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[saramartini]

so i feel better then I did last time I wrote. People say that you shouldnt push things aside because they will just be harder to deal wtih later but that doesnt work for me. I ether deal with things now or later and the outcome will still be the same. So I have accepted that my mother will never be what I want and she will always be one of the most selfish people I know. So thats that and its my choice to not have a relaionship with her till i think i am ready and till she goes to rehab. the only thing that sucks is that she has started going to family parties so i HAVE to see her that sucks but i just have to deal with it i guess.

I just want warm weather so I can go bike riding! I miss riding my bike all the time.

I want a new phone too but its a lot to cancel the old ones but im trying to save for that.