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passover with the shumans
my dad was never patient enough to make it through the sedar
he would always be itching to go back to work
we knew why he worked...he did it for us
but i would rather have had him around more
than have the nice houses, the nice clothes and the nice cars
so, my dad would get mad at us because it was taking too long
well, its a sedar, shit happens
so i would be upset, because it was always my mother and myself that prepared the sedar
it was an all day thing
she would never get upset
she was always mild mannored
i admired that about her
but, i also hated that
because it made me so upset
but i wasn't allowed to express that
it isn't what my family did
we kept our feelings to ourselves
emotions are a sign of weakness
we are not weak
so he would get angry and then leave
the rest of us would finish the sedar and eat...except for my mother
she would excuse herself from the table
and start to clean the kitchen
that would make me upset, so i wouldn't eat either
i would help my brother and sister
then help my mom clean
and excuse myself to my room so that i could lose myself in my homework
every night was like that
passover was always the worst holiday
tonight was the first night of passover
and it was the first passover without my family
i spent it, alone, with corey
and...it was wonderful
i had an amazing night
and...in some fucked up way...
i felt guilty because of it
i don't know WHY
he is perfect
we went to toojays for dinner
then went to moviestop to buy some movies
then over to the bookstore
he tried to buy me a book but i wouldn't let him
my cramps it really started hurting on the way home
he asked if i was ok and if i needed anything
i told him no
he's so cute...he asked if i wanted the heating pads because they made me feel better last time
i told him no that i just wanted to go home and curl up in bed and watch a movie with him
well, we met up at the mall so he dropped me off at my car
and i said "ok, going straight home, right?"
he said right and i gave him a kiss and went to my car
well, i got home, he wasn't there
hmmmmmmm
about 20 min later he shows up with heating pads and a big smile
he's incredible
what guy goes out and buys a big red box that says "menstrual pain relief heating pads"
we got into bed and curled up and watched a movie
i love how affectionate he is being lately
it makes this whole transition a LOT easier
not to mention a LOT more enjoyable
i mean. . . i always knew that he loved me
but it just seems like he isn't afraid to show it now
it is fabulous
and amazing
it is an incredible feeling
i feel like such a dork :D
i told corey i wanted to wait until we go away.
he suggested that we wait until next weekend
i told him no, i wanted to wait
so. may 2nd
he mentioned the old lady
that came up to us on my birthday
at our table at elephant bar
and said "i just wanted to let you know i really enjoyed watching you two"
and told us how we looked so in love
and how she got married when she was 70
and thats when her life started
it was weird but one of the nicest things someone has ever told me
my dad was never patient enough to make it through the sedar
he would always be itching to go back to work
we knew why he worked...he did it for us
but i would rather have had him around more
than have the nice houses, the nice clothes and the nice cars
so, my dad would get mad at us because it was taking too long
well, its a sedar, shit happens
so i would be upset, because it was always my mother and myself that prepared the sedar
it was an all day thing
she would never get upset
she was always mild mannored
i admired that about her
but, i also hated that
because it made me so upset
but i wasn't allowed to express that
it isn't what my family did
we kept our feelings to ourselves
emotions are a sign of weakness
we are not weak
so he would get angry and then leave
the rest of us would finish the sedar and eat...except for my mother
she would excuse herself from the table
and start to clean the kitchen
that would make me upset, so i wouldn't eat either
i would help my brother and sister
then help my mom clean
and excuse myself to my room so that i could lose myself in my homework
every night was like that
passover was always the worst holiday
tonight was the first night of passover
and it was the first passover without my family
i spent it, alone, with corey
and...it was wonderful
i had an amazing night
and...in some fucked up way...
i felt guilty because of it
i don't know WHY
he is perfect
we went to toojays for dinner
then went to moviestop to buy some movies
then over to the bookstore
he tried to buy me a book but i wouldn't let him
my cramps it really started hurting on the way home
he asked if i was ok and if i needed anything
i told him no
he's so cute...he asked if i wanted the heating pads because they made me feel better last time
i told him no that i just wanted to go home and curl up in bed and watch a movie with him
well, we met up at the mall so he dropped me off at my car
and i said "ok, going straight home, right?"
he said right and i gave him a kiss and went to my car
well, i got home, he wasn't there
hmmmmmmm
about 20 min later he shows up with heating pads and a big smile
he's incredible
what guy goes out and buys a big red box that says "menstrual pain relief heating pads"
we got into bed and curled up and watched a movie
i love how affectionate he is being lately
it makes this whole transition a LOT easier
not to mention a LOT more enjoyable
i mean. . . i always knew that he loved me
but it just seems like he isn't afraid to show it now
it is fabulous
and amazing
it is an incredible feeling
i feel like such a dork :D
i told corey i wanted to wait until we go away.
he suggested that we wait until next weekend
i told him no, i wanted to wait
so. may 2nd
he mentioned the old lady
that came up to us on my birthday
at our table at elephant bar
and said "i just wanted to let you know i really enjoyed watching you two"
and told us how we looked so in love
and how she got married when she was 70
and thats when her life started
it was weird but one of the nicest things someone has ever told me