Stupidity abounds
The game continues, Dana messages me today, showing me logs of her and David's conversation. All about how he does involve her in his life, and he doesn't understand why she acts the way she does. That he doesn't understand why she's afraid that he's going to treat her like he did me, when it was her fault the way he treated me. He actually told her that because he had to deal with her, he couldn't give me the aftercare I needed. I don't know how that made me feel. Like, shouldn't I be important to, more important than someone he'll never meet. I'm starting to realize, I'm never going to be good enough for him, and that I need to just give this shit up. I'm always going to be put on the back burner because he's a stupid immature child who would rather be emotionally safe than actually feel something. I don't know, this is stupid. I need to just get over it and move on with my life.
I have Dave, I should be satisfied with that. It would figure that the one time I chose to do something outside of the bounds of my marriage, outside the realm of what I should do it blows up in my face. So fuck it, I'm going back to being a bored and celibate housewife. Screw it.
I have Dave, I should be satisfied with that. It would figure that the one time I chose to do something outside of the bounds of my marriage, outside the realm of what I should do it blows up in my face. So fuck it, I'm going back to being a bored and celibate housewife. Screw it.