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I just finished my dance final. It was awesome. My brother fucking rocks for helping me - we got many compliments on it, and I feel like I am starting to become a bit of a dancer. I still need TONS of training, but I think i can do it. I really wanted to video tape it, but I couldn't find a camera. Oh well. I am now waiting for my afro-american studies final. I also have to do a make-up test in that class. I'm tempted to just not take it, but I'm afraid that I will fail the class if I do that.
Why am I so lazy? Why is it that I can think about everything else (school, work, friends, family) but not school? Last night I tried to study and I looked at my paper, and nothing happened. I tried to read, but other thoughts just kept coming into my head. I wrote 1 out of the 4 papers last night. It was awful, and I told my teacher that I deserve an F on it, so I hope that's what she gives me. She said I can e-mail her the other one that was due in that class - she's the shit. The other two papers are for my race/gender class, so I can put those off until tomorrow. After Thursday, I won't have to think about school until AUGUST. I really really don't want to go back, but unless something amazing happens to me, then that is whats going to happen. I want to audition for Disney Cruise Lines when it's time. My brother really loves it, and it seems like something I would cream my pants over. I am going to audition for a few shows next week - maybe I'll get lucky and have to quite Stringtown. That would be awesome for me, but shitty for my dad. We'll see what happens. No matter what - I am NOT going to be working there when i go back to school. To much pressure.
I crimped my hair last night. Its rockin today. I love Doritos - but only the Nacho Cheese kind. Those are the shit.
On a sexual note - it amazes me how much Michael turns me on. I don't remember feeling this way with jimmy. I mean, yea, he turned me on...but not like this. You know when every muscle in your body quivers and you can't help but close your eyes to enjoy the feeling of utter pleasure running up and down your spine while covering every square inch of your skin? It's like that - AND THEN SOME.
Speaking of Jimmy, I talked to him the other day. He seems to be doing very well. A few of his friends are drug addicts as usual and he's slacking in school...but he says that he feels pretty good. That makes me happy. I want him to be happy and satisfied with his life.
I miss my friends that are away at school. I can't wait to see them - it will be soon!
Why am I so lazy? Why is it that I can think about everything else (school, work, friends, family) but not school? Last night I tried to study and I looked at my paper, and nothing happened. I tried to read, but other thoughts just kept coming into my head. I wrote 1 out of the 4 papers last night. It was awful, and I told my teacher that I deserve an F on it, so I hope that's what she gives me. She said I can e-mail her the other one that was due in that class - she's the shit. The other two papers are for my race/gender class, so I can put those off until tomorrow. After Thursday, I won't have to think about school until AUGUST. I really really don't want to go back, but unless something amazing happens to me, then that is whats going to happen. I want to audition for Disney Cruise Lines when it's time. My brother really loves it, and it seems like something I would cream my pants over. I am going to audition for a few shows next week - maybe I'll get lucky and have to quite Stringtown. That would be awesome for me, but shitty for my dad. We'll see what happens. No matter what - I am NOT going to be working there when i go back to school. To much pressure.
I crimped my hair last night. Its rockin today. I love Doritos - but only the Nacho Cheese kind. Those are the shit.
On a sexual note - it amazes me how much Michael turns me on. I don't remember feeling this way with jimmy. I mean, yea, he turned me on...but not like this. You know when every muscle in your body quivers and you can't help but close your eyes to enjoy the feeling of utter pleasure running up and down your spine while covering every square inch of your skin? It's like that - AND THEN SOME.
Speaking of Jimmy, I talked to him the other day. He seems to be doing very well. A few of his friends are drug addicts as usual and he's slacking in school...but he says that he feels pretty good. That makes me happy. I want him to be happy and satisfied with his life.
I miss my friends that are away at school. I can't wait to see them - it will be soon!