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i held my father's death certificate today while listening to ani difranco use words as daggers to explain society.
i could only dry sob.
i have felt so suffocated lately.
like two walls closing in on me. i'm pushing and pushing, but no one heeds my yells. i am freedom--do not bring me down.
today i have been so lost.
i curl up and hold my pillow trying to forget my aching legs and confused mind.
certain thoughts leave me questioning myself. i straddle a line i don't understand. and if i can't explain it, no one else can.
it brings me back to last summer. oh the decisions that were made.
i cradle my feminine music to block out the male energy closing in on my world. i can't shake free. i don't know why i feel so swallowed. didn't i always want this? i'm not sure what i mean.
this town gets too small sometimes.
i want to lay on the floor in the juliet room and feel the sun shining on me from the mountains.
i could only dry sob.
i have felt so suffocated lately.
like two walls closing in on me. i'm pushing and pushing, but no one heeds my yells. i am freedom--do not bring me down.
today i have been so lost.
i curl up and hold my pillow trying to forget my aching legs and confused mind.
certain thoughts leave me questioning myself. i straddle a line i don't understand. and if i can't explain it, no one else can.
it brings me back to last summer. oh the decisions that were made.
i cradle my feminine music to block out the male energy closing in on my world. i can't shake free. i don't know why i feel so swallowed. didn't i always want this? i'm not sure what i mean.
this town gets too small sometimes.
i want to lay on the floor in the juliet room and feel the sun shining on me from the mountains.