinned sometimes, and how they kept on telling him “ he delivered unforgettable work”.
Uruha isn’t stupid.
He made it.
He can get out of here. This was his last part in this scene.
From this day on, Uruha won’t be a porn-star anymore.
He actually made it…To get out of this world.
Shou sees how the expression on his friend’s face changes; he really looks relieved now…Happy.
Things in his life, are finally going well.
Finally going, the way he deserves.
And Shou doesn’t know why, but he suddenly holds Uruha in a hug.
And even if it surprised Uruha, he doesn’t show it, and just hugs back.
For a few seconds they stand like this.
No talking, there’s no need for words now.
It is their way of telling each other, how much they thank, need and care for each other.
But it’s not their style to say that in words.
Why should they? If they can show it this way. It’s what they are friends for. To understand each other, even without words to explain themselves.
”…This is a very interesting picture.” An amused voice says.
Both men are shocked and let each other go very quickly. Both, Shou and Uruha look a bit caught at their manager.
Karyu wasn’t supposed to be a witness of their moment of emotional expression.
”I knew I had to make you two work together.” Karyu says grinning, while shaking his head. “But now I don’t think I’ll have that chance anymore.
Shou, I know you and Uruha were just having a great time together-“
”IT WAS JUST A HU-“ Both actors shout indignant, but Karyu holds up his hand and interrupts them.
”-But I am afraid I’ll have to ask you to leave.” Karyu continues undisturbed. “I have to discuss something with our Star.”
Shou nods. “It doesn’t matter, I have something to do anyway.” Then he looks at Uruha and grins. “Congratulations eh? I’ll speak you later! Good luck by the way.”
”Good luck with what?” Uruha asks surprised.
”Your you-know-what with you-know-who!” Shou grins. “Bye. Wish me luck too.”
”Eh…ok.” Uruha says confused. “Why do you need luck?”
”I’ll tell you later.” Shou says, while walking away.
And Uruha can guess who is involved in Shou’s “business”.
Saga walks into his dresser-room. He had some shootings today, but his mind was somewhere else.
He can’t even tell what he feels right now. He never felt this way before…
Hurt, broken…desperate.
Several words to describe his emotional status.
But he knows, that he won’t get over Shou in the nearby future. Not in the further future either, probably.
He fell harder than he thought.
Harder than he realized.
Deeper than he ever fell before.
Why was he so stupid to let Shou go?
But there also is…his anger towards him.
He can’t forget all the pain Shou caused him in the passed months.
And the pain he caused him a few years ago, though that wasn’t really Shou’s fault.
Shou was the guy that made Saga realize he fancied boys too…And that was very painful for Saga. Cause he didn’t want to.
He didn’t want to face the fact he fancied a boy. So he rejected Shou when he kissed him.
Saga ran away from him.
Like Saga did a few days ago, when he saw Shou and Hiroto kiss…
And that memory almost makes him cry again.
Shou also is the first person that managed making Saga cry real tears…
Therefore, Saga always was able to only cry them on the inside, not to show them on the outside…
Shou made him cry tears filled with pain. And Saga hates him for that.
But he loves him more than he ever loved someone else…
He wants him more than he ever wanted someone.
He needs him harder than he ever needed someone.
But he has no idea…How to make that clear… How to tell it to Shou.
How to show it.
Also, because Shou doesn’t feel that way, obviously.
He has others to love, want and need.
’He won’t ever come back to me…’ Saga thinks. As he comes out of the shower. ‘Especially, since I never really had him.’ But a part of Saga, just doesn’t want to feel anything for Shou…
Saga opens the door of his dresser-room and wants to leave.
But as he opens it…he sees that someone stands against the wall across the door.
His arms are crossed, he stares at his feet, but not in a shy way.
He has this dark look, as if he is up to something…
And Saga froze in the doorstep as he saw him.
”S-Shou?” He asks unbelieving.
No reaction from the man in front of him, but Saga just knows it is him.
”What the hell are you doing here?” Saga says, his voice sounds cold. “Didn’t I tell you I do not ca-“
”SHUT UP!” Shou suddenly shouts. He finally looks up, the expression on his face is calm, though…dangerous.
Saga heads back, overwhelmed by the surprise of Shou shouting at him.
”Wh-what?”
”I said, SHUT UP!” Shou says, and he walks away from the wall, into Saga’s direction.
Saga heads back, further and further into his dresser-room, until his back is pushed against the wall.
