changes (yunho/junsu)
changes
yunho+junsu
g
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"changes come to those that make the effort."
yunho doggedly mutters those words and keeps on dancing. he tries his best and more because he knows that when he's stripped of his body, his muscles, his dancing, he has nothing else.
"hyung, it's time to turn in. get some rest" the angelic voice stops him. yunho turns and can finally smile. not a stage smile, but a real solid smile that makes him feel better.
"okay junsu-yah, just one more routine then i promise..."
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he's not good at playing the responsible one. he likes partying and hanging out with friends as much as the next guy. maybe even more than the next guy. but when he's thrust into a position where there are four other boys looking expectantly at him, yunho takes it up like the good sport he is.
"wait, jaejoong's not in the waiting room and it's almost time for our run through!"
"changmin, can you check the bathrooms?" yunho asks.
"yoochun can you trying calling all of his phones?" yoochun nods an affirmative to yunho.
"junsu?" yunho turns to ask something of junsu too but instead, he's caught in junsu's wide searching eyes.
"um...junsu, can you..."
"yeah?" yunho sees that junsu's eager to help.
"um...let me know when jaejoong comes back? i'm going to talk to the stage manager."
"okay..." comes junsu's feather light response. yunho doesn't turn back to see junsu's face.
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sometimes, yunho likes to observe quietly. and in those rare moments, he sees that jaejoong is the oldest but the friendliest regardless of his cold exterior. yoochun's always the suave one, making everything look cool and endearing at the same time. changmin is calculating, but sweet. his wandering eyes see everything.
and junsu...
junsu's the one yunho has known the longest. he prides himself on being able to see through junsu's silly demeanor and stubborn facade. but sometimes, yunho can't figure junsu out either.
all yunho knows is that junsu's constant humming is one of the things that keep yunho sane.
sometimes, in the middle of the night, yunho dreams about never hearing junsu's voice again. never hearing junsu sing as loud as he wants, unashamed in front of prying eyes.
and when yunho has that nightmare, yunho wakes up in a sweat, gasping and clutching at his chest. it feels like the air has been ripped from his lungs.
it's during those times in the middle of the night that one of the other four come to his room, asking him what's wrong and if he's alright. yunho always says yes. 'yes i'll be alright.' but only feels that this is true when junsu finds him, then curls his small hand around yunho's. yunho only falls asleep feeling fully safe and reassured when junsu falls asleep next to him and gets a little jolt of joy when yunho wakes up with junsu still linked to his arm.
yunho doesn't know what he should do when sometimes everything overwhelm him. but...
"changes come to those that make an effort" junsu sing-songs in the morning. and yunho thinks that junsu's right.