i need light in the dark as i search for the resolution....

[sararedinger]

people can be surprising. i think i know someone, but then i realize how much i dont know them anymore. you know in yearbooks, when we write "never change" and something like HAKAS. well, when do people really change? i've been seeing new sides of people that i like and don't. some friendships can be lost easily, others go down with a fight and some just slip with time. but others are rekindeled after such a long time. i've been getting to know again people that i was best with in middle school, and its amazing how much i thought they changed, but really we're just the same. remembering those old memories tie us closer together and make us realize how that kind of freindship will never grow old. but, i have to admit, i haven't put that much effort into some of my old freinds. my BEST freind from daycare and elementary school moved away in 5th grade, just to warwick. after middle school we rarely talked. new friends drew us apart. my last birthday she called me during my party and wished me a happy 16th. i said i had to go, i was jsut about to do cake and i'd call her back. i never did. i saw her at a football game, we were playing her school and we decided to meet up. she said i changed, i was apparently "punk", um, skinny jeanz maybe. it was strange and akward, but on the phone the night before we were laughing, but in person with her freinds and mine we had nothing to talk about. i regret loosing her, and i don't know if we can ever be as close as we were. maybe i'll call her up, or facebook her. i think she was trying, and i wasn't doing my part to keep out friendship together. she lives the next town over, would it be completely akward if we hung out?
i just know that friends are so freaking amazing and i can't live without the ones i have. i love making new freinds. but sometimes its hard to chase the old ones. freindship can be a struggle, and sometimes you might have to give up but most of the time is totally completly worth it to talk things out and have that one "ehh" momement...