I'm sad and will be for a while...
Well I haven't updated this in over two years and so much has happened. I live by myself now and I hate it cuz I have no one out here to be with, I did but things happen and life gets all fucked up. I miss the old times so much. I'm now 21 and legal to drink and it really isn't that big of a thing.
Well I miss Mark a lot right now. I just have to face the fact that him and I were never meant to be together forever, even though everyone told us we would get married. He was my first love and I just can't get over him like he's getting over me. I just didn't think things would have ended the way they did between us. I'm glad he's still in my life as my friend but honestly I don't know if I can just be friends with him. I should be having fun right now and enjoying my life but all I can do is think about him.
I have realized that I have only two friends in my life and that is Stacey and Mark and that makes me sad. I'm a loser and it sucks to admit it. I wish I could just go out and meet new people or even a new guy, but I have no life and no friends and thats the bottom line.
Well to end on that note I hope everyone out there has a wonderful night. I'm going to try and get some sleep and try not to think about my life or Mark, but that will never happen. So goodnight and sweetdreams.
~*~Saran Wrap~*~
Well I miss Mark a lot right now. I just have to face the fact that him and I were never meant to be together forever, even though everyone told us we would get married. He was my first love and I just can't get over him like he's getting over me. I just didn't think things would have ended the way they did between us. I'm glad he's still in my life as my friend but honestly I don't know if I can just be friends with him. I should be having fun right now and enjoying my life but all I can do is think about him.
I have realized that I have only two friends in my life and that is Stacey and Mark and that makes me sad. I'm a loser and it sucks to admit it. I wish I could just go out and meet new people or even a new guy, but I have no life and no friends and thats the bottom line.
Well to end on that note I hope everyone out there has a wonderful night. I'm going to try and get some sleep and try not to think about my life or Mark, but that will never happen. So goodnight and sweetdreams.
~*~Saran Wrap~*~