Scared and dont know what to do......
.........Jake is scaring me like the world is ending. I wish I could always be there for him. I wish he cared for me just as much as I do for him. Nothing I do helps him. It is like I am watching a softball game and my team is losing when I know i could help yet the couch won't let me play. I know that was lousy metaphor but YOU HAVE NO IDEA JUST HOW MUCH THIS HURTS. I am scared for him and I want to cry. I dont care about anyone at the moment except him. He has become a major priority because NO ONE knows except for me and a few others what he is capable of doing. He has done things I wish he hadnt. I love him alot but he doesn't take that into recongintion yet I wish he did. Jake I love you and your my brother just not my biological brother in any way shape or form but it feels like I have known you forever. Life will be hell for awhile until I really know whats going to happen.......................