He can’t escape from Shou anymore…
Shou comes very close to Saga, and grabs him at his collar.
”For months,” He softly says, his voice is drenched in anger. “For months you told me you don’t care a fuck about me.”
”I also don-“
”SHUT UP! I am talking!” Shou shouts, then he takes a breath and continues:
”You always told me we were nothing more than friends, and lately we are even less than that.
But it was YOU that contacted me again. It was YOU that ran away crying while seeing me kissing another man, it was YOU that always got angry.
And I know I hurt you, but what do you think you did to me?
I know you care Saga.
I know you do.”
And before Saga can open his mouth, Shou suddenly kisses him on it.
A rough kiss, though passionate.
Saga never felt like this before…His heart is beating, his body is screaming, his mind is messed up…
He tastes Shou, he feels Shou.
He feels how Shou pushes him harder against the wall, how Shou’s hand rubs through his hair, and how Shou’s other hand holds his thin shoulder and squeezes in it.
And it feels so…fantastic.
Saga was surprised for a few seconds, but now he realizes what Shou is doing…
And Saga doesn’t stop him. The opposite.
Saga kisses back, places his hand in Shou’s neck, and his arm around Shou’s waist, his other hand squeezing his hip.
He tries to push Shou against the wall, instead of himself being pushed against it, he manages to turn Shou around, but he struggles to get Saga back against the wall. But Saga wins, and Shou feels how he is stuck between a wall and Saga’s body.
Shou lets his hand slide from Saga’s shoulder, amongst his back to the area of Saga’s ass.
He was so afraid of doing this, he was scared for Saga’s reaction…
But at the other hand: He was sure. He was sure of Saga’s feelings, ever since he saw him cry.
And now, Shou’s feelings are finally answered.
Shou softly squeezes in Saga’s ass, their kiss wasn’t interrupted from the start, and they aren’t planning on interrupting it.
Saga pushes his leg between Shou’s legs, and pulls Shou’s head a bit down at his hair.
He touches Shou’s ass the same way as Shou touches his.
And they both know they won’t spend their evening alone.
“Uruha.” Karyu smiles as he finished his talk. “You made it.”
Uruha is smiling as well, he feels a bit less tired already.
It is lying in front of him, on the small table in front of the comfortable couch in his dresser-room.
The contract.
The contract with a big movie studio. A studio that produces normal movies. Good movies.
Movies that have nothing to do with porn.
Uruha can’t believe it, even though he saw it coming.
His dream really has come true…
”I am very proud of you.” Karyu smiles. “So, so proud. In all those years we’ve worked together, I really saw you grow.
And for a moment I really was afraid you changed into an arrogant star, like so many others did before you, but you stayed at your ideals. And that’s why you made it.
I really am proud. And thankful, cause partial, I made it too.”
Uruha looks up at his manager. He sees Karyu as a special person. He is the one that practically saved his life.
”Karyu-sama,” Uruha softly says. “Thank you so much.”
”Don’t even DARE to thank me!” Karyu laughs. “Plus: I have to thank you, thanks to this contract, I can finally quit.
Do you know what that means?
You released me and Shou as well.”
Uruha blinks with his eyes.
”Yes, you did.” Karyu smiles. “Cause since I can quite in this scene now, my contract with Shou isn’t continuing. Shou is free to leave if he wants to.
And even Kai has profit in this. He is contracted too, you know; His newest script is accepted by the same company as you are contracted to now.
And in this scene; Sensual Red Lights will make history. I am sure.”
Karyu puts a hand on Uruha’s shoulder.
”Thank you, Uruha. We’ll see each other soon, I’ll give you a call. As always. And though, it will be completely different than those other times.”
Uruha can only grin widely.
Ruki walks into his dresser-room, he stares at the small packet he found in front of his door.
”RUKI” it says in messy signs.
‘What the hell is this?’ Ruki thinks as he opens it, and a CD falls out of it.
A letter is taped on the cover of it.
”Watch this. It is a DVD.
It will show you how trustable Love can be, and how sweet Enemies are.
Do Never Believe Their Promises.
You fool.
Signed: AnOnI.mouS.”
”What a moron, for spelling anonymous wrong…” Ruki softly mumbles.
This probably is crap, it is rubbish, a joke maybe.
But though…
Trustable Love…
Sweet Enemy…
For some reason, Ruki feels weird reading those words…
He opens the small box, hesitates…But then walks to his DVD-player and places the disc in it.
