Life Despite God

Mar 30, 2004 22:14

Mixed feelings about tonight’s RCIA class.

We rehearsed Holy Thursday and Easter Saturday in church so that we knew where to sit, stand, walk… It was fun, yet chaotic.
Despite my reasons for being on this course, I will cry on the big day!
I don’t really want the classes to end, because I find them interesting and challenging.
And I love to dress up all pretty and be involved in the little ceremonies up front.

But we also discussed how we are going to become involved in the church after we have been confirmed.
We were given a hand out informing us of all the possible things we could do, from volunteering in the soup kitchen to helping decorate the church for mass to the choir.
There was nothing that took my fancy, surprisingly.
And after we had a few minutes to discuss it with our sponser, we had to tell the group what we felt called to do.
I just said, honestly, that I felt pressured to commit to something so soon. I didn’t feel the call just yet. I also said that I felt like I was still in a learning stage, and didn’t feel ready to go out and do proper god stuff (not quite those words though!)

They seemed ok with that, for now at least.
I just want my Confirmation name!!
Actually, I’ll still go to Mass to have my chats with the big G, but I don’t feel moved to iron the Priest’s robes or bake for bereaved families.
I wouldn’t mind attending a class on the lives of the Saints, cos that’s interesting to me, but that’s all.

Anyway, they seemed ok with ‘Lucia’ as my choice of name.
I have the best confirmation name too, btw.
In my group we have: Catherine, Louise and Frances(ca) for the girls, and Pio & James for the guys.
One lady is still deciding.
And then there is me with Lucia.
I wanted two but couldn’t think of a second name that I liked enough or that would sound good with Lucia. The only name I really considered was ‘Maria’, but Lucia Maria sounded too much like a booze flavoured drink.
I also thought about taking ‘Magdalene’ but decided that I really didn’t have a good enough reason for it, besides liking her cos she was a ho.
But I think I have a good combination…’Sara’ means ‘princess’ and ‘Lucia’ means light, so I will be the princess of light.
The candle in the wind.
The Marilyn Monroe for the Catholics!

Anyway… Fifi had better not make me laugh during any of these ceremonies.
I’ll still be in pretend pious mode, and will be looking serious.
But I will cry.
I cry easily, so the fact that I will have an Italian sounding name at last will just set off the water works!

In other news... Madonna tickets for her Re Invention tour go on sale next Monday.
I shall ask my boss if she’s interested.
She likes Madonna, and I reckon she’ll be up for seeing her greatest hits package.
Madonna is the only person (I think) that I really want to see but haven’t yet.
I’m sure Pete can get good seats for us, though I’m not paying billions of dollars.
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