EXAUSTED!
I put a lot of pressure on myself to make this a memorable and special day. She won't remember any of it but I desperately needed to celebrate. It has been quite a year.
Friday was a frantic day. We went over to my friend Liz's house and made a 2 layer butter cake with butter cream icing. (Most of these pictures will be posted via picasa and facebook but if you are interested I will send you the link)
Anyway.. after the cake was cooled, frosted, and for all respective purposes finished we started on the dress. Liz got it thrown together in a jiff ( I would have done more on it had the cake not taken so long. But in the first cake I forgot to add the salt.) Anyway those pics are going to be posted too... the only thing I ended up doing in the end was the butterfly buttons on the shoulder.
Saturday I attended a pretty awesome workshop for my PD hours. I am so glad that I had switched her party because had it been Saturday no one would have been able to attend due to the storms.
Today started early and we busted our butts attempting to adapt. It was windy as all get out which makes an outdoor party pretty difficult. But it was sunny, the sky was gorgeous and I had my Tabs where I could hold and kiss her.
I may seem very neurotic here but I had a dream and Tabitha was in the hospital again and they were telling me when I could and could not see her and I woke up, my heart was pounding, and I felt as if I were going to cry.
This has been a very rough year and even if Tabs won't remember it I needed tons of pink, I needed balloons, I needed bright colors and screaming kids. I needed to celebrate life.
It wasn't until much later that I realized how scary the situation was and how bad it could have been. I could have died.. and so could have Tabs.
This year has been so emotionally draining... really its no real wonder I have experienced anxiety attacks.
I am also so lucky to have a husband who is so wonderful with children. They adore him and if I didn't have his encouragement and support I would be a complete basket case.
I had so many plans for my ideal experience a year ago. Very little of it panned out but at the end of it all I have my sweet and quirky little Tabby-toes.
More to say but I may expand upon it later....
Friday was a frantic day. We went over to my friend Liz's house and made a 2 layer butter cake with butter cream icing. (Most of these pictures will be posted via picasa and facebook but if you are interested I will send you the link)
Anyway.. after the cake was cooled, frosted, and for all respective purposes finished we started on the dress. Liz got it thrown together in a jiff ( I would have done more on it had the cake not taken so long. But in the first cake I forgot to add the salt.) Anyway those pics are going to be posted too... the only thing I ended up doing in the end was the butterfly buttons on the shoulder.
Saturday I attended a pretty awesome workshop for my PD hours. I am so glad that I had switched her party because had it been Saturday no one would have been able to attend due to the storms.
Today started early and we busted our butts attempting to adapt. It was windy as all get out which makes an outdoor party pretty difficult. But it was sunny, the sky was gorgeous and I had my Tabs where I could hold and kiss her.
I may seem very neurotic here but I had a dream and Tabitha was in the hospital again and they were telling me when I could and could not see her and I woke up, my heart was pounding, and I felt as if I were going to cry.
This has been a very rough year and even if Tabs won't remember it I needed tons of pink, I needed balloons, I needed bright colors and screaming kids. I needed to celebrate life.
It wasn't until much later that I realized how scary the situation was and how bad it could have been. I could have died.. and so could have Tabs.
This year has been so emotionally draining... really its no real wonder I have experienced anxiety attacks.
I am also so lucky to have a husband who is so wonderful with children. They adore him and if I didn't have his encouragement and support I would be a complete basket case.
I had so many plans for my ideal experience a year ago. Very little of it panned out but at the end of it all I have my sweet and quirky little Tabby-toes.
More to say but I may expand upon it later....