The TV shows him…
Reita.
Reita who is just waiting in the studio...And the set, is the one of today’s shootings. This was recorded today!
But then, Uruha walks to him, and Reita stands up. The expression on his face seems so happy…
And Uruha seems very glad to see him.
They start a conversation, they’re talking softly, but Ruki can hear it:
”Hey, I am glad to see you.” Uruha softly says, smiling. “I was wondering…How late do you want to-?”
”Oh eh…No idea. Whenever you have time…If you don’t, I understand. I know you’re busy and-“ Reita says hesitating, he seems a bit uncomfortable.
Uruha smiles. “No! No it’s no problem, I really want to meet, you know. To talk.”
Reita slowly nods.
”But eh…” Uruha continues. “Can you wait till I am done here? Then I can come to you if you want to, instead of you coming to my place.”
”Eh-“ Reita says fast. “What about meeting in a café? That new one, the coffee-house…Do you know it?”
”Yes, yes I do. That’s okay! Cool! I’ll be done around 5, I promise.”
”It’s okay. I’ll wait there. No problem.” Reita smiles.
Then Uruha, softly and a bit shy, with shining eyes, says: “See you then.”
The DVD stopped.
Ruki stares at his television without realising time…
He feels how all the anger he has inside him, takes his mind over.
And all he can think about is: Stop Reita. And Stop him for good.
Ruki looks at his watch, it’s half past 4…
But he knows, Reita is still around here.
And he also knows where to find him. Where to stop him.
”I won’t have mercy with you now…” Ruki says, as he stands up from the couch.
Uruha walks into the café, he hurried, but Karyu’s talk took a longer time than expected.
It is 5 past 5.
’I am late!’ Uruha thinks. ‘Stupid, stupid me…’
He looks around the coffee house…
But- Where is Reita?
’Maybe he is late too…’ Uruha thinks. As he sits down in a seat next to the window.
The rain is pouring down on the streets…
It now is almost 6 o’clock…And Reita still isn’t there.
Uruha ordered four cups of coffee, left a message in Reita’s voicemail…
But he now knows for sure: He won’t come.
’He forgot about me…
Or he never wanted to know me.
Or I scared him! Maybe he only wanted to be friends, and I was too obvious with my intentions…Or maybe something happened!
No…No nothing has happened.
What could happen?
No…
He just didn’t come.
And he won’t come either.’Precisely when Uruha thinks that, the door of the café opens, and a young man enters.
Uruha looked up hopefully…
But the person that has entered isn’t Reita.
Though, it is someone Uruha knows…
Aoi walks to his table and smiles. “Hey! That’s coincidental…”
”Yeah…It is.” Uruha adds a watery smile.
”I came to shelter for the rain…It’s horrible isn’t it?”
Aoi indeed is completely soaked, but despite that, he still looks good.
”…Am I disturbing in your appointment?” He asks then, looking around if he sees another person.
”No, no.” Uruha softly says. “I am alone…”
”Oh…Mind if I keep you company then?” Aoi asks friendly, his eyes are shining, his smile is flirty.
Uruha looks through the window one more time, then at his watch.
Reita is more than one and half an hour too late.
”Yes, you can sit down.” Uruha says then, and he smiles at Aoi.
note: I know I said this was going to be the last chapter, but it was just getting too long X3;; and with school and my job I also don't have much free-time left, so it can take a while before the last chapter will be posted
author: Me..? Sarcasm_chan
warning: well, ...yaoi and vulgar language sometimes... english is not my mother-tongue..not beta-read
pairings: ShouxHiroto, SagaxShou, UruhaxReita, ReitaxUruha, RukixUruha, AoixUruha (beware of the one-sided ones)
disclaimers: unfortunately, their manager didn't want to sell them to me ;_; the meanie wants them for his own use -_-; so, i don't own them....
rating: - dunno NC17 is a bit overdone I think???
genre: manxman (a lot), drama
Summary:
Uruha is a porn-star in the yaoi scene, his biggest rival is Ruki.
previous: ( 01 )( 02 )( 03 )( 04 )( 05 )( 06 )( 07 )( 08 )( 09 )( 10 )
11
“I don’t think it is possible.”
”Why not?” Aoi says begging. “Why can’t it be possible? Why shouldn’t we be together?”
Uruha looks up at him.
”Because…Because I am a whore.”
”What do you mean? I know you are a whore…But that doesn’t keep me from loving you!”
