209: dreams of last night
there was a terrorist attack going on, in my first dream, and jon took the kids but left me and i think it was my sister, but im not sure.....and he was coming back to get us, and we were at this building / park place.....jon came back and was calling for me, and i was telling him 'we're right here. im here' but he didnt hear me, nor did he see me...and i realized me and the other girl had died. i was so sad, not because i died, but because jon couldn't hear me. i couldn't talk to him anymore. then i DREAMT that i woke up, and it was SO REAL....cause i realized it was a dream and this happenned about 4 or 5 times....i'd force myself awake only to be lucid dreaming, i guess.....where i called Jon to tell him about my dream, but in the dream-call i couldn't get ahold of him still. finally it took a lot of energy but i actually got my eyes to open; it was like sleep paralysis tho i couldn't open my eyes it was so hard! i texted jon cause i figured he was sleeping, cause even my dream self needed to tell him about this stuff.
second dream.....okay at the apartments we lived in this mexican family lived there too. one of the guys who abused his wife is julio.... well, i had a dream that he and his dad saw me getting dressed...and julio was like so turned on by myb ody???? lol. that he decided to rape me in the ass....it hurt really bad, then he accidentally slipped into the v-jj area, and i liked it. and then he wasn't raping me anymore, but we were having sex........................................
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
i told jon i had a dream he raped me, i left out the part or rather lied about the sex part. its so gross. julio is a disgusting guy who beats on women. no thankyou. if i were to cheat.....well i wouldn't, but if i were, it wouldn't be with him. thats for sure.
third dream......we're on this road and its really high up and theres no railing. like the cajon pass but thinner and without rails....jons driving to fast, but we make it thru fine the first round. then i tell him to slow down the second round and the kids are with us, but before he can ask why or do anything we're falling off and its a long fall like alice in wonderland, so as we're falling jon says hes sorry that we're about to die....and i tell him its okay, i just want to kiss him before we do die......and after awhile we land safely i n town close to the local market............................
idk if its meds, stress, or a combination.........but ive had some strange ass dreams lately.
second dream.....okay at the apartments we lived in this mexican family lived there too. one of the guys who abused his wife is julio.... well, i had a dream that he and his dad saw me getting dressed...and julio was like so turned on by myb ody???? lol. that he decided to rape me in the ass....it hurt really bad, then he accidentally slipped into the v-jj area, and i liked it. and then he wasn't raping me anymore, but we were having sex........................................
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
i told jon i had a dream he raped me, i left out the part or rather lied about the sex part. its so gross. julio is a disgusting guy who beats on women. no thankyou. if i were to cheat.....well i wouldn't, but if i were, it wouldn't be with him. thats for sure.
third dream......we're on this road and its really high up and theres no railing. like the cajon pass but thinner and without rails....jons driving to fast, but we make it thru fine the first round. then i tell him to slow down the second round and the kids are with us, but before he can ask why or do anything we're falling off and its a long fall like alice in wonderland, so as we're falling jon says hes sorry that we're about to die....and i tell him its okay, i just want to kiss him before we do die......and after awhile we land safely i n town close to the local market............................
idk if its meds, stress, or a combination.........but ive had some strange ass dreams lately.