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five more days until we move into our apartment
i was replaced on corey's phone by a picture of his dad.
ohh.
he refuses to send me dirty txt msgs
hmmmm idk
i just HATE the way things are lately
i hate having to make the 45 min drive everyday
im broke
SO broke
and its from filling my tank twice a week
i wouldn't have had to fill it as much
if we didn't take my truck to go to winter park to look for corey's server stuff
or if he would have listened to me and went to the liquor store next to dani's house instead of driving down university to go to one
or if he would have told me the truth that he really just wanted to go to sleep instead of hanging out
but whatever
between not having hours and having to spend ALL this money on gas
and finals this week and next week
and then next week we're moving into the apt and then next weekend we're going away
it will all be worth it in the end
i keep saying that
i believe it
i just want my mushy sappy adorable stuff back :(
it has vanished in the past month
i want it back!
i want my cute text messages and my dirt text messages and the holding hands and the "i love you more" fights and the love making over just having sex.
i want it back
hopefully next week will rekindle everything. im praying it will
im exhausted
salvi was here last night and they were talking until 3 or 4
so thats when i went to bed
and corey called me at 730 to wake me up
i dont really think he gets WHY i want him to call me
i want him to call me like he woke me up in the morning
i want the good morning kiss
only the good morning "hello"
followed by a few thoughts for the morning
like we used to do
not "hey. im going to work. so im calling you"
i feel like i'm forcing him to do it
NEXT WEEK! it will all be better
i cant wait to actually sleep!!
i love him so much
i cant believe we're finally moving in together!!
i was replaced on corey's phone by a picture of his dad.
ohh.
he refuses to send me dirty txt msgs
hmmmm idk
i just HATE the way things are lately
i hate having to make the 45 min drive everyday
im broke
SO broke
and its from filling my tank twice a week
i wouldn't have had to fill it as much
if we didn't take my truck to go to winter park to look for corey's server stuff
or if he would have listened to me and went to the liquor store next to dani's house instead of driving down university to go to one
or if he would have told me the truth that he really just wanted to go to sleep instead of hanging out
but whatever
between not having hours and having to spend ALL this money on gas
and finals this week and next week
and then next week we're moving into the apt and then next weekend we're going away
it will all be worth it in the end
i keep saying that
i believe it
i just want my mushy sappy adorable stuff back :(
it has vanished in the past month
i want it back!
i want my cute text messages and my dirt text messages and the holding hands and the "i love you more" fights and the love making over just having sex.
i want it back
hopefully next week will rekindle everything. im praying it will
im exhausted
salvi was here last night and they were talking until 3 or 4
so thats when i went to bed
and corey called me at 730 to wake me up
i dont really think he gets WHY i want him to call me
i want him to call me like he woke me up in the morning
i want the good morning kiss
only the good morning "hello"
followed by a few thoughts for the morning
like we used to do
not "hey. im going to work. so im calling you"
i feel like i'm forcing him to do it
NEXT WEEK! it will all be better
i cant wait to actually sleep!!
i love him so much
i cant believe we're finally moving in together!!