”You don’t get it at all…” Uruha slowly says.
”But you also don’t explain it to me! Please, explain! I beg you…Why? Tell me why!?” Aoi takes Uruha at his arm, they’re sitting in a car, Uruha in the passenger-seat, Aoi behind the steer.
”…We just can’t.” Uruha says decisive, he wants to open the door of the car, but Aoi stops him by pulling him back at his arm.
Aoi grabs Uruha’s face with his free hand, and brings his own face very close to Uruha’s.
”But I love you.” He says. “And I won’t let you walk away with my love as you walk away with my money.”
”It is your decision to spend your money on me. And also your decision to spend your love on me.” Uruha says, his voice starts sounding angry. “I can’t help that…”
”Stop acting like there’s nothing between us!” Aoi shouts. “Stop acting like I am not special to you! You know that I am! You know that you feel different emotions for me than for other customers.”
Uruha blinks with his eyes. “Tsukasa-san-“
”No shut up! Do you think it is easy for me? Do you think that I don’t suffer for this? I cheated on my wife, with a whore! But you changed me. And I-…I can’t live without you anymore, I-“
But Uruha pushed his lips against Aoi’s mouth; he didn’t let him end his sentence.
Aoi recovers from his surprise, and starts kissing back, he enjoys Uruha’s taste…He enjoys the touch and the scent of the other man.
Uruha moves his hands up and down Aoi’s chest and belly, he pushes Aoi under him, lying over the front seats of the car.
Aoi softly moans as Uruha kisses him in the neck while untying Aoi’s belt and zips down his pants.
Aoi rips off Uruha’s blouse, and kisses his naked chest.
”Tsukasa-san,” Uruha gasps in Aoi’s ear. “Show me how much you love me…Please!”
And Aoi pushes Uruha off him, and now sits on top of him instead. He rubs his upper-body with one hand, while touching his crotch with the other.
Uruha softly moans and bites Aoi in the ear.
Then Aoi turns Uruha around while gasping and moaning in his ear.
”Show me Tsukasa! SHOW ME!” Uruha moans louder, as Aoi enters him.
The car moves up and down in the rhythm, both men moan and gasp.
Aoi feels how the pleasure overwhelms him, how everything starts dazzling and turning, and all he can think about, is giving Uruha the best he can give.
Aoi licks Uruha’s neck, bites in it. Moans in his ear and kisses and touches his upper-body.
And then the orgasm comes…
The explosion takes over Aoi’s body and mind, and he moans like he never did before…
And then it’s over.
”I love you too Tsukasa…”
”CUT!” Kai shouts. “WE’RE DONE! WELL DONE! WELL DONE EVERYONE!”
The last shooting. The last scene.
Kai’s master-piece, is finished.
Uruha’s biggest and most tiring part, has ended. He did it.
He made it till the end of the movie…It was over now.
Uruha doesn’t look up as he walks away from the set, he already put some clothes on.
”Oi!” he hears a voice behind him, and Uruha turns around. He is tired…He is so tired, all he wants now is to take a shower and listen to Karyu’s rant about how fantastic he is, then shake hands with Kai, call Shou and then…
Then he’ll meet Him.
Then Reita will be waiting for him in that café.
But now someone else seems to want to hold a conversation…
Aoi smiles at him. “We’re finished.”
”We are.” Uruha agrees.
”It went fast eh?”
”Yes, yes it did.”
Aoi grins. “It was nice working with you.”
”Thank you.” Uruha softly says.
”I hope we’ll meet another time…Perhaps I can tend you to have a drink with me after this?”
Uruha looks surprised. “Eh…” He stutters. “I eh, I can’t.”
”Aw. Too bad. Maybe some other time then, ne?” Aoi smiles. “But may I ask you, why can’t you?”
”I eh, I have an appointment.” Uruha answers, he feels a bit uncomfortable for some reason.
”Ah! A date?” Aoi says teasing.
”Ye- eh no. No not a date. Just a meeting.”
”Well, bummer.” Aoi shrugs. “But we’ll meet again, I am sure.”
He puts his hand in the air as a sign of farewell, and walks away.
Uruha sighs.
He has no idea why, but Aoi confuses him. He always did.
There’s something about him that…Makes Uruha feel weird.
But he just can’t say what it is.
While thinking about Aoi, Uruha walked to his dresser-room, but when he arrived there, he got surprised by a person waiting in front of the door.
