Rent, Tattoo, and Lover
Will I lose my dignity?
Will someone care?
Will I wake tomorrow
From this nightmare?
Yes, Sarah finally got her grubby paws on a copy of the movie-release of Rent. And I have to say that it's helped me so much. It's seriously changed my life.
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today...
That's the way I've been feeling, like I shouldn't let my recent break up stop me from enjoying life. So, yeah. Power to the strength of womens' hearts.
I got a tattoo.
Yes.
A tattoo.
And only after the fact did I ask my mother what she thinks about them. She told me that I would really only get one just because everyone else was. And, even if that's a little bit of the reason, that's my mistake to make. I don't think it's a mistake.
It's a hummingbird.
For about two years now, there's this ruby hummingbird that lives near my house, and always comes to my window in the early morning. It taps its little beak on the glass as if to say "Hello" or something. I've always found them beautiful, and it's such a miracle that so much life and energy can be contained in such a tiny creature. Kinda like me ! Well anyway, that's my reasoning, and I'm sticking to it, no matter what.
Haha. When I sat on the table, I had a look of such bliss on my face. It was like my body went soaring on the biggest high I've had in a while. It was just the other side of the line towards pain. It...was a lot of fun. And yes, I wish James had been there.
Last night, my recent ex said that he wished I had waited, because he wanted to be there with me when I got my first tattoo. I told him that he was giving me very mixed signals, like he wants to be there for me in important times, and share those times with me...but only as a friend. It gladdens me that he still wants to be in my life, but I was very surprised to find out that he's having as hard of a time with this as I am.
I love him. And, I know very well that I will always love him. He was my first love, and my first lover, and that's always going to be in my heart.
Anyway, I'm going to go play some Magna Carta before I return to James' house for D&D.
Will someone care?
Will I wake tomorrow
From this nightmare?
Yes, Sarah finally got her grubby paws on a copy of the movie-release of Rent. And I have to say that it's helped me so much. It's seriously changed my life.
There's only us
There's only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today...
That's the way I've been feeling, like I shouldn't let my recent break up stop me from enjoying life. So, yeah. Power to the strength of womens' hearts.
I got a tattoo.
Yes.
A tattoo.
And only after the fact did I ask my mother what she thinks about them. She told me that I would really only get one just because everyone else was. And, even if that's a little bit of the reason, that's my mistake to make. I don't think it's a mistake.
It's a hummingbird.
For about two years now, there's this ruby hummingbird that lives near my house, and always comes to my window in the early morning. It taps its little beak on the glass as if to say "Hello" or something. I've always found them beautiful, and it's such a miracle that so much life and energy can be contained in such a tiny creature. Kinda like me ! Well anyway, that's my reasoning, and I'm sticking to it, no matter what.
Haha. When I sat on the table, I had a look of such bliss on my face. It was like my body went soaring on the biggest high I've had in a while. It was just the other side of the line towards pain. It...was a lot of fun. And yes, I wish James had been there.
Last night, my recent ex said that he wished I had waited, because he wanted to be there with me when I got my first tattoo. I told him that he was giving me very mixed signals, like he wants to be there for me in important times, and share those times with me...but only as a friend. It gladdens me that he still wants to be in my life, but I was very surprised to find out that he's having as hard of a time with this as I am.
I love him. And, I know very well that I will always love him. He was my first love, and my first lover, and that's always going to be in my heart.
Anyway, I'm going to go play some Magna Carta before I return to James' house for D&D.