take me to a place where nothings wrong.
*so last nite with danny was.... a.m.a.z.i.n.g. i cant believe that we got thru a year and a half.
*we got in dannys car and i gave him his present. a warrior tshirt and $25 to Make N Music. yay for the present!!
*we went to carrabbas...yummy. there we made the mistake of telling billy horn it was our anniversary so as we were impatiently waiting for our check we see the crew of carrabbaians with a lighted sundae for us. they sang best wishes in italian and it was great. so we ate our sundae, which was soooo goood by the way. and went to the car.
*then danny gave me MY present. well actually. i found it. ha... its this really pretty bracelet. its a chain of hearts. with a really big heart charm on it. its soo pretty and I LOVE IT.
*then we came back to my house...
... an hour later danny left...
*all i have to say is....
....i love danny neel so much. yeah. that was so sentimental.
*so latley ive been feeling like shit on my soccer team. i feel like i dont belong there. like people are afraid to pass me the ball. thats basically it. not a big deal i guess.
*im really scared for these months comming up. its the first holiday without my grandfather. its going to be so tough. i find myself thinking about him all the time. everytime i am alone, his face runs through my head, the way that he gave me an A Okay after i read him his poem and the way he wrote me that final letter... Thank You Sara. its amazing how those 3 words linger in my head.... and probably will ring in my head for the rest of my life...
*its really not fair. how god has the power to take away someone that means the world to my family. and i mean, i love god, and i do believe that he does things for a reason, but i odnt understand what he did so wrong to deserve such a painful and long death. it just fucking sucks. and i miss him...
....i miss him so much....
...and i cant even imagine what my uncles, aunt and sally feel....
*but thats what my friends are for rite... to be there for me...
*until next time...