”Shou! I expected you to call me later, not to pay me a visit…” Uruha says surprised.
Shou smiles. “I wanted to congratulate you in person, and I have some, eh, business to handle here.”
Uruha notices Shou seems a bit nervous, but he is quite sure Shou won’t want to talk to him now anyway.
Uruha knows Shou is worried about him, and Shou is the kind of friend that doesn’t want to bother him with his own problems, when he thinks Uruha is more in trouble than he is.
”So,” Shou continues, and his smile grows bigger and now is more convincing. “CONGRATULATIONS!”
Uruha grins. “Thank you…I am happy it’s finally over.”
Shou slowly nods. “You look tired Uru.”
”I am tired.” Uruha sighs. “Very tired.”
”Then I shall tell you: Karyu has some great news for you Uru-kun.” Shou smiles. “I am now spoiling a surprise, but I don’t think you can handle surprises at the moment.”
Uruha smiles. No…It wouldn’t have been a surprise.
He saw it coming.
He knew it would happen.
The way Karyu acted towards him lately, the way Kai grinned sometimes, and how they kept on telling him “ he delivered unforgettable work”.
Uruha isn’t stupid.
He made it.
He can get out of here. This was his last part in this scene.
From this day on, Uruha won’t be a porn-star anymore.
He actually made it…To get out of this world.
Shou sees how the expression on his friend’s face changes; he really looks relieved now…Happy.
Things in his life, are finally going well.
Finally going, the way he deserves.
And Shou doesn’t know why, but he suddenly holds Uruha in a hug.
And even if it surprised Uruha, he doesn’t show it, and just hugs back.
For a few seconds they stand like this.
No talking, there’s no need for words now.
It is their way of telling each other, how much they thank, need and care for each other.
But it’s not their style to say that in words.
Why should they? If they can show it this way. It’s what they are friends for. To understand each other, even without words to explain themselves.
”…This is a very interesting picture.” An amused voice says.
Both men are shocked and let each other go very quickly. Both, Shou and Uruha look a bit caught at their manager.
Karyu wasn’t supposed to be a witness of their moment of emotional expression.
”I knew I had to make you two work together.” Karyu says grinning, while shaking his head. “But now I don’t think I’ll have that chance anymore.
Shou, I know you and Uruha were just having a great time together-“
”IT WAS JUST A HU-“ Both actors shout indignant, but Karyu holds up his hand and interrupts them.
”-But I am afraid I’ll have to ask you to leave.” Karyu continues undisturbed. “I have to discuss something with our Star.”
Shou nods. “It doesn’t matter, I have something to do anyway.” Then he looks at Uruha and grins. “Congratulations eh? I’ll speak you later! Good luck by the way.”
”Good luck with what?” Uruha asks surprised.
”Your you-know-what with you-know-who!” Shou grins. “Bye. Wish me luck too.”
”Eh…ok.” Uruha says confused. “Why do you need luck?”
”I’ll tell you later.” Shou says, while walking away.
And Uruha can guess who is involved in Shou’s “business”.
Saga walks into his dresser-room. He had some shootings today, but his mind was somewhere else.
He can’t even tell what he feels right now. He never felt this way before…
Hurt, broken…desperate.
Several words to describe his emotional status.
But he knows, that he won’t get over Shou in the nearby future. Not in the further future either, probably.
He fell harder than he thought.
Harder than he realized.
Deeper than he ever fell before.
Why was he so stupid to let Shou go?
But there also is…his anger towards him.
He can’t forget all the pain Shou caused him in the passed months.
And the pain he caused him a few years ago, though that wasn’t really Shou’s fault.
Shou was the guy that made Saga realize he fancied boys too…And that was very painful for Saga. Cause he didn’t want to.
He didn’t want to face the fact he fancied a boy. So he rejected Shou when he kissed him.
Saga ran away from him.
Like Saga did a few days ago, when he saw Shou and Hiroto kiss…
And that memory almost makes him cry again.
Shou also is the first person that managed making Saga cry real tears…
Therefore, Saga always was able to only cry them on the inside, not to show them on the outside…
Shou made him cry tears filled with pain. And Saga hates him for that.
But he loves him more than he ever loved someone else…
He wants him more than he ever wanted someone.
He needs him harder than he ever needed someone.
But he has no idea…How to make that clear… How to tell it to Shou.
How to show it.
Also, because Shou doesn’t feel that way, obviously.
He has others to love, want and need.
’He won’t ever come back to me…’ Saga thinks. As he comes out of the shower. ‘Especially, since I never really had him.’ But a part of Saga, just doesn’t want to feel anything for Shou…
Saga opens the door of his dresser-room and wants to leave.
But as he opens it…he sees that someone stands against the wall across the door.
His arms are crossed, he stares at his feet, but not in a shy way.
He has this dark look, as if he is up to something…
And Saga froze in the doorstep as he saw him.
”S-Shou?” He asks unbelieving.
No reaction from the man in front of him, but Saga just knows it is him.
”What the hell are you doing here?” Saga says, his voice sounds cold. “Didn’t I tell you I do not ca-“
”SHUT UP!” Shou suddenly shouts. He finally looks up, the expression on his face is calm, though…dangerous.
Saga heads back, overwhelmed by the surprise of Shou shouting at him.
”Wh-what?”
”I said, SHUT UP!” Shou says, and he walks away from the wall, into Saga’s direction.
Saga heads back, further and further into his dresser-room, until his back is pushed against the wall.
He can’t escape from Shou anymore…
Shou comes very close to Saga, and grabs him at his collar.
”For months,” He softly says, his voice is drenched in anger. “For months you told me you don’t care a fuck about me.”
”I also don-“
”SHUT UP! I am talking!” Shou shouts, then he takes a breath and continues:
”You always told me we were nothing more than friends, and lately we are even less than that.
But it was YOU that contacted me again. It was YOU that ran away crying while seeing me kissing another man, it was YOU that always got angry.
And I know I hurt you, but what do you think you did to me?
I know you care Saga.
I know you do.”
And before Saga can open his mouth, Shou suddenly kisses him on it.
A rough kiss, though passionate.
Saga never felt like this before…His heart is beating, his body is screaming, his mind is messed up…
He tastes Shou, he feels Shou.
He feels how Shou pushes him harder against the wall, how Shou’s hand rubs through his hair, and how Shou’s other hand holds his thin shoulder and squeezes in it.
And it feels so…fantastic.
Saga was surprised for a few seconds, but now he realizes what Shou is doing…
And Saga doesn’t stop him. The opposite.
Saga kisses back, places his hand in Shou’s neck, and his arm around Shou’s waist, his other hand squeezing his hip.
He tries to push Shou against the wall, instead of himself being pushed against it, he manages to turn Shou around, but he struggles to get Saga back against the wall. But Saga wins, and Shou feels how he is stuck between a wall and Saga’s body.
Shou lets his hand slide from Saga’s shoulder, amongst his back to the area of Saga’s ass.
He was so afraid of doing this, he was scared for Saga’s reaction…
But at the other hand: He was sure. He was sure of Saga’s feelings, ever since he saw him cry.
And now, Shou’s feelings are finally answered.
Shou softly squeezes in Saga’s ass, their kiss wasn’t interrupted from the start, and they aren’t planning on interrupting it.
Saga pushes his leg between Shou’s legs, and pulls Shou’s head a bit down at his hair.
He touches Shou’s ass the same way as Shou touches his.
And they both know they won’t spend their evening alone.
“Uruha.” Karyu smiles as he finished his talk. “You made it.”
Uruha is smiling as well, he feels a bit less tired already.
It is lying in front of him, on the small table in front of the comfortable couch in his dresser-room.
The contract.
The contract with a big movie studio. A studio that produces normal movies. Good movies.
Movies that have nothing to do with porn.
Uruha can’t believe it, even though he saw it coming.
His dream really has come true…
”I am very proud of you.” Karyu smiles. “So, so proud. In all those years we’ve worked together, I really saw you grow.
And for a moment I really was afraid you changed into an arrogant star, like so many others did before you, but you stayed at your ideals. And that’s why you made it.
I really am proud. And thankful, cause partial, I made it too.”
Uruha looks up at his manager. He sees Karyu as a special person. He is the one that practically saved his life.
”Karyu-sama,” Uruha softly says. “Thank you so much.”
”Don’t even DARE to thank me!” Karyu laughs. “Plus: I have to thank you, thanks to this contract, I can finally quit.
Do you know what that means?
You released me and Shou as well.”
Uruha blinks with his eyes.
”Yes, you did.” Karyu smiles. “Cause since I can quite in this scene now, my contract with Shou isn’t continuing. Shou is free to leave if he wants to.
And even Kai has profit in this. He is contracted too, you know; His newest script is accepted by the same company as you are contracted to now.
And in this scene; Sensual Red Lights will make history. I am sure.”
Karyu puts a hand on Uruha’s shoulder.
”Thank you, Uruha. We’ll see each other soon, I’ll give you a call. As always. And though, it will be completely different than those other times.”
Uruha can only grin widely.
Ruki walks into his dresser-room, he stares at the small packet he found in front of his door.
”RUKI” it says in messy signs.
‘What the hell is this?’ Ruki thinks as he opens it, and a CD falls out of it.
A letter is taped on the cover of it.
”Watch this. It is a DVD.
It will show you how trustable Love can be, and how sweet Enemies are.
Do Never Believe Their Promises.
You fool.
Signed: AnOnI.mouS.”
”What a moron, for spelling anonymous wrong…” Ruki softly mumbles.
This probably is crap, it is rubbish, a joke maybe.
But though…
Trustable Love…
Sweet Enemy…
For some reason, Ruki feels weird reading those words…
He opens the small box, hesitates…But then walks to his DVD-player and places the disc in it.
The TV shows him…
Reita.
Reita who is just waiting in the studio...And the set, is the one of today’s shootings. This was recorded today!
But then, Uruha walks to him, and Reita stands up. The expression on his face seems so happy…
And Uruha seems very glad to see him.
They start a conversation, they’re talking softly, but Ruki can hear it:
”Hey, I am glad to see you.” Uruha softly says, smiling. “I was wondering…How late do you want to-?”
”Oh eh…No idea. Whenever you have time…If you don’t, I understand. I know you’re busy and-“ Reita says hesitating, he seems a bit uncomfortable.
Uruha smiles. “No! No it’s no problem, I really want to meet, you know. To talk.”
Reita slowly nods.
”But eh…” Uruha continues. “Can you wait till I am done here? Then I can come to you if you want to, instead of you coming to my place.”
”Eh-“ Reita says fast. “What about meeting in a café? That new one, the coffee-house…Do you know it?”
”Yes, yes I do. That’s okay! Cool! I’ll be done around 5, I promise.”
”It’s okay. I’ll wait there. No problem.” Reita smiles.
Then Uruha, softly and a bit shy, with shining eyes, says: “See you then.”
The DVD stopped.
Ruki stares at his television without realising time…
He feels how all the anger he has inside him, takes his mind over.
And all he can think about is: Stop Reita. And Stop him for good.
Ruki looks at his watch, it’s half past 4…
But he knows, Reita is still around here.
And he also knows where to find him. Where to stop him.
”I won’t have mercy with you now…” Ruki says, as he stands up from the couch.
Uruha walks into the café, he hurried, but Karyu’s talk took a longer time than expected.
It is 5 past 5.
’I am late!’ Uruha thinks. ‘Stupid, stupid me…’
He looks around the coffee house…
But- Where is Reita?
’Maybe he is late too…’ Uruha thinks. As he sits down in a seat next to the window.
The rain is pouring down on the streets…
It now is almost 6 o’clock…And Reita still isn’t there.
Uruha ordered four cups of coffee, left a message in Reita’s voicemail…
But he now knows for sure: He won’t come.
’He forgot about me…
Or he never wanted to know me.
Or I scared him! Maybe he only wanted to be friends, and I was too obvious with my intentions…Or maybe something happened!
No…No nothing has happened.
What could happen?
No…
He just didn’t come.
And he won’t come either.’Precisely when Uruha thinks that, the door of the café opens, and a young man enters.
Uruha looked up hopefully…
But the person that has entered isn’t Reita.
Though, it is someone Uruha knows…
Aoi walks to his table and smiles. “Hey! That’s coincidental…”
”Yeah…It is.” Uruha adds a watery smile.
”I came to shelter for the rain…It’s horrible isn’t it?”
Aoi indeed is completely soaked, but despite that, he still looks good.
”…Am I disturbing in your appointment?” He asks then, looking around if he sees another person.
”No, no.” Uruha softly says. “I am alone…”
”Oh…Mind if I keep you company then?” Aoi asks friendly, his eyes are shining, his smile is flirty.
Uruha looks through the window one more time, then at his watch.
Reita is more than one and half an hour too late.
”Yes, you can sit down.” Uruha says then, and he smiles at Aoi.
note: I know I said this was going to be the last chapter, but it was just getting too long X3;; and with school and my job I also don't have much free-time left, so it can take a while before the last chapter